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Kyle Doesn't Lie

Taylor explains her thoughts on Adrienne's cowardice, her drinking, and her new relationship.

As the reunion began, Andy dropped the news. Adrienne would not be present. Her "final act as a housewife" was not showing up. Cowardly, to say the least.

After my Season 2, there was nothing I would have liked more than to stay home during the reunion but, I went and I faced the toughest year of my life on national television. I used to view Adrienne as a strong, independent business woman, but her behavior this year proved me wrong. This is our reality but it is also a job and not fulfilling your commitment to Bravo is not the act of a business woman.

I am proud of Andy for taking a stand not only for Bravo but also for all of us who share our lives, share our "secrets" and. . .show up.

Over the weeks leading up to the reunion, Adrienne or "her people" were leaking stories that she didn't want to be a part of the show any longer mixed in with stories that she was dating Rod Stewart's 31-year-old son, of course. She has been beating Paul up in the press as well. In fact, she has been quite busy leaking stories to the press all season. There were a couple stories early in the season that were quite detailed and clearly came from inside our circle. It was no surprise that the stories were negative about 'Wives that Adrienne was having conflict with and yet her name was omitted from both "incidents." Guilt by omission, perhaps. I agree with Brandi that Adrienne "buys" her way out of things well, I guess this time she bought herself off a hit show.

"Shut the f--- up gate" started the season off in true Housewives style. Brandi knows how to mix it up and she and Adrienne were destined for disaster from the beginning of Season 3. Once she let the cat out of the bag regarding Adrienne's family "secret," I knew we were in for a wild ride.

I didn't think it was a good decision for Kim to tell Adrienne and Paul what Brandi said especially at Mauricio's business event. She could have spoken to them privately about the whole thing and let them calm down before seeing Brandi. When Brandi said "I will cut a bitch" during the reunion, it made me laugh. Going gangster in Beverly Hills. Paul called Brandi to apologize for the legal mess. That was the right thing to do. I don't agree with Brandi outing the "secret" but their reaction was way over-the-top. I know what its like to be sued as a single mother and it is scary as hell and equally as expensive. "Friends don't sue friends". . .well, they threaten to apparently.

My favorite time watching us all have fun this season was "drunk-nastics" in Ojai. We were having a blast, laughing and acting like girls (girls over 21, that is). It makes me smile watching us be silly and laugh with one another. It doesn't make me laugh seeing my 41 year-old ass flying through the air during that round off. For a night (a late night), we dropped our swords, put our differences aside and had some laughs. . .so much so that Kyle wet herself. Did I mention she and I were sharing a room. . .and a bed! I see a Depends endorsement in the making. As I often say, we are a family, mostly Family Feud but a family nonetheless.

In the beginning of the season, I found it frustrating that Yolanda didn't seem to know much about each of us. She clearly didn't understand how our dynamics work and that we are dramatic. When she would say "these girls" or these "Beverly Hills girls" it sounded condescending. She didn't get that in sharing our reality, we have to think out loud and not hold back.

When I found out she had never watched our show prior to signing up to be on it, I was puzzled. I understood at that point why she didn't get our group dynamic but, I would never take a position without researching a company and the people I was working directly with on a daily basis. it felt disrespectful to me that she knew so little about the hit show we created that she now had the privilege of being a part of. She did admit she made a mistake not watching the show and I appreciated that. As for her attitude being a "Dutch thing," if she is going to say something, she needs to be prepared to accept the consequences and not expect for it to be overlooked because she is from another country. Lisa is as well and she doesn't use that as a pass card.

All this being said, I have many regrets about my not opening up to her in the beginning. I wasn't in a good place and certainly wasn't ready to make new friends. She says she was on guard meeting all of us well, I was on guard as well. My trust in people was shattered and seeing her beautiful life while mine was crashing down around me was making it really difficult. I apologized and I owed that to her. I am in a good place now and my heart is open. Yolanda and I have begun to get to know one another and I look forward o the opportunity to forge a friendship.

I went through a difficult time when I wasn't "coping" well. I was terrified everyday as to how I was going to get through the litigation. I was grieving, and I was angry at the world. I was self-medicating with alcohol and not wanting to "feel." Kennedy was the light that kept me going everyday. She is and always has been my first priority. She is well-cared for by me, a nanny, and my parents. She is surrounded by love. Kyle has become like a second mother to her, and I am thankful that she has others who love and support her. She and Portia are like sisters and watching them grow up together is a joy.

For the last time, lets go through this. My nanny was instructed to stop by Kyle's house to get Kennedy's iPad and then take Kennedy to meet my mother for a sleepover at her home. I was going to Kim's that evening so Kennedy was to stay with my parents. When the nanny stopped at Kyle's, (we live in the same neighborhood and we spend a great deal of time at her home) Kyle asked if Kennedy could stay and play and then go to Kim's. She planned to see me there so she didn't think it would be a big deal. No one called me about the change of plans so, I was surprised to hear Kyle say she was with her. Simple misunderstanding, moving on.

Kim and I do not socialize outside of the show. She knows very little about me. I have friends that care for me and expressed concern about my coping. I appreciated that and took their advice to heart. As for Kim saying she was scared for me and that is was hard for her to be around me, well thats how she made all of us feel for a very long time. Rather than saying we didn't want to be around her, we protected her time and time again. She has never reached out to me off-camera, period.

I do have a new love in my life and no, his divorce is not final yet. . .these things take time. As Yolanda said, assets can take years to divide. We are extremely happy and Kennedy is thrilled to have a father figure in her life. They have a beautiful relationship and she is witnessing for the first time what a healthy relationship looks like. I feel for Brandi that she was pregnant and Eddie was cheating on her repeatedly. Our situation is much different and I think Brandi is starting to understand that.

Andy's prank was hilarious. We really thought a new housewife, maybe Leanne, was about to walk in the room.

Lisa is right. Her relationship with Kyle has changed. This is a tough one for me because I care for each of them. The same happened for me with Adrienne. I thought we were friends and then she lied about being my child's godmother on the Season 1 reunion. I was so shocked, I didn't react at the time. Then, she didn't support me during Season 2 regarding the abuse. I just couldn't look at her the same after that. I realized that the friendship I thought we had was never a real friendship and that it would never be as I had thought. Kyle wants to bury the hatchet between them and go back to how things use to be but, I am not sure we ever get to go back. Feelings get damaged and they just don't heal. Kyle and Lisa care for one another and my hope is that they will get past the struggles. Kyle and I have differing views on Adrienne but it hasn't come between us. We are a group of friends and we are not all going to get along. It's tough to be on one side of an issue while your friend is on the other. Adrienne is not the root of their issues but, I do think she played a role in dividing them further this year. Its going to take time, that's for sure.

I wasn't in Paris so, I wasn't privy to what Yolanda said in regard to Lisa in the airport. I know there was more to the story than what has been covered thus far. Maybe next week we will get to the bottom of it. Kyle doesn't lie, I can tell you that.

Who knew a couch could be so uncomfortable!

Until next week,

Kisses xx
Taylor

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Kyle: Kim and I Will Never Agree on This Matter

Kyle clarifies the Kingsley issue and responds to Brandi's most recent accusation. 

I don't want to write this blog. I didn't even want to watch this reunion, to be honest. There. I said it. But here I go....
Let's just dive right into the text message from Lisa Rinna to Kim.
I was very shocked to hear about that text. There is no excuse for that. I believe Lisa R. knows that. I can understand Kim being upset about that. I am sure she was taken aback, as we all were when we heard it. However, I don't think Lisa Rinna is a dangerous person. She just made a really bad choice.


Now onto Amsterdam and the space cake talk. Brandi went after me in Amsterdam regarding the space cake, because she doesn't like me and wanted to deflect from her own behavior once again. This was her big chance to say something about me, calling me a hypocrite for not partaking in the space cake. I have said it before, and I will say it again: I NEVER said I haven't smoked pot. I HAVE. It's just not my thing. I have a lot more fun having a few margaritas. Kim knows that. I would have appreciated her chiming in there. Also, I have NOT eaten a pot brownie or a space cake ever, and my husband had warned me that it would not suit me well, knowing my personality. You cannot gauge exactly what you're ingesting, and it wouldn't be smart. I didn't want to have a bad experience and "freak out," so to speak. Brandi herself wasn't partaking, because of her own reasons (which had to do with her divorce, as she explained), so wouldn't that make her a hypocrite then? WHY did she care if I did or did not choose to? Because she wanted to jump at the chance to make me look bad, since her behavior and her drinking had been front and center. Her drinking was out there, because she puts it out there, and she has nobody to blame but herself. If I HAD chosen to eat a space cake, she would have jumped on that, too. Anything to divert from her own actions which she was comparing to ours. All of us may have a few drinks, but NONE of us behave like her when we drink.
I only address this because it was on television. Her opinion of me is completely irrelevant to me. I only cared, because I am a mother, and her trying to make me out to be something I am not is reckless, as is everything else she does.
Ok. Enough of that. She beat that non-event to death. I think we can move on now.

Now this is the hard part...Kim and I had not spoken since Nov 1st. We both knew the situation with my daughter, Alexia, and Kim's dog, Kingsley, was bound to come up at the reunion. We don't get to pick and choose what we want to talk about.
Alexia had spent the night at Kim's house on Halloween. The next morning, Kingsley bit her. While scary, at first it didn't seem that serious. However, what the first doctor failed to notice was that the tooth had pierced the bone and also broken it. Five days later, we found out that her bone was infected and she needed surgery to clean out the bone. Kim was upset, because I had posted pictures from the hospital. Like I said at the reunion, I NEVER said her dog bit Alexia. Never mentioned her OR her dog. TMZ ended up finding out that it was Kim's dog, and she blamed me, because I posted the pictures from the hospital. I did not do that to hurt my sister in any way or to "get Instagram followers," like she suggested. With all of my family coming and going at the hospital, people were bound to find out and talk.


We were all with Alexia at the hospital trying to distract her and have fun. As any mother would do. We were all trying to make the best out of a bad situation. We invited family and friends to visit and tried to keep her spirits up. In hindsight, I wish I hadn't posted that picture, but I certainly didn't mean to hurt Kim. She posted a picture when she was in the hospital this year. Yolanda and Camille have done so regularly. And where is her responsibility in all of this? However, I do feel bad about what it has led to. And I've told her that. I also felt terrible because I know she loves Kingsley, but I also love my child. It was a difficult time for all involved. I didn't blame Kim personally regarding the dog and was willing to drop it and move forward, yet she was too angry with me regarding the Instagram post to be able to do that.
I wish that since I was willing to let go of my anger regarding my daughter being bit and what she had to go through that she could have let go of being upset about the Instagram post. I HAVE to believe she knows I did NOT do that to hurt her.
For Kim to throw out that she would say something about Alexia ( like she did to Lisa R. regarding Harry ) nearly took my breath away. But her dog is off limits?
So there you have it.
I don't even know what to say or do anymore. Clearly, we will never agree on this matter. And now we have more issues to work through, like my hurt and anger over Kim threatening to say something about my child. I know she loves Alexia, and it was just her being angry and "in the moment," but it's going to take me some time to get past that. All I know is I am glad I don't have to relive all of this again on TV. Now I need to take a step back .
Hopefully, time will heal my relationship with Kim. Time and having an open and honest relationship.
It's been a very difficult season. That's for sure. Thank you all for watching.
XO,
Kyle

P.S
Some things I would like to clear up:

A) I NEVER asked for Kingsley to be put down. I love all animals and know how much Kim loves Kingsley. That was never part of our argument.

B) Brooke's wedding : Brooke did a small ceremony at my sister Kathy's house (part of it aired this season), so that Monty would be well enough to walk her down the aisle. The wedding we were referring to at the reunion is her actual "big wedding " coming up. And NO, I did not do anything "unspeakable" or "unforgivable" at the wedding at Kathy's house like Brandi has (once again) put out there. It was a beautiful, perfect day that Brandi Glanville is now trying to throw negativity on. She was NOT EVEN THERE. On top of everything else Brandi has done, she now wants to turn that beautiful day that my family celebrated into something to lie and gossip about. Shame on her.

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