FYI there was no misunderstanding about why I was uninvited to the WH Christmas party. I spoke to the WH myself so all those that bang on and on about how it was because of my Sarah Palin dress up, or because Charles was embarrassed, or I was rude, blah blah blah -- you are all wrong. We know why. I have had the good fortune to be invited before for the Christmas party and have been to the WH many times. Thankfully, good nearly always comes out of bad, and I was able to fly my 74 year old father (who is my hero!) out to take my place. It was so amazing for him to have that experience in his life time. He loved meeting the President and still holds the picture in his wallet to show all his friends in the UK! You can watch him getting ready in this bonus clip.
The reason I agreed to do the show was to promote my book "Inbox Full" and to help pay for the girls' education. It is the most important thing in my life that I can give to them. Not to be famous with all the good, bad, and terrible that comes with that. I have been their main provider for many years, and if I can give them the best schooling I can so that they have a better future when they leave the nest, then I've reached my main objective as a parent. "Inbox Full" will come out, when I'm happy with it and not before, regardless of what the press says about the reasons it isn't available yet !
I learned so much about myself during this whole experience. Not only was my marriage doomed, but I had already signed up for the show. I was lonely, frustrated, bored, starved of adult interaction, home sick, and deeply unhappy and yes, many were right in their observations that it showed in my behavior sometimes. Between that and losing a very dear friend half way into the season, it was without a doubt the most challenging time of my life, and it was written on my face! Although the past few months have been a massive struggle, I look years younger now, and that’s not through Botox! I don't have knots in my shoulders 24/7 either. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger?