Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Kim's Not Dr. Drew

Eileen: Brandi Attacks, Then Deflects

Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: More Fighting and a Peeping Tom

Kim: Kyle Should Be Worried, Not Embarrassed

Brandi: Kyle Wants to Help When There's an Audience

Kyle: This Was Brandi's Master Plan

Lisa R.: It Felt Just As Awkward As It Looked

Lisa V.: Kim's Demeanor Was Questionable

Eileen: Brandi Loves to Stir the Pot

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Disgust and a Push

Yolanda: I Would Like to Apologize

Brandi: I Won't Make Excuses

Kim: I Wanted to Hold Kyle

Lisa V.: I Want Max to Be Ambitious

Lisa R.: Lots of Transition Happening

Kyle: We Are an Emotional Bunch

Eileen: Being a Stepmom Is Challenging

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Surprise and an F-Bomb

Lisa V.: A Naughty Child Shouldn't Be Rewarded

Kyle: Brandi Was Rude and Offensive

Eileen: It Felt Like an Attack

Lisa R.: It Was Shocking and Unprovoked

Kim: Brandi Is Brandi

7 Faces We All Made During This Week's #RHOBH

Brandi: Lisa V. Was Making Me Uncomfortable

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Shock and Tears

4 Questions We All Asked During #RHOBH

Lisa R.: Portia Is My Spirit Animal

Eileen: Brandi Showed Us How Not to Make Amends

Yolanda: I Took One for the Team

Lisa V.: Yes, Love Is a Big Word

Kyle: Moments Like These Are Frustrating

Lisa V.: I Won't Erase the Past

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

Eileen: I Could Feel the Tension at Kyle's

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

Yolanda: These Are Teaching Moments

Kim: My Heart Felt So Big

Kyle: Kim and Monty's Relationship Is Unique

Lisa V.: I Needed an Uncomplicated Friendship

Kim's Not Dr. Drew

Taylor shares her struggles with alcohol and admits that she did find some good advice in Kim's intervention.

I've been told the truth will set you free. . .here it goes. I went through about nine months where I was drinking to cope with the pain and the memories. I was drinking to forget, to stop the recurring images in my head, to relax enough to try to sleep at night. I quickly discovered that one glass of wine made it a little easier, two would help me forget, three, four, you get the point.

I was self-medicating and the sad truth is that I didn't know another way to get through the days -- and nights. I was confronted with the truth that the life I thought I had was only an illusion. What I finally realized was that "pain waits for you." I would medicate for a day and the next morning all the emotions would come flooding back -- not to mention the massive headache.

Thankfully, I had an amazing support system and they helped me realize that it was time for me to feel my emotions and let the healing begin. I know Dr. Drew. And Kim, I love ya but, Dr. Drew you are not. I know people who have been in "recovery" for many years. Someone very close to me has been sober for 20 years. One thing I know from talking with him over the years is that persons who are in recovery don't point the finger at others. They focus on their own sobriety. They are there for friends who ask for their help but they don't diagnose and offer treatment plans for others.

When I made the decision not to attend the "nose party," I gave Kim the courtesy of a phone call. I told her the truth about what I was doing and why I wouldn't be coming to her party. I was having fun and yes, I was "tipsy." If I had a nickel for every time Kim "no-showed" for events with no call and then made up some silly excuse as to why she didn't show, I could pay all my attorney fees. Kim and I don't socialize outside the other ladies. She doesn't spend enough time with me to be evaluating anything about my life. I care for her and am deeply happy that she is having success with her sobriety, finally.

As long as I’m putting it all on the table, I owe Yolanda an apology. When she and I met, I was in a bad place. I was in no state of mind to be making new friends. I was watching my life fall apart and looking at her perfect life wasn't helping. I was convinced that I would never love or trust another man again and here she had two successful marriages and a beautiful family. It had nothing to do with Yolanda. My emotions were raging and I was like a snake in the corner, striking at everything. I am sorry, Yolanda.

The grieving process carries with it a myriad of emotions. One of these emotions is anger. Dealing with a grieving person who is going through anger is extremely challenging. During this time, the person has misplaced feelings of anger and envy, check. The anger comes out in different ways and is often unexpected, check. At times, the person may feel anger toward himself or herself, and other times the anger is directed toward others, check.

Anger was by far the hardest stage for me because I couldn't figure out what I was angry about or whom I was angry at, it made no sense to me. Imagine "road raging" 24 hours a day, not pretty. I have never been an angry person and during the beginning of Season 3, I was agitated and angry. It was an awful way to feel and I know it was a dreadful experience for those around me. To compound the problem, I had begun a new prescription for my anxiety. The agitation I was feeling got so depressing that I started to research the medication and found that the number one side effect was. . .agitation, great!

So. . .I did take some of Kyle and Kim’s advice. I did three things. I decided Kyle was right and it was time to leave the house. I needed to let go of that final piece in order to move on with my life. I took Kim's suggestion and went to the mountains for the winter. I have taken that opportunity to heal and to spend time with Kennedy enjoying the simple things. Finally, I went cold turkey off my medication. Not recommended but, I am a bit of an extremist -- in case you haven't noticed.

Surprisingly, I started to sleep, I started to love, and I didn't need to medicate with alcohol. I want to feel everything that my new life has in store for me. I am happy and healthy. Kennedy is happy, laughing, and singing everyday. I'm coming home to Beverly Hills as a new woman with my past behind me and a new life in front of me.

Until next week! Big kiss from my big lips.

xx

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Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

Lisa R. thinks there are two ladies who aren't taking responsibility for their actions.

I have to start the week off by giving a shout out to all of you. During last week’s episode and throughout the week, your tweets have been pouring in, and you guys really make me laugh. Yes, as a matter of fact I DID want to dive-roll head first out of that car ride with Kim onto the freeway and run. Run Forrest, run! All of your support and understanding means everything!

So, we pick up right where we left off, but before we do, I’d like to note that Kyle wasn’t the one to create any of this drama. It was Kim that chose to walk back in the house after Brandi had escorted her outside and told her NOT to go back in. There was a lot of alcohol and God knows what other drugs influencing a lot of the behaviors, so no matter what, the outcome wasn’t going to be a good one. Like a Dr. Phil quote I used on Twitter last week, “When you choose the behavior, you choose the consequence.” While I have compassion and empathy for these women and what I see playing out in front of me, there seems to be a lot of blame that both Kim and Brandi are trying to place on Kyle, and in my opinion they aren’t accepting the consequences from their behavior.

Now that some time has passed and I have really had some time to digest the situation, I myself have some questions just like all of you. Why did Kim go to Eileen’s poker night if she was sick with pneumonia and bronchitis? I don’t doubt that major illnesses like these made her feel terrible. So, then why go in the first place and then exacerbate these illnesses by smoking cigars all evening? I’m quite certain that had I been as ill as she was, I would have been in my bed pickling myself in oil of oregano and overdosing on vitamin C and echinacea. But again, as I didn’t know where she was in her sobriety, I also didn’t know where she was in her illnesses.

To me, there seems to be a lot of pain being masked by alcohol.

Lisa Rinna

As far as Brandi goes, my comments are coming from a place of experience and concern. I’ve been, like I know many many of you have also, a part of lives that have been affected by addiction. And to echo Yolanda’s sentiments, I have a hard time wrapping my brain around the idea of grown women, mothers in particular,
behaving this way. To me, there seems to be a lot of pain being masked by alcohol. Granted, I don’t know what goes on in Brandi’s life outside of this. I only know what I observe in this environment.

I’m just so happy that the darn Stella & Dot party was successful. Hallelujah! Holly Robinson Peete had done a similar party that had an amazing turnout, and I was beyond thrilled to host my own. The Noreen Fraser Foundation’s mission, "to find a way to live with cancer and not die from it" is very close to my heart. Both my mother and sister are recent breast cancer survivors with double masectomies, so it was very important to me that the party be a successful one. It meant so much to me that everyone, with the exception of Kim being in the hospital, showed up despite what had recently gone down. By the grace of God, everyone kept their composure, bought a ton of jewelry, and appeared to have a good time. Big thanks to Stella & Dot for helping to raise so much money and to Gourmet 47 and Hourie for catering the amazing food.

Giant kudos to Eileen for speaking her mind with Brandi at my house. She always knows how to remain classy and sophisticated even in the most uncomfortable of situations. I admire her deeply for that.

Lisa V.’s impeccable brood continues to grow as we see her add Pumpy to the family. What a gorgeous and incredibly lucky dog she is to take on the Vanderpump name. If only she truly knew what a lucky bitch she is!

Next week is the Gay Mixer and yes, I finally understand that I shouldn’t come naked. Again, I ask my dear gay friends forgiveness for not understanding what Kyle meant. Sometimes it just takes me a minute to catch these innuendos. Oy. Be sure to keep your seatbelts safely fastened as we are still experiencing turbulence!

Until next week….

Xo, LR

 

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