Hello Bravo lovers. Slowly our journey together is coming to an end. I want to thank you, the viewers, for taking the time to read my blog every week. I enjoyed reading your comments and learning how you view me. In the beginning of the season, Lisa often pointed out to me how the viewers would see certain things, which seemed so unnatural to have to think about, but she is smart and I humbly accept that she was actually trying to teach me to be clear about what I say.
Which leads me to my blunders of the season. . I had a couple. . .
I know I've discussed them with you on a weekly basis, but hopefully I explained myself better tonight.
Obviously as the rookie, I did not know what to expect of the Reunion -- but let me tell you, it was a whole lot more stressful then I could have ever imagined. Trying to recall incidences that happened seven to eight months ago was the toughest part for me with my Lyme brain. I am grateful to Brandi and Lisa for helping me get through the day, as they stepped in at times when I was a little lost for words.
I was really surprised that Adrienne did not show at the Reunion. I thought it would have been the perfect platform for her to set some things straight, as I am sure she has her version of how things came about this season.
I honestly was looking forward to hear her story, but unfortunately we will never know as she chose to not show.
I pulled up my bootstraps and flew across the country and left my treatment center in Florida to be at the reunion because I felt it to be my duty as a Housewife. I am glad Andy set the rule straight, you don't show up, you'll get fired. Maybe they can add a blog rule as well. Some of us struggle and make time in our busy lives to turn in a blog every Monday morning but some just write whenever they feel like it.
I always thought my blog was meant for our fans to get to know us more intimately, while our relationship within the group would develop naturally. I thought it was an interesting way to share our views and to see a different perspective through our eyes but I've now learned that Kyle sees it as a new way of communicating and she obviously formed an opinion of me through my blog.
It was uncomfortable to sit on the couch and be confronted by two sisters that all of a sudden pretended to be united after they fought the entire season. It would be stupid for me to say I was surprised because I saw them change scenarios in front of my eyes along the way.
Of course we did discuss Lisa and everyone else in the group while in Paris. That's what girls do, so I am not going to sit here and deny that. But unfortunately they chose to take my words out-of-context and embellished the meaning of them. I have no reason to attack Lisa, as she has been nothing but a consistent and good friend to me and my family.
It was hurtful because, even though I am far from perfect and my black and whiteness isn't always cute, I am a straight shooter and I do take great pride in the integrity with which I choose to live my life.
I liked Kyle when we met and most definitely had a connection with Kim. It's hard for me to be involved in superficial friendships with other women. I like to have a purpose and have meaningful conversations which doesn't seem to be of any interest to them.
I am not going to waste more of my time on the Richards sisters. At this point their behavior speaks for itself. The fact that they have never shown any interest in cultivating a friendship or in my well-being is just another confirmation of their lack of interest in others. Kim and Kyle are about Kim and Kyle and that is where it ends! You actually know them much better than me because you have seen their actions for the past three seasons.
The core of people don't change. . .what you see is what you get.
Taylor definitely rubbed me the wrong way from the start. The whole number she did on my husband did not sit right with me. I did have a soft spot for her and felt compassion because of the awful tragedy I knew she had endured. In the end, I absolutely appreciate her sincere apology and I am ready to move on and work on our friendship going forward.
I am a confident woman, but I did come into this group guarded to protect my heart. That guard can sometimes get mistaken for being cold or arrogant. I do have my insecurities, but I feel good in my skin and my heart is full of love.
I traveled this road with great caution, but I tried my best to connect with everyone. I feel blessed to be given this opportunity to be a positive voice of reason and share part of my life with you the viewers.
Until next week. . .
Much love and a big hug,