Hola Mis Amores! First and foremost I have to say that I'm very thankful to God because through this experience he has lead me to all of you. Your love and support means the world to me and I'm very thankful and humbled. Reading all your sweet tweets gave me huge smiles and sometimes huge snorts. LOL.
I know you all want to hear about tonight's episode so lets get straight to it. . .
If I looked bored for the remainder of the dinner its because I was. I was so over the bickering and bantering. I was so over listening to women say they are "girl's girls," while they beat the rest so much they make them cry while at the same time trying to act as if they are superior to the world. Between Brandi's stupidity and Yolanda's arrogance I just wanted the dinner to be over.
It was nice to get in the water with Kyle -- on my terms! I don't do things because I'm pressured into it, as you've already seen and as I told all the girls. . .I do swim but I swim like a puppy (not cute LOL). As I clearly said to Kyle, I wouldn't tolerate Brandi's disrespect but I chose to be a lady and be a good host. I am new to this group and was still figuring out the women's true characters. Even though they were extremely rude and disrespectful, I still wanted to make things work with them.
My friends say I give too many people the benefit of the doubt and that sometimes I'm too nice. Guess what? I have a very happy life. I'm not miserable, and I don't like to spread misery around the world. I don't like to bring people down, I like to lift them up. That's just me! Some people might not like it but at the end of the day when I go to sleep I have to know that I am remaining true to myself.
The one thing I am very happy about is that through this entire journey I did remain true to myself. I know a lot of people have asked me why I didn't smack Brandi or kick her out of the dinner table and why was I so nice to her the day after?