Hi rveryone! I hope you enjoyed our first episode last night.
I apologize for my lack of blogging last season but it was honestly much too painful for me to watch. However this season I promise you will see some great changes. . .I am in a wonderful place and working hard on myself. My road to sobriety hasn't been easy but I am fortune enough to have a great support system. Rebuilding my life has had its challenges but it has been so well worth it! My children have been simply amazing!
As you can see from the first episode, I have a great relationship with my sister Kathy, we spend a lot of time together and really enjoy each others company. While at times we do have our moments, as sisters do, we rarely fight and never speak ill of each other. When it came time to find a dress for Kimberly's prom I knew right away that Kathy would be perfect person to help find a dress for the occasion. Kathy has a beautiful new dress line: Kathy Hilton Dress Collection and has amazing taste! So I was so happy to have her be a part of this very special process.
Going to Lisa's Villa Blanca party: I was very nervous and still very new in my recovery. The combination of a party and the conflicts with Brandi and my sister were all extremely anxiety provoking. The party aspect alone in early recovery can be so overwhelming! Then to top it off is the all the thoughts going through my mind. . .What are people going to think of me? What will they say? All eyes on me! At least that's what you think.
I saw Kim on Andy's show last night and she looks absolutely fabulous. Keep up the good work Kim!,,,
We are seeing you new you and loving it. I read this today:
"I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in the darkness, the astonishing light of your own being."
You look beautiful and I especially LOVED the bohemian chic look while watching your daughter get ready for her prom. You are a very loving super mom. And very sensitive. We virgos are over analytical and sensitive beings of the zodiac. Don't be hard on yourself. One day at a time...
Love always, Elsa
Stay away from the drama if you can this season! It was so awkward watching you and Kyle at the party and not having anything to say to each other. No one knows your relationship except the two of you but I do think Kyle is so aggressive with you and you deal with it in such a passive way. The ex-boyfriend was weird and maybe cupid will be on your side this year. Please focus on recovery and everything else will fall into place. Your kids are adorable and the amount of love between you shows on camera.
I think Kim held great at Lisa's party and stayed away from the drama so far. Everyday is a challenge.
I am glad you are on the road of recovery and wish you well. It must be hard to admit that you are an alcoholic, but to play that out on reality tv is a different ball game. I wonder why you would make the choice to air out all your dirty laundry here given last season's drama. You need to apologize to Brandi. You say that you don't blame her for your problem with alcohol, but what she accused you of. She knew you were intoxicated at that party where you hid her crutches and she was right. Her guesses of what you were intoxicated of were maybe incorrect, but Kyle checked to see if you were drinking and you weren't. It was her addressing the issue that may have been the initiating event that led you to go to rehab. I think you blame her for stating the obvious because no one else would and you having to deal with the consequences. I think you owe her a thank you just as much as an apology.
THis happened six months ago if not longer...we don't know what's transpired between these two since. It takes time to walk up to someone and say I am sorry for ....., cut her some slack.
Kim good for you and I wish you the best on your new journey.
I am a recovering addict and survivor of domestic violence. Last season watching your downward spiral was heart breaking. I actually cried knowing from personal experience the battle going on inside of you. It is a daily struggle that unfortunately too many people have little to no understanding of. Congrats on turning your journey around. You look and sound fantastic. It's obvious from your behavior thus far this season that you want it to be a positive one. I am a fan of the OC girls, BH girls, and NJ girls but to date have never commented (however I will comment to Taylor on her caddy pathetic behavior next). It's apparent you are still on shaky ground as when this was filmed your recovery was very new and I just wanted to say I hope with each passing day that the issues life throws at you has gotten easier to handle. I also want to say that as an outsider looking in I hope you will give Brandi a chance. Although she comes across as "bitchy" at times I actually find her "straight forward take me as I am" attitude refreshing compared to the fake caddiness that seems to come from a few of the other cast members. She will look you in the eye and tell you what she thinks (even if it's way off base) where it appears a few of those ladies will tell you what you want to hear, smiling while holding the knife behind their back. Take care, be strong, and remember, your recovery is yours and no one can take that from you but you!!
Well, there is nothing like using your blog to plug your sister's dress line, is there? I am so sick of all the reality show women trying to shove products down our throats. We do not watch to see ads disguised as entertainment. And that means all wives on all the shows. Although, I will say that the Beverly Hills gals have not stooped as low as the New York and New Jersey wives have. Disgusting!
rosyposy Is that why Kathy Hilton made an appearance on the show? I don't recall her being in too many episodes. The dresses were nice though.....
Kim, Good for you working on your alcoholism. It won't be an easy road, but stick to it. Let the Brandi thing go...I think a lot of this was fueled by your sister, Kyle. Brandi may not have a filter, but I do not think she is a mean spirited girl.
Not understanding at all what Kim's beef with Brandi is. We all saw what both Kim and Kyle did to Brandi in season 2 in the "Game Night" episode. Kim's behavior was completely atrocious in that episode, akin to a 6 or 7 year old. I won't even get into Kyle. But Kim definitely played her childish role in tormenting Brandi for absolutely no good reason: Ignoring her, being unfriendly and rude, loudly "whispering" things about even though she was sitting like two feet away on the couch and could hear everything, then hiding her crutches from her?? And what was Brandi's big crime that Kim can't/won't forgive and move on from? The accusation that Kim was on meth that night, due to Kim's slurred speech, frequent trips to the bathroom and erratic, nutty behavior. And guess what? Brandi was right....Kim was on drugs. She just got the drug itself wrong. But she called it exactly as she saw it, and she was 99% right.
Meanwhile Kim and Taylor were at each other's throats several times throughout season 1, in situations far worse than anything Brandi did, and Kim was quick to let that go and move on? Now they're practically besties when they cross paths in social situations? Makes no sense.
Kim is the one who instigated the situation with Brandi, treating her badly when Brandi had never done a thing to her. She gave Brandi every reason to claim that Kim was on drugs. Which she was. Kim needs to own all of that instead of trying to pretend Brandi did something so awful to her so she can nurse her little grudge. It doesn't fly. Everybody saw the "Game Night" episode. Oh, and that's not even counting that episode towards the end of season 2 and the way Kim behaved towards Brandi at that one shindig, getting all up in her face, mocking her, imitating her voice, then trying to sic her *teenage daughter* on Brandi. It was embarrassing to watch. Again, Brandi did nothing to provoke that level of behavior from Kim and handled the situation in a classy manner, recognizing that Kim clearly has substance abuse issues and choosing to walk away and not get pulled into anything. Kudos to Brandi.
Kim needs to own her behavior towards Brandi (who btw tried multiple times throughout season 2 to make peace with Kim, only to have Kim snub her) and stop trying to twist the situation around. Kim is 100% in the wrong in this situation.
It is apparent that you have not conquered you demons. Why are you still on TV when you should be working on getting better and spending time with you children. Oh and lay off the Botox. Your upper lip doesn't move at all.
Kim, can you blog something? You have a lot of fan support here so don't let them fall by the wayside. Stay posted and post!
Surround yourself with non-toxic people. Your sister is toxic and staying far away from her is the best thing to do during this recovery phase.
Hey Kim, hope all is going well in your recovery, one day at at time. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. You're my favorite Beverly Hills Housewife, besides Camille, who I wish would return as a regular cast member. I don't know if you read this, but ignore the negative comments... some folks seriously need to get lives. Blessings!
you still need to apologize for hiding brandis crutches, i mean really, how low can you go. and you still think you did nothing wrong to her. you guys started it and you should end it
grow up and take care of this
speee1dy I agree. Apology required! Very mean girl thing to do, whether she was having issues or not.
Geeze the taping of these shows happened months ago, you don't know what's happened in the meantime. Get off your high horse.
It's good to see you back & I wish you the best....... I believe in you & just take one day at a time.......:)
I love that she has a problem. . .it makes her human. It's how she deals with the problem that has the potential to possible help others. For that reason alone, I'm glad she is on the show.
Kim, You are the one that has alot of apologizing to do and to many many people. You really have lead a very insulated life. Kyle is really getting a bad rap for you and I can not believe you can sit back and allow it to happen. I bet you do not even remember how many family gatherings, events, parties, birthdays, holidays, etc... you ruined or simply could not show up for because you were drunk. It is a shame alchoholics can't and won't see the hurt, pain and guilt they cause others. You chose alchohol over your family for several years and have to live with that fact. You are the one that needs to apologize and ask for forgiveness.
We do not know if she has gone back to drinking. . .Life isn't about hiding or staying out of the limelight, it's about facing your demons and moving on. I would hope as caring people, would would encourage her to stay focused on her goal than writing remarks that could possible hender her progress. I for one, wish her the best and applaude all the other possitive comments wishing the same.
I am still hearing slurred words here and there, and some ditzy behaviour.... not sure if you are staying clean and sober... it doesn't seem like it.
I hope you can make it.... hang in there.... don't give up.... but don't try to fool people if you have fallen off the wagon... people, especially your friends and family, will see through it anyway. They just want you to be well.
Good luck Kim.
KIm Bravo for tackling your problems. I think you need to assert yourself and not be shy about it. Kyle tends to be very demanding and I have two sisters (I"m the middle) and I tend to be the peace keeper and ignore their behavior but when enough is enough- I let them know that i'm no pushover. Don't be afraid to defend yourself and your feelings.
Kim, I think you have the strength to win this battle, but stay with positive people and walk away from stressful situations even if it is family ie Kyle. You need to worry less about some child's birthday party and more about YOU! Don't let anyone including Kyle guilt you into feeling badly for not participating in something you don't feel ready to do. Do what is fun and avoid things that make you uncomfortable and it might be Kyle. We can all see the stress that comes over you when you are around her. Kathy seems to be more comfortable for you so that is a good relationship to spend time with. Stay close to Lisa and Yolanda they are not into the BS.You and Brandi should make up because even though Brandi has a wicked sense of humor she is honest and won't talk behind your back you know right where you stand and you can feel comfortable with her because just like you she just doesn't want to be attacked.
You look absolutely fantastic! Such a difference from last season... what a difference sobriety makes. You have such a glow about you and look more confident. And I'm glad you will be blogging every week. I think you will find it to be very therapeutic too.
I can only hope that you and Kyle will be able to work things through. I don't think your situation is a unique one, however it IS unique in that it is public. That must be hard to deal with, with you being newly sober. Maybe it's what you need. I think it's wonderful that you have a life coach that will not only help you with your sobriety, but will help you work out other issues regarding family and relationships as well.
I'm so thankful you are no-longer with Ken. I hope you take time for yourself and when you're ready, I hope you find your 'Mr. Right'. May God bless you!
Kim, You are a very attractive, fun person...that is when you are not carried away with grudges against people, like Brandi...get over it..she has..and she apologized...and people realize that what she said was probably on target..and she was just fighting back, because you and Kyle were so terrible to her. Give her a break! People have given you one! I have written that Kyle is in your life too much, criticizing and trying to control you. At some point you need to decide who you want to have in your life...and who is toxic to you..I am not saying forever..I know Kyle has your best interests at heart, and she really does love you..she just hates to see you "mess up" so much because of the promise she made to your mother.
Thank goodness you did not stay with Ken..he was bad news, I think..not worthy of you...he was a low class person, and Kyle recognized that..she wants what it bests for you. What happened to that nice man Lisa wanted to fix you up with..He looked nice, and he was a "catch". I agree with you that you think the man should call you, but sometimes you have to give him a reason to call...you basically ignored him. You could always invite him to dinner some night at your house. Congratulations and best luck on your sobriety..Be nice to yourself and do the things you want to do. I think it is best you are not on the show all the time, but infrequently at present..it is too toxic for you. But we miss you and hope you do return, eventually.
I am glad you are sober, Congratulations.
The reason Brandi said those mean things to you was because you deserved it. You and Kyle both acted like “mean girls” and treated Brandi horribly. She just wanted the harassment to stop. Who hides someone’s’ crutch? Did you want her to just sit there and take your abuse? You deserved the response Brandi gave you. Have you watched the episode? Do you actually remember what happened?
She was the new girl and you and your sister acted like jealous fools and made her feel unwelcomed. I think you need to look at the episode again and then you might realize you own Brandi an apology.
First of all, it is soooo good to see you are winning the battle to stay sober. I think Kyle should step back and just leave you alone for a while. Her heart is in the right place, she loves you. For some reason, you hold resentment toward her. Those bad feeling can drag you down. Are you making the mistake of blaming her for your own problems? Just ponder that a while. She really should just let you sink or swim on your own, because you do not want her help. It irritates you, and that is your right. It will be healthier for the both of you if she just totally lets go till you earnestly appreciate her and invite her back into your life. Socializing together is one thing....getting involved in the other's personal life is another.
Kim good to see you healthier and higher spirits and participating. It is all work in progress.
however dear, I think you should start witha fresh slate with Brandi. Things escalated and you both have come down from the madness. Good to see that dirt bag of a boyfriend is gone. Obvious scuz. Finally, perhaps the things that bother you regarding your sister are things that somewhat are underlining issues you have with yourself or your life. Not saying this in a mean spirited way by no means. I wish you the best and continued success and strength Each day counts.
I like you.
Apologize to Brandi. She is nice. She will probably apologize to you.
You and Kyle were very mean to Brandi. You were acting weird in the bathroom.
You attacked her and she attacked back..
She has tried to apologize to you too.
Stay away from Taylor.
I'm happy that your recovery is going well, good for you and I hope you continue to grow stronger everyday :) I will say this, you owe your sister a huuuuge apology and from what I've seen as a viewer, she has done nothing wrong to you. As an addict you treated her with contempt, disrespect and in order for your recovery process to truly work you need to acknowledge your behavior, take responsibility for it (which means apologizing to Kyle from a real and heartfelt place). I think in order to do this you may need to watch the last seasons over again. I know you say its too painful, but in order to move on you need to see who you were in the past - and unfortunately that person was not very nice to many people. Obviously your relationship with your sister is priority, but you also treated Brandi very badly, all of the altercations that you had with her were entirely your doing and she deserves not only an apology, but if she accepts it, a fresh start with you. You seem to have a good heart and be a good person who just took the wrong path, so I hope you take this criticism well as its for your own benefit (if you can see past your ego to look deeply into your past behaviors). Really wish you the best in your recovery!
You are blaming your sister for way too much! Own your own behavior and move forward--isn't forgiveness part of AA? You need to ask Kyle to forgive you for your very bad behavior, not the other way around. She supported you, worried about you and tried, repeatedly, to help you. We should all be so lucky to have such a kind and supportive sister!
not so sure about "kind" she is pretty mean to Kim. Kyle just needs to stay away because she can't help herself from bossing Kim around and judging everything she does. Let Kim recover and learn to be Kim
Season is new however, I like how your personality has changed to be more excepting. You seemed sincere in at least saying Hello & hugging Brandi. "Serenity Prayer" - my late husband was a user as well. Not easy to admit, kudo's to you. It's also not easy to be alone even with 4 boys for me. But we have to like ourselves. Hope you have learned to like yourself. Hope this is a season of support, caring - not catty ignorant behavior. Peace
I think you were right, I think your sister Kyle does butt in too much and too far into other peoples business. I know she butts into your life but I guess thats what sisters do...but seeing her butt into Lisa and Adriennes problems and then Brandis is showing she tends to stick her nose in areas she shouldn't.
You looked great in this episode, even though it was only for a few minuets. I hope you are staying sober, you are too great a person for that!
No sympathy for a user! Poor me.... I was a child star, had money.... blah, blah, blah. Make better life choices! Stop thinking you are the center of the universe.... that is what a real addicts problem is!!!
kim, i relate to you a lot...you're kind and real and your sister is condescending and treats you passive-agressively all the time or ignores you. suddenly you're supposed to "jump" when she invites you to portia's party?? she didn't give a damn what you had going on. i'm proud of you for going nonetheless and being there for your niece. kyle always has to throw in a dig like "finally" or "amazing" and then it's not good enough for her...she complains that your kids aren't there! try not to let her get to you; she is resentful because she cannot control you. that's her problem. be true to yourself. i think you're beautiful and sweet and wish you were my friend. i'm in recovery from valium myself and it's very difficult because i inherited my father's panic attacks and now i'm using chantix to quit smoking and trying to lose weight too! hang in there girl...you can do it!
I am so very happy to see you back! Please stay strong! Sisters are sisters, they can love you unconditionally and when they hurt you the cut is deeper than any friend could ever hurt you. I know the day will come when the healing between you two will begin. Try to stay clear of the negative people who either want to bring you down or those that have not realized how their words can hurt. Please know there are many people like myself who want nothing but happiness and well being for you. Take care.
When you are seeing your therapist as part of your recovery, maybe you should take some footage of last season and the history between you an Brandi. You could then explore why you felt and continue to feel the need to be so outright ugly to her and your inability to take responsibility for the fact that you were the one who caused the situation and should feel the need to apologize for that rather than to continue to be nasty. I believe a couple of the steps are taking responsibility and apologizing, no?
Kim, You are an amazing,wonderful person. I enjoy watching you on the show, your beautiful personality and kindness come across at every crossing. My daughters and I think you are the number one housewife of Beverly Hills and we so look forward to seeing so much more of you on the show. You have handled every situation with honesty and grace. Keep up the good work. We Love You!!!!!.....You are the Best!!!
Lavendar2--I think YOU may need some rehab. . . "kindness". . ."honesty". . ."grace". . . those are three words that could NOT be said about KIm, at least while on the show!! I am willing to see if a sober Kim is a kinder one, but it's not looking so good. . . Kim is supposed to make amends to those she had hurt (12 steps, right?), and sorry, but Brandi should be at the TOP of the list. Kim just doesn't have it in her, which shows me she has a looooong way to go yet. The funny thing is, Brandi would forgive her in New York minute, because that's how cool SHE is!
You were really horrible to Brandi and owe her an apology. I remember when you and Kyle hid her cane. That was really obnoxious.
Kim congrats on your recovery but damn girl, if you can go to such a public party with tons of folks your dont know, you can certainly go to your neice's birthday party with folks that love you there. Shame on you for not going and blaming it on your recovery........when you are at a very public party with alcohol. I think you owe your sister tons of apologies.