Now on to the dinner with Brandi, my brother, Dean, and I. I really enjoy Brandi, but at that point we didn't know each other well and she still doesn't totally get me. So when I said that Dean wasn't my type she felt it was a insult to my husband. Brandi is right, it was disrespectful. Sometimes my mouth speaks before my brain thinks but that's me. Dean actually finds this to be an endearing, amusing and bemusing quality of mine. But you would have to know us to to know this. Brandi went on to make further assessments about my relationship with Dean which I would suggest in the future she keep to herself. In this instance though, I gave her the ammunition to fire and she did! Lesson learned.
I was excited to go to the art gallery with the girls and thought it would be a great way to get to know them all better. It turned out to be our first low key night together which was nice for a change. Taylor and I spoke about life and marriage. I explained to her that I feel a woman doesn't really know what she wants out of life or who she really is until she's about 30-something. I also feel that I did get married too young. While I'm sure these statements will be misconstrued, I do feel they are valid points about myself. I married and had kids at an early age because that's all I wanted at the time. Dean, Jack, and Darryl will always be my priority but my happiness I realized was not complete without a measure of independence and success that only I was responsible for.
Thank you for reading this and thanks again for all of your kind words and support, it means more to me than you know.