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See a New Me

Kim's happy to be back and blogging and showing fans a new sober her this season.

Hi rveryone! I hope you enjoyed our first episode last night.

I apologize for my lack of blogging last season but it was honestly much too painful for me to watch. However this season I promise you will see some great changes. . .I am in a wonderful place and working hard on myself. My road to sobriety hasn't been easy but I am fortune enough to have a great support system. Rebuilding my life has had its challenges but it has been so well worth it! My children have been simply amazing!

As you can see from the first episode, I have a great relationship with my sister Kathy, we spend a lot of time together and really enjoy each others company. While at times we do have our moments, as sisters do, we rarely fight and never speak ill of each other. When it came time to find a dress for Kimberly's prom I knew right away that Kathy would be perfect person to help find a dress for the occasion. Kathy has a beautiful new dress line: Kathy Hilton Dress Collection and has amazing taste! So I was so happy to have her be a part of this very special process.

Going to Lisa's Villa Blanca party: I was very nervous and still very new in my recovery. The combination of a party and the conflicts with Brandi and my sister were all extremely anxiety provoking. The party aspect alone in early recovery can be so overwhelming! Then to top it off is the all the thoughts going through my mind. . .What are people going to think of me? What will they say? All eyes on me! At least that's what you think.

Then there was Brandi. . .I hadn't seen her since last year and we left on a very bad note. I want to start by saying that I have NEVER once blamed Brandi for my problem with alcohol. I am an admitted alcoholic and have been for many years! I will own and take full responsibility for my actions. It is something that I battle with every day and something that although was private for a long time because a public battle. However, what I do blame Brandi for is what she accused me of! It was completely false and hurtful! However as you learn in recovery that you must forgive and it is extremely unhealthy to hold negative feelings towards someone. It has definitely taken some time but I would say we have made it through. . .so far.

Then there is my sister Kyle, it's no secret we have had our differences. You have watched our ups and downs, our happy times and our sad times. After coming home from treatment I felt like my sister and I had a real shot at a new beginning. I knew it wouldn't be easy and a lot of damage had been done, but I felt encouraged to mend one of the most important relationships in my life. I saw her few times and things were fine on the surface, but then I just didn't see her at all. I didn't feel the same comfort that I had with my sister in the past. . .things were awkward. Before the party at Villa Blanca, I asked my life coach to come by for support and to help me process all of these feelings! Then within seconds of seeing Kyle she mentioned my niece Portia's birthday.

I have always made it a priority to always participate in all my nieces' and nephews' birthdays, graduations, and any school events. I have rarely missed any important occasion, even on last minute notice! I can't say that on my children's special days that the same as been done for them. If you recall Kyle never even let me finish my sentence at Villa Blanca that night. I was trying to explain to Kyle that I hadn't been home that long, and was still trying to put back the pieces of my life together.

The first step was starting with my children, they were my first focus. I tried to explain to Kyle that it was my first weekend having all four of them home together! In my new house! That was very exciting for me and them and was something we hadn't done in a year! I can't tell how I was looking forward to this!! I told her we would try to make it but in all honesty life is not always about a party. This my real life! I love my sister then and now! I think it's just so hard for her to separate.

Meeting Yolanda was such a nice surprise. She's pretty, kind, and I genuinely like her! Definitely a nice addition to our group!

Overall I am excited for you all to see a new me: a sober me. Of course we all have our moments, you will see me cry and you will see me happy.

But you will see me trying my very best to stay true to myself, my sobriety and most of all my children. I am happy to have gotten to spend time with such an eclectic group of powerful ladies. Here's to another crazy season of Housewives!

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Kyle: Kim and I Will Never Agree on This Matter

Kyle clarifies the Kingsley issue and responds to Brandi's most recent accusation. 

I don't want to write this blog. I didn't even want to watch this reunion, to be honest. There. I said it. But here I go....
Let's just dive right into the text message from Lisa Rinna to Kim.
I was very shocked to hear about that text. There is no excuse for that. I believe Lisa R. knows that. I can understand Kim being upset about that. I am sure she was taken aback, as we all were when we heard it. However, I don't think Lisa Rinna is a dangerous person. She just made a really bad choice.

Now onto Amsterdam and the space cake talk. Brandi went after me in Amsterdam regarding the space cake, because she doesn't like me and wanted to deflect from her own behavior once again. This was her big chance to say something about me, calling me a hypocrite for not partaking in the space cake. I have said it before, and I will say it again: I NEVER said I haven't smoked pot. I HAVE. It's just not my thing. I have a lot more fun having a few margaritas. Kim knows that. I would have appreciated her chiming in there. Also, I have NOT eaten a pot brownie or a space cake ever, and my husband had warned me that it would not suit me well, knowing my personality. You cannot gauge exactly what you're ingesting, and it wouldn't be smart. I didn't want to have a bad experience and "freak out," so to speak. Brandi herself wasn't partaking, because of her own reasons (which had to do with her divorce, as she explained), so wouldn't that make her a hypocrite then? WHY did she care if I did or did not choose to? Because she wanted to jump at the chance to make me look bad, since her behavior and her drinking had been front and center. Her drinking was out there, because she puts it out there, and she has nobody to blame but herself. If I HAD chosen to eat a space cake, she would have jumped on that, too. Anything to divert from her own actions which she was comparing to ours. All of us may have a few drinks, but NONE of us behave like her when we drink.
I only address this because it was on television. Her opinion of me is completely irrelevant to me. I only cared, because I am a mother, and her trying to make me out to be something I am not is reckless, as is everything else she does.
Ok. Enough of that. She beat that non-event to death. I think we can move on now.

Now this is the hard part...Kim and I had not spoken since Nov 1st. We both knew the situation with my daughter, Alexia, and Kim's dog, Kingsley, was bound to come up at the reunion. We don't get to pick and choose what we want to talk about.
Alexia had spent the night at Kim's house on Halloween. The next morning, Kingsley bit her. While scary, at first it didn't seem that serious. However, what the first doctor failed to notice was that the tooth had pierced the bone and also broken it. Five days later, we found out that her bone was infected and she needed surgery to clean out the bone. Kim was upset, because I had posted pictures from the hospital. Like I said at the reunion, I NEVER said her dog bit Alexia. Never mentioned her OR her dog. TMZ ended up finding out that it was Kim's dog, and she blamed me, because I posted the pictures from the hospital. I did not do that to hurt my sister in any way or to "get Instagram followers," like she suggested. With all of my family coming and going at the hospital, people were bound to find out and talk.

We were all with Alexia at the hospital trying to distract her and have fun. As any mother would do. We were all trying to make the best out of a bad situation. We invited family and friends to visit and tried to keep her spirits up. In hindsight, I wish I hadn't posted that picture, but I certainly didn't mean to hurt Kim. She posted a picture when she was in the hospital this year. Yolanda and Camille have done so regularly. And where is her responsibility in all of this? However, I do feel bad about what it has led to. And I've told her that. I also felt terrible because I know she loves Kingsley, but I also love my child. It was a difficult time for all involved. I didn't blame Kim personally regarding the dog and was willing to drop it and move forward, yet she was too angry with me regarding the Instagram post to be able to do that.
I wish that since I was willing to let go of my anger regarding my daughter being bit and what she had to go through that she could have let go of being upset about the Instagram post. I HAVE to believe she knows I did NOT do that to hurt her.
For Kim to throw out that she would say something about Alexia ( like she did to Lisa R. regarding Harry ) nearly took my breath away. But her dog is off limits?
So there you have it.
I don't even know what to say or do anymore. Clearly, we will never agree on this matter. And now we have more issues to work through, like my hurt and anger over Kim threatening to say something about my child. I know she loves Alexia, and it was just her being angry and "in the moment," but it's going to take me some time to get past that. All I know is I am glad I don't have to relive all of this again on TV. Now I need to take a step back .
Hopefully, time will heal my relationship with Kim. Time and having an open and honest relationship.
It's been a very difficult season. That's for sure. Thank you all for watching.

Some things I would like to clear up:

A) I NEVER asked for Kingsley to be put down. I love all animals and know how much Kim loves Kingsley. That was never part of our argument.

B) Brooke's wedding : Brooke did a small ceremony at my sister Kathy's house (part of it aired this season), so that Monty would be well enough to walk her down the aisle. The wedding we were referring to at the reunion is her actual "big wedding " coming up. And NO, I did not do anything "unspeakable" or "unforgivable" at the wedding at Kathy's house like Brandi has (once again) put out there. It was a beautiful, perfect day that Brandi Glanville is now trying to throw negativity on. She was NOT EVEN THERE. On top of everything else Brandi has done, she now wants to turn that beautiful day that my family celebrated into something to lie and gossip about. Shame on her.

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