All I have to say is THANK YOU, Carnie Wilson! You were able to put into words what I guess I couldn’t.
“They’ve lost sisters. You have to be compassionate, for if they judge a little too quickly, it’s all fear and sadness in there. And that’s their character defense, that they have to reel it in and go, 'Whoa! Check, I’m doing that again.'”
After having that conversation with my mom, I finally understood how it looked. It looked like I was trying to insert myself into Kyle and Kim’s life. But that truly wasn’t the case! Like Carnie said, that was my character defense. I immediately felt the need to help, and it escalated the situation.
BUT, I also need this group to let me speak! Even at this dessert tasting, I am trying to speak to Kim, and I can’t get a word in. They don’t want me to tell my side of the story. I’m trying to tell them that I never questioned Kim’s sobriety. It’s on the tip on my tongue, but they won’t let me say it! #Interrupted
I mean, god, every time I turn around, there is another confessional from Kim and Kyle about how I disgust them or how much torture it will be if I come up to talk to them. How are they supposed to understand where I am coming from, or even act like they have compassion for me, if they won’t let me speak to them? #GetToKnowMe
And please, Kim: Forgive me for stepping in on a conversation that was going NOWHERE at Game Night. I was trying to help you two actually hear each other so that you didn’t have to continue ripping each other apart!
“We drank for reasons. We are a little bit f---ing looney, okay? We are wired this way, that’s why we needed alcohol to calm it down. So we are never going to be totally normal. There’s no perfect. There’s no perfect.” – Carnie Wilson
It was emotional hearing Kim open up about her struggles. I relate on so many levels. I really do understand where she is coming from, which is why I want nothing but the best for her. I believe she can learn to understand me in the future, and I hope it’s sooner rather than later. #SoberFriends
On another note… RINNA OWNED HER TRUTH. Finally. I still took a lot of heat for repeating what she told me to Vanderpump. A LOT. Again, I told Vanderpump because I was at a point where I needed someone to listen to the situation I was put in. It was not to continue the spreading of a terrible rumor. It was not meant to hurt Kim. And I can only thank Vanderpump for understanding that I am not the one to blame in this situation and voicing that opinion on camera.
Seriously though, Carnie's cheesecake was SO GOOD oh my god! “Who needs men when you have your cheesecake?” Yeah I might have said that, but I think I’ll still keep "London" around.
Note To Self: As a recovering alcoholic, I will never turn my back on someone that needs help. Ever.