Hello Bravo Lovers! Thank you for your continued support of the show and taking the time to read our blogs. I wish you a very Merry Christmas from our family to yours. May your holidays be filled with happiness, laughter and delicious food shared with those you love.
My greatest joy this time of the year is decorating our home and being in the kitchen with my girls and sister-in-laws preparing the special traditional foods we have grown to love over the years.
Because of my health situation and not being able to run around, we've decided on no gifts this year. This took a lot pressure off of me and I am beyond happy with this free pass.
Getting a clear diagnosis last week of the inactivity in my left frontal lobe was the best Christmas present I could have ever dreamed of. Obviously anything damaged by an outside organism is scary, but at least it validated that I have not lost my mind and that we now have clarity as to why I have been isolated at home for the past year and a half with a paralyzed brain. I am lucky to have entered a clinical trial which I hope to one day be able to share with you as I am counting on being one of the 70 percent success stories they have had so far.
Until then, I will keep practicing my patience. It is definitely not my forte, but I have no choice but to accept the new normal as I continue to visualize the energetic, athletic and multi-tasking woman I once was. Obviously, I wish I had more glamorous and fun news to report to you but unfortunately this is my reality.
Please know that I am not sharing this information with you for any sympathy vote or pity but rather to take pride and make sense of the cards life dealt me. It takes great courage and strength to share and open our lives to you, the viewers, especially when the chips are down. I have chosen to do so because I feel it's my duty to use this platform to bring awareness to the silent killer called Lyme; a disease that so many know so little about. I would also like you to be aware of the fact that no matter how fancy and perfect someone else's life looks to you on the outside, most of us have a story you know nothing about. Unfortunately but absolutely fair to all, the one thing money can't buy is HEALTH and happiness.
Usually David and I love to have dinner parties at our home but, due to my health, this was the only dinner party we've had in the past year -- so I look a little rusty and overwhelmed if I might say so myself. Especially when I realized the big blunder of my handwritten seating cards. I tried to make light of a truly unconscious act but nevertheless it was a terribly rude mistake.
This was definitely not the way I wanted to start my clean slate with Kyle and Kim. Even though I dislike it when Kyle always talks about teams, my dream team comment was uncalled for as well. Even though I am joking about being enemies, the truth is that I absolutely adore Mauricio and when I hugged Kyle in the bathroom last week I truly meant it. It was time for us to move on and support one another in our real-life struggles rather than holding a grudge over two different perceptions of a conversation that happened a year-and-a-half ago.
Even though I wish Carlton had cancelled earlier in the day, I do appreciate that she was conscientious of the fact that I had spent the past nine months in bed with a compromised immune system. I wish she would have sent her adorable husband who we were all looking forward to spending time with. Anyway, I honestly just wanted to enjoy a beautiful night with old friends, new friends and family. We love to share the gift of music, as it always seems to be the unspoken language where people can just share and connect. Along with a couple of glitches and Brandi's unnecessary interruption of Joyce's sweet speech in Spanish, I think we accomplished just that as we ended up dancing the night away with Fraser, Clifton, Victor, and Remigio, the gorgeous tenors, which unfortunately you did not get to see.
I laughed and really enjoyed watching Lisa in action at the construction site. That is the funny side to her we all love. I was surprised to hear Brandi complain to Kyle about Lisa and I lecturing her about drinking because she knows I really dislike being around drunk women. My support and empathy for her as a friend won't change because of it but I also won't change my view on that topic either and I will continue to bug her about it.
Brandi losing Chica was extremely devastating for her and the boys; they had as strong of a relationship with Chica as we see Kim experience with Kingsley. Dogs are our best friends, as they love us constantly and unconditionally. Kim’s success story excites me more and more as I see her succeed. Watching her on The Arsenio Hall Show the other night just made me proud. She has come a long way and her strength and bright light are starting to shine.
I was also happy to see Brandi acknowledge the fact that her black remark was extremely inappropriate and apologized to those offended and hurt by it.
If I felt in my heart that the intent behind her words were a racial slur, I would have jumped in but it did not feel like that to me especially knowing that her inner circle of real life friends are multi-cultural.
Carlton is such a real and authentic woman that she intrigues me with her openness to share things way to private to me but I am definitely curious to see what goes on in her adult playroom. (But that red gaging mask would definitely make my sexy go running out the door real fast. Haha). Anyway, to each their own. I support everyone’s sexual preference and fantasies because without that freedom, life would be extremely boring.
Enjoy your family time tomorrow I hope Santa is going to be really good to you.
Cheers to you and yours, much love.