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I Don't Understand Brandi

Kim discusses her relationship with her sister and explains her pillow in Europe.

Hi everyone! Another season here, and another season gone!

This has been a great year, and one of the most amazing experiences I've gone through! I am not ashamed or embarrassed for anything that has happened this season. Of course, I may not have liked everything, and I’m sure I said the wrong thing or made mistakes. But I'm only human, and I have tried very hard to express myself as honestly as I can! Looking back at myself over this last season, I'm amazed at the changes I've seen! Thank you so much for sharing this growth with me, and for being a part of my sobriety! You have all been such a huge part of me overcoming some huge obstacles! I feel as if we have done this together, and I am forever grateful to you! OK, enough about us. You probably want to know about the reunion, so let's get started. . .

I think you all see that my sister Kyle and I are in a great place today. This season, you saw us struggling, and trying to piece our relationship back together, and we've done it! Over Christmas break, we worked on it while we did Stars in Danger, and now we’ve come full circle. At the Reunion Part 2, I just needed to tell her that moving forward, she needs to be more consistent with what she says to me, and that we need to be more upfront with one another. I want her to know I'll always have her back, and I want to know she will always have mine! The last couple years have been very challenging. I love my sister very much, and we’ve overcome these hurdles together. I truly want to thank you for the support you given Kyle and I through these times! We have really felt your support pushing us forward! Thank you!

Lisa and I. . .We’re in a good place today, but I have to be honest it was important for me to point out to Lisa how I felt about Paris! It was already a touchy situation for me, as I had a medication mix-up and I was not feeling well! She could have talked to me! Kyle did. . .Yolanda did. Instead, I felt she spoke behind my back and made light of a situation that was very serious! I saw her make jokes, and it really hurt my feelings and it made me angry. But Lisa and I are friends and I can discuss this with her in a healthy way! It's unfortunate the way it played out. I’m sure Lisa and I will handle things differently in the future, as I care very much for Lisa, and I know she cares for me. As far as my med mix-up, it’s unfortunate, but that's all it was, a medication mix-up, and no one paid the price more than I!

With regards to Brandi. . .Brandi baffles me. I really don't know why she jumped in on my conversation with Yolanda. Yolanda and I were having a discussion that had absolutely nothing to do with her! The next thing I know she's talking about my pillow -- which was really quite mean! When I asked Brandy why, she said she was protecting her friend!

The thing that really confuses me, is she said how I was her friend, and I do believe I am! So WHY!?!  Why be so mean? I guess I don't fully understand her -- like when she said my sister secretly doesn’t want me to make it! I know in my heart Brandi doesn't want that for me, and she knows my sister doesn't want that for me! So WHY? Only Brandi knows! Although, we have these "Brandi" things, I still like Brandi even though she said my pillow smelled like s---! Here's the thing, regardless of what Brandi said.. It's my pillow, so if I want to s--- on my pillow, or wipe my a-- on my pillow, it’s still my pillow! I can do whatever I want with it! What's really SCARY is that Brandi SNIFFED my dirty pillow! It had been dragged all over Europe, so no telling what was on that damn thing!!! So GROSS!

In regards to Yolanda, I guess my biggest issue is with her is just not telling the truth. Sure the girls and I have had our share of disagreements, and in those moments, people have blurted out untrue statements! But they've always been in the middle of a very heated argument! Sometimes they have been hard to forgive! But due the nature of the arguments, and the history of the girls, we have been able to put them behind us and move forward!

But with Yolanda, she creates these unnecessary lies at the expense of others! That raises a big red flag for me! I've seen people lie to make themselves look better, or to cover for their family, but this is for no apparent reason! It really bothers me that Yolanda has gone this route. When Andy asked her about when she called out Taylor, she said she doesn’t even remember saying that, and that she was very sick in her disease and she doesn’t even remember saying those words! She wouldn't even take responsibility! How about "I'm sorry" or "That was wrong"!? Or when she was asked about the master cleanse, why not just say she lied? Or when Andy asked her about the worker at her home who didn't speak English, why did she call him out in front of everyone and on camera? Her excuse is because of her culture and where she’s from. Instead of saying "Yes, that was insensitive" or "Maybe not everybody had access to the schools I did," she backtracks to these excuses rather than just apologizing. It doesn't make you a bad person to say you made a mistake, it just makes you human! I'm an alcoholic in recovery! I try to take responsibility for my actions whenever I can. When things come up that I did or said back when I was drinking, I try to own it. I have apologized for them, and I am still apologizing for them today!

I appreciated the friendship that I thought I had with Yolanda at the beginning, but I guess that was only one side of the person that she is! I recently heard that Yolanda insinuated that Kyle and I are desperate to get camera time! My sisters and I have grown up in front of the camera, so we are hardly desperate for that. We're not the ones leaving a treatment center to attend a reunion show.

On a happier note, I just saw Taylor and her boyfriend the other day and they both look great. I have a good friendship with her today, and I wish Taylor and her family nothing but wonderful and great things!!

To sum it up, I HAD A GREAT YEAR! My sister and I are all good. Lisa and me? Wonderful! Taylor, Brandi, and I? Super! And Yolanda? Well, I don’t think we are meant to be anything more than acquaintances. But all is good. It's been an amazing season and I've learned so much. Thank you so much for growing with me, and for all your incredible support. Thank you for being with me on this amazing journey and being a part of it with me!


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Brandi: You Can't Confirm What Didn't Happen

Brandi questions some of the ladies' motives, plus gives an interesting update on her relationship with LeAnn. 

Hey, My Bravoistas!

I’m in my American Airlines' seat 36 hours later, flying back home from NYC, thankful to be on a safe path home. My prayers go out to the families and loved ones of the downed German airliner in the French Alps this morning. I cannot imagine the pain being experienced by these families at this moment, which shockingly has led me to add a new person into my flight prayer children’s stepmom. Don’t get me wrong--not everything is yet copasetic, but my children love her, so she is now in the “flight prayer,” differences aside. Now on a happier RHOBH note, last night’s WWHL with Andy was sooooo fun! No drama for once!

NEWS FLASH! Please watch for my new Sonoma County Chardonnay “Unfiltered Blonde,” to launch in April!

As I look over this past season, all I can say is it’s been an odd one. There were so many fun moments that got lost in the drama and so many weeks of fun you never saw at all. I wish you had, but I'm not in control of everything we get to see. I’d like to remember having fun with Kim “stalking” my now boyfriend J.R. That was such a crazy fun girls' night, Lisa R. being chased by killer bees, Yolanda and her Facetime confusion and meeting her family for the second time this--time in Holland, the Foster Foundation Extravaganza, “singing” at Lisa V.’s birthday party, and Kyle pretending to be a caring sister and owning yachts and planes…haha.
Ok, I’ll behave.

Here we are at the last episode of the season, yet, it seems most are still stuck in the beginning. I wish we weren’t, and I would dearly like to leave “Poker Night” behind. However, one person continues to make it the focal point of every interaction from when it happened and far into the three-part reunion.

This episode opens with Rinna tearing down a swing set, but her home interviews are still about what she perceives as Kim’s issues to be, not the actual touching moment of what the swing set tear-down symbolizes or her own family (I can't wait for her daughters to write their Brooke Shields-style memoir when they are age appropriate). LR says she feels sorry for Kim and cares about Kim and wishes Kim well. The truth is a lot less pretty. Some people have been attacking Kim’s sobriety online this week, but we won’t name names. BTW, Kim is sober and not online. She is busy caring for serious ill family members and driving back and forth to doctors and hospitals and being strong for her family.

Next we see Nicky Hilton’s book signing--sister Paris and mom Kathy Hilton are there. Looks like a great party and congrats to Nicky on her style book. Camille looks gorgeous as usual. Kyle angrily flips her hair, because Kim was wearing a shirt that she carries at “her” shop, but didn’t buy it there...whatever. Then Kyle whispers about her sister Kim to Lisa V. and Camille.
Kyle then tells them she is confused and impatient that Kim hasn’t confronted me over her third-hand Lisa R. gossip. She states Kim WILL be hurt and broken hearted over what “I” said… Kyle seems way too overy excited about that happening, which I find kind creepy. Why would anyone WANT their sister to be hurt or in pain?!

The preparations for Adrienne’s party are in full swing next. Lisa V. is fretting it, Kim is casually discussing the intervention GOSSIP with her makeup artist before the party, I’m getting ready and waiting for my friends and my date.

Adrienne’s party is the big finale of our journey this year. Everyone is there, and Adrienne always excels at events. So here we go. First off, my mind was not on the party at all. My father was recently hospitalized, and I didn’t leave his side for two weeks. It was very serious, but I had to return home to my boys. He was still not conscious, but I needed to get home to run my household--a party was the last place I wanted to be, but I had promised. That’s why I decided to bring the few people that I felt I could depend on in that moment. My friends and J.R. have been there for me during my father’s health scare and over more then a month of hospitalization--that was and is what remains what’s important to me.

The party seems like it was fun for a lot of people who weren’t involved in Kyle and Lisa. R.’s drama. I wish I were one of them, but in a way I was. As much as Kyle relished telling Kim the hurtful gossip she heard from LR, what she wanted to happen didn’t happen. There was no argument between Kim and I. We were happy to see each other. We spoke easily. I was busy worrying about my Dad; she was busy with her family.

What we saw on the finale was an efficient Kim quietly confronting Lisa R., then leaving Lisa R.'s table somewhat amused. Lisa R. couldn’t confirm the veracity of her gossip, because I DIDN’T SAY IT. Thanks again to Bravo for showing the truth in a flashback last week.

So, Kim knew who was who and what was what. The entertainment of the night was provided by Lisa R. going radio silent while Kyle begged for corroboration on her dramatic intervention gossip. Watching Yolanda, Eileen, and Lisa V. urge Lisa R. to support Kyle and verify her hurtful gossip was almost amusing. You can't confirm what didn't happen, can you?

In the end, I left the party early. Why? Not because of a past friendship with Lisa V. It's not her that made me cry--I was crying for my father, my dad! I was in no place to be at a superficial party, discussing a superficial incident with a person who was clearly not a friend, not that night. I said I would show up, and I did. After that, I wanted to be with my real close friends and family. Since this party my dad came out of the ICU and after 2 entire months and after a long stressful time I want to thank Dr. Allen Morris and all the doctors and nurses at Mercy General Hospital of Sacramento for saving my dad's life yet agin for the second time in 15 years. He is doing much better and continuing his hope of a full recovery. I am so thankful to all the people who were there for me and continue to be here for my family and I.

THAT is what life’s about, being with the people who truly love and care about you and the feelings are reciprocated.

As you hear, at the end of the finale, I am wistful, yet, wiser, and I think in a stronger place. I love and loved being there for Kim and being Kim’s friend, and I love that she was, is, and has been here for me. Even more so, I'm grateful and blessed to have Yolanda in my life; she is no bullsh--. Even when suffering herself, she is still so selfless. Yo is very special to me, I love her, she gets me, we have fun together, and I value every moment we spend together. I always will. As for the rest, I hope to share laughs and fun again, maybe tears, but hopefully only joy.

Peace Out. (deuces MFs--JK)



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