When I arrived at the white party, I was shocked when Kyle asked me to back her up, especially as I had felt no support from anybody when I was immersed in difficult situations previously. Confronting Russell and Taylor and asking them to leave -- how could I possibly do that? My first reaction was to save her the embarrassment of being rejected. I had to text her, forewarn her, let her know what she was walking into, spare her the drama that was about to transpire.
I have been criticized for supporting Taylor. If you remember Kyle telling her that I don't take criticism well, I disagree -- I think I actually gobble it up. If it is not mean spirited but constructive, criticism is how we learn. Because I knew as I looked at their faces, Taylor's concerned look when she asked Kyle what was wrong, when they sat in the car and Russell said "just let us go," that I made the right choice.
It was an unfortunate situation. You see my naïveté as I question the lawsuit issue, still not being enlightened about what had played out at the dinner with Mauricio, Kyle, Taylor, and Russell. I had no clue that Russell had said he would sue me for something I had no part in. I was thrown under the bus many times without my knowledge, therefore I could not defend myself. Maybe, if somebody, anybody, had disclosed the fact that all these conversations had played out behind my back, I might have had a better handle on the state of play. I had received random emails from Russell myself, and questioned Kyle and Taylor at Paul's night of beauty as to their meaning, and everybody stayed quiet.