Going to see the church with Frederic and meeting with the minister was very important, because that made us realize our childhood does shape us and affects us for the rest of our lives. Choices made by our parents while we are children can later affect us and unconsciously shape our adult life. My difficulty trusting men and the latent fear of being abandoned by them was rooted in the divorce of my parents -- my father cheated on my mother and after that left our family. I was the eldest of four kids and many nights went to sleep hearing my mother cry. From then on I lived with demons that controlled me and made me believe that men would eventually cheat on me and leave me sooner or later. So my guard was always up, and although I acted tough, deep inside I felt like a fragile little girl starving for love and always seeking approval. Hence, the symbolic burning of my wedding dress that had been hanging in the closet for many years. I wanted to burn all the years of fear, mistrust, and pain that I had gone through.
Speaking of my bacherolette party, I would like thank Marysol for doing a very nice job planning it! It was a very pretty and civilized party, and I had a lot of fun with the girls in the comfort of my own home. Perfect evening! I was so thrilled to see Elsa back! And giving us the hilarious and lovable person she is! I was so saddened and missed her so much while she was at the hospital. We used to have so much fun dancing and laughing together, so it feels so good to have her back. She cracks me up! GOTTA LOVE HER! I felt so touched that she sent me her mantilla to use at my wedding -- her love and energy are in that beautiful piece of lace. That just shows what a wonderful human being she is, that even while fighting for her life, she found a way to support a friend in an important moment. Long live Queen Elsa!
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