"All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on." -- Havelock Ellis
The end of any relationship is difficult. I am not the first and I will not be the last. Everyone reading this blog has at one point or another felt the particular sting of heartbreak. When you are in it, it seems insurmountable. With the passing of each day, each week, each month, the pain begins to subside and you think you will be OK.
My separation has been particularly grueling. No, not because we were more in love than any other couple or because our kids were hurt as a result. The truth is that while we were once very much in love, and our girls have suffered the consequences of this separation, the many ways in which Robert and I were connected have made it necessary for us to endure the end of more than one relationship. Relationships forged over decades; personal and business relationships that survived moments of both triumph and failure. Ending something over and over again has been heart wrenching for both of us.
The scene in the office was very real and very painful. To watch it unfold on screen was much more difficult than I ever expected.
And as I try to write this blog I am reminded that there are no words to describe the feeling of loss I have felt and continue to feel today. But I am surrounded by wonderful supportive friends and people who I have come to love and respect. That coupled with the strength I did not know I had, are helping me navigate the murky waters of new careers and new relationships. I have not mastered all of it perfectly, but I am a good student.