I am beyond excited for 2013! Happy New Year! May 2013 be filled with lots of peace, joy, and love and may all your wishes come true! Besides the hardships and trials and tribulations in 2012, I am grateful for all the blessings I have received. I rejoice in the miracle of Frankie's recovery and progress and thank God for this every minute of my day.
As you saw, I did not participate in the first part of the reunion, and I'm not going to lie, one part of me was very glad and the other part of me wished I would have. I don't know... I don't even know how I would have reacted or what I would have said. You know, I watch it now and say I would have done this and said that, but you really don't know until you are actually sitting there on that couch how you will react to someone else's comments. It was very difficult for me to watch from the dressing room where I was getting my hair and makeup done. “Wow” is all I can say and will say. Why speak about it now? Some things will never change and some people will never change!
As far as part two of the reunion goes, I will say that as usual when speaking about my children, I get emotional and cry, especially having to relive Frankie's accident on August 14, 2012 the worst day of my life! My children have always made me cry, out sadness and from happiness. My children have given me the biggest joys in my life and at the same time have brought me the most sadness. Those of you who are mothers can probably understand me. Fortunately, one year later Frankie, Peter, Herman (who by the way was one of the reasons I was able to get through all of this), and I are all in a better place. That is the beauty of life and of my life in particular. I didn't know how strong I really was or am for that matter until being strong was the only choice I had. My children are my life, and I will never give up on them; that is the message I want to send. Even though you didn't get to see this part of my life on the show this season, I promise you that that's what I have been doing all of my life. My children have always come first before my career, before my relationship, and I have to thank Herman for being so understanding and supporting me on this and our boys. I say "our boys" because he has raised them with me and I couldn't have asked for a better husband and father to Peter and Frankie.