Hola Mis Amores, first of all, thank you all for your sweet messages and for sending me so much love when you found out about my father's passing.
This episode was very bittersweet to watch. It's hard to go back in time and relive the grief. But I was happy you could all see a piece of my lindo, Puerto Rico, and see my mommy.
Back then I debated wheter to go along with the trip. There are many many days and hours of filming that are compressed into the 45 minutes you all see.
The reality is I was able to grieve with my family and I was able to see my father before he passed away. His last words to me were "Soy feliz" ("I'm happy"). I know he was ready, and he is in a much better place than all of us right now. I believe he is in heaven watching from above and taking care of me. As difficult as it was, I remained strong. My father hated pity parties, and I think I get that from him. I am a cry baby (I cry even during commercials), but I don't like to use other people to try to victimize myself. That is why I went along with the trip -- as I didn't want to uninvite the girls. Many have asked me why I chose to uninvite Carlton. . .The truth it wasn't up to just me -- and she was never invited.
At the airport I told the ladies I didn't want them to be sad for me and I wanted them to enjoy my beautiful island. I brought them a gift. Even though Yolanda has said on multiple occasions that I give too many gifts, it's in my culture to bring something when you go to someone's home. They were going to my home, but I wanted to give them a little something to start their trip on good note.
They say there is no place like home and I agree 100 percent. To me Puerto Rico is the most mesmerizing place in the world. Our island is beautiful, but what really makes it special is our people. Everyone is so welcoming and loving. Everyone wants to have a good time. And everyone loves life. I grew up very humble, but in PR there are no class divisions. We are brought up to feel equal, which is something I absolutely love.