I know it may seem a bit wacky to have a spiritual advisor cleanse my house and give me her advice regarding legal matters, but, I was willing to do almost anything from the normal to the paranormal to try and calm my anxiety about it all.
Alisha reached out to me through a friend that I trust. She came highly recommended and I figured it couldn't hurt and just might help. There were plenty of tough times in my home and a cleansing and blessing seemed like a good idea in my quest to put the past behind me. The process felt a little silly, and, of course, I had to have a bit of fun with it. I still have the black rock (to absorb negative energy). It sits on my vanity, and I frequently hold it and try and let go of negativity. Lets face it, there is plenty of that floating around in this life.
Alisha was correct and we did settle the lawsuit. I had never been in litigation before and facing a public company on my own was scary as hell. To learn that they wanted my wedding ring to settle was heart-wrenching. I wasn't wearing the ring and the material object wasn't important to me but, it felt like letting go all over again. More importantly, it was one of very few happy mementoes that I expected Kennedy to have. I had hoped she would wear it when she got married.
In the end, it was the right thing to do to settle and to let go of my ring. The pressure was too great and I couldn't keep fighting and spending a fortune on attorneys. I couldn't keep pace with a public company. We settled and I am so thankful for all the attorneys who worked so hard on my behalf. Skip Kessel and Michael Gless at Kessel, Young, and Logan will always be heroes to me.
Time to celebrate! It was important for me to share my settlement with Kyle, Lisa, Ken, and Mauricio because they had been there witnessing the stress and encouraging me throughout the months following the tragedy. I wanted them to know that one more piece of the mess I was handling had come to a close and that there was light at the end of my dark tunnel. John worked tirelessly coordinating my different attorneys and advising me through all the difficulties. I wanted him to be there to thank him and share in the celebration dinner. He suffered through many difficult phone calls and lots of tears and I will always be indebted to him for his patience and advice.
In looking back, I learned a lot through the process mostly about the resilience of people facing overwhelming odds. We are tougher than we think we are when we are backed against a wall.
Until next week, keep your head down and keep pushing forward.