In the scene where I went to pick up my summons with my mom, there's no need to tell me, I KNOW I LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT. I blame some of it on editing, the rest was just me being immature. I wasn't excited for court, obviously. I didn't even remember saying that, HA! To quote my Aunt Caroline's blog:
"As reality show participants we have the unique opportunity to view ourselves from the outside looking in. I'm hoping that Ashley will look at her behavior along with her attitude towards Jacqueline and make a conscious effort to move in a positive direction."
Caroline is absolutely correct. Since we last filmed, I have grown a lot as a person. I still make mistakes along the way, but I definitely learn from them. Every time I watch an episode, I grow even more. As my aunt said, we can view ourselves from the outside looking in, and I have seen a lot that I need to improve. Most of it I already knew, but it's just another reminder of things I needed to and still need to change. I am young, but I am not a kid. I am going to be 20 in a few months. I am not going to use my age as a crutch for how I acted and have been acting. I know it was wrong to pull Danielle's hair. I am sorry for how it happened, but I do not regret it. Everything happens for a reason. I do not like Danielle, I have plenty of good reasons not to. I don't like her, and I never will. That doesn't mean that I didn't learn from the experience. I don't need to like her and forgive her for all she has done in order to learn something from all this. If you all still think that I'm a bitch for not feeling sorry for her that night, then fine. I tell things like they are, not how they should be. I'm not about being fake. I'm not going to sit here and say, "I wish her the best, I am so sorry, blah, blah, blah," like SOMEONE else does. To be honest, I don't wish her well. I just hope karma catches up with her one day. I have been trying to not talk about her, and for the most part I haven't. What some people have to realize is #1. I have people asking me questions about her, and the show, and I'm not going to ignore people's questions. #2. Seeing these episodes rehash a lot of angry feelings I have towards her and writing my blog and on commenting on my Twitter and Facebook is my way of venting. #3. Danielle is STILL currently trying to mess with my life. So, sorry if you have a problem with it. I do have a life besides being "obsessed" with Danielle. HA! I have a job. I go to school. I just recently started an internship in the city. I have another internship in the city coming up in the fall. I am looking into getting an apartment. Things are going REALLY well for me right now! I spend most of my free time with my boyfriend Derek, (we have been happily together for a year and three months now) and my amazing friends. I spend the rest of my free time with my wonderful family. I really am blessed, and I have been working hard to not let any negativity get me down. I am happy with how things in my life are going. I see a bright future for myself.
I'm re watching the hair pull episode on bravo today and you aggitated me to the point i felt a needed to say something, (and that usually only happens when i am watching Brandi Glandville, Gretchen Rossi, and the most recent one that seems to make my skin crawl is the OC wife Lydia and her judgement on her mom's pot smoking and her overzealous uptight and religious way.) but you don't need to here it, especially bc you didnt sign up for the show, your mom did. and if a camera was following my during my late teens and early twenties i'd be humiliated. It can't be easy. The smartest thing you did was get off the show, no offense really. Especially since you seem to act so impulsively.
Ashley,Ashley, Ashley... As a Mom I can't help but scream in my head (GROW UP!!!) The sooner you stop talking about Danielle at all the better! Nearly 20 does not give us immediate smarts. Years of experience does. It is soo much better to say nothing and stay in the smart lane and just listen. You can always think what you will but if you don't speak out on it, you save yourself alot of regret later on down the road. As one who knows, I wish you the best. Think first... Talk quietly to Mom.
How can you say you learned your lesson when your recent twitter and facebook page contains mean statements about Danielle and others? You even tweeted something about Christine have to post flyers all over school just to get friends to her party. Do you see how mean you seem?
You have learned from your mistakes? Your twitter and facebook accounts suggest something entirely different.
Hey Ashley, it's great hearing about the positive things going on in your life, keep it up. You have to ignore the negative. That pisses them off more than engaging them in their craziness. Remember that, IGNORE! Good luck with your internship(s). Hope you're having a great summer:)
You say you're so tried, etc but you still blog. Is Bravo forcing you to blog?
i am very disappointed and shocked how you seem to think assaulting anyone is funny - you seem to find amusement in the situation you put yourself in. You also continue to be obsessed with Danielle. You're a young girl who doesnt go to school, work, has no direction and ambition other than blogging about Danielle all day.
Whatever you can say about Danielle, her daughters turned out well. They go to school, work (model), sing and knows the value of charity. They actually DO while all you do is TALK. You say you're glad that Danielle isn't your mother. Well, I'm sure she's glad YOU'RE not her daugther too. Please get a life.
All you can do is learn from your mistakes and move on.......You are a young lady and part of growing into woman is making a few mistakes....owning up to them.....and moving forward. Your alright kid! Hang in and saty away from Danielle. She doesn't exist.
I am very disappointed your views about Danielle's girls getting away from their mother. How would you like it, if someone said that about your mom? I don't care for Danielle, but as a Mother, how mean can you be? I would hope that even if someone didn't like me, they would never say that my daughter should get away from me as fast as she can. Those are very talented girls and apparently very smart. Danielle is doing something right. Look at the mess you were in and I don't think it's your mother's fault at all.
well, what you said about Danielles kids not needing her was so stupid. She is their mother!! you xo at the end of a statement to them (that was nice by they way), and turn around and say ugly things about their mom? i dont understand your bullying? I dont care how old you are, you are acting like a mean girl. I cant imagine my daughters behaving that way over the age of 13.... im very disappointed in your blogs and wont read them any longer.
I am not a big fan of Danielle but you do not have the right to touch anyone! You do not have to like Danielle or wish her well but you should regret and feel sorry that you physically assaulted another human being. Everytime you try to justify your actions, I have less and less respect for you. Just say you are sorry and move on!
Good job Ashley. You said it all when you said 'editing'. Of course we are seeing the worst. You are young,,young people make mistakes,,we all do. If you have learned and moved on,,then good for you!! If 'things' with Danielle are still going on with you,,then its obvious that SHE is the one who has not learned. The woman likes revenge and she does not give up until she gets it. Nuff said. Im happy to hear you are working and continuing your education. All the best to you in the future!!!
I can't stand danielle either, but Ashley seriously zip it. I know you are young but you can't be so dense that you don't realize that everything you say and do is digging a deeper hole for you. You are making it too easy for Danielle and you are coming off really badly. Live your teenage life and stay out of the rest of this!
Once again you speak of things you know nothing of. You criticize Danielle for her parenting skills, who do you think is raising her beautiful daughters..yup her!!! I think she knows her daughters better than anyone. She has raised 2 beautiful talented daughters and it doesnt look like her ex is having much to do with that. Give credit where its due. Some ppl dont like to be on tv, maybe they are a little camera shy. So what? Please stop blogging and get off the show. Noone wants you here. I dont think she pushed Jillian to sing, I think she wanted to and got nervous which is to be expected. Not everyone is coddled such as yourself. Please Grow the eff up and take the silver spoon out of you ass..
Great blog, Ashley. I always appreciate your honesty and self awareness. Caroline's words were spot on, and I am glad you can recognize that. I'm so happy to hear you are working and going to school! That is what will make the most difference in your life. Good luck!
Hi Ashley, I really love your mom and entire family but seriously you need to just shut your mouth. You dig yourself deeper and deeper each week. You are immature, inexperienced in life and have no idea what your talking about. Originally, I was in full agreement with alot of other viewers that due to your age, your words/actions were not so much 'excusable' but maybe we could get passed it. But now you just don't quit and it is becoming ridiculous. WE GET IT that you don't regret what you did to Danielle. But in the real world, cooth and respect is a part of life. And to gain credibility and respect yourself, you have to act appropriately in public. Especially when addressing people older than you, even if you disagree with what they say or do. Please stop all this banter about how you don't regret what you did. I'm getting embarrassed for you. If you think you deserve to be treated like an adult then please present yourself like one. Seriously. I think Danielle is absurd and I love all of the rest of you, but your act is getting a little old sweetie. No disrespect intended at all. I'm just telling it like we see it from the outside. Love you & your fam!!!
I just want to let you know that I love watching the show. I agree with you 100% about your attitude. I know I acted that way when I was your age. Not to say its right or wrong, just the way it is. But I think its GREAT that you can look back and acknowledge what you did and learn from it. WAY TO GO!
It sounds like you are working to create a life for yourself with your job, school and boyfriend.--Good for you! I really hope you have learned from the experience--I wonder if you would have learned as much if people didn't post comments on these blogs calling out your behavior.. . . As for Danielle, you Manzo family and friends really need to let her go. She will quit bothering you when you quit letting her get a rise out of you.
Wow, you really can't stop! Danielle finally did something good for her kids and didn't even talk about all of you and here you go again! Why are you even on this show? Give yourself time to grow up and become a housewife and mother then blog all you want!
I have all the faith in you Ashley! My mom and I used to but heads all the time and now I'm so proud to have a close relationship with her and she's become one of my very best friends. I think people need to step back and not be so judgemental about you. How is it right to judge someone if you aren't in their shoes? Keep your head held high! You know the person you are and as long as you own that - nothing else matters!
OK - you were wrong for putting our hands on Danielle regardless of what she's done to you. You will have to pay the price for that because it is just what she wanted you to do and you played right into it. The way you speak to and about your parents is disgusting. If you were my daughter I would cut you off - no money/no car/no legal expenses/no education/no clothes/no nothing. By the way are you working? If not, why not? You chose not to go to school so do you think you have the right to live off your parents who you find so much fault with? You talk about counter-suing Danielle - who is supposed to pay for that? As a matter of fact, are you paying your own legal fees? If I was your Mother and you talked to me the way you talk to her, I would put you out in a fast minute. You need to grow up!
You need to have some respect for you Mom and Dad, it is so awful the way you treat and talk to them. GROW UP! Talk about something other then Danielle. It's getting really old.
When are you going to own up to what you did? The past three blogs there are many people that have disagreed with you and no they are NOT HATERS, for disagreeing with you. Grow up little girl!
I couldn't get through another one of your blogs because I can't figure out why you need to blog every week. You could stop commenting on Danielle by simply not blogging. Sorry you couldn't figure that one out on your own.
I am glad your life is going so well now but I don't think you get it about the whole Danielle thing...you should never put your hands on another person! Physical violence is never the answer and will get you in to trouble in life (obviously you must be aware of this)
You keep blogging that you have grown and are a changed person but you continue to rip Danielle to pieces and her mothering of her children..enough already.
Ashley, I like you! I think you're a great girl, and just learning from your mistakes! I think your mom is a great mother! You have a great role model in her!
Ashley... I wish you well... but I must comment on one of your statements... when you say, Christine and Jillian do not need Danielle for a mother.. they have their father and step-mother... that is NOT a true statement. No matter what kind of parents a child has they love that parent. They love them unconditionally! I'm sure the girls would just ask that you please stop making comments concerning their Mother, their relationship with their mom, etc. Hope all is well with you and good luck! Love the show... wish Dina would return...
Hey Ashley. I wrote you on your FB page & said we had the same birthday lol. Doubt you remember me but that's besides the point. I want to apologize for all the horrible things people have been saying to you. Why everyone badgers you & says. "JUST APOLOGIZE/MAKES ME HAVE LESS & LESS RESPECT FOR YOU. YOU SHOULD NEVER HAVE TOUCHED HER." Blah blah. Okay first of all, every person who has ever lived has made a mistake. We make mistakes everyday. Just because you made a mistake, everyone & their dog acts so righteous like they are anyone to tell you to apologize for your actions. If you made a mistake & don't want to apologize, THAT'S UP TO YOU. Not to all these stupid viewers that think they can act better than you from behind a computer. We've all made mistakes that we were happy to make at the moment, or one's that were unintentional. We're human beings. I think everyone should lay off you & let you live your own life in peace. Enough attacking you for making your own choices whether they're right or wrong. I wish the best for you & your family. Take care girlie girl. xoxo
Whoops! Just read that you DO have a job! Your blogs are always so long about nothing I do a lot of skimming! These looooong paragraphs are just the testament to how you have not really grown much. They're filled with a bunch of excuses!
Ashley, while you're no longer a child, you still have a lot to learn at your age. What your parents are doing is admirable. They continuously try to help you group up and warn you about your actions.
All too often, parents these days don't really care about what their children and ignore them. That's why there are so many children that are screwed-up.
One day you're going to be a parent so you'll see why your parents are trying to help you. They love you and want the best for you. We all have gone through this as young adults. We all think we have the answer but don't.
Just as you would consult with a mechanic for car issues; a Doctor when you have health issues, your parents are there for any problems you may have. Trust them and listen to them.
I hope that you're not charged with assault as that's a crime if convicted, could make it very difficult, if not impossible, to find a good job.
You have a lot going for you. You just don't realize it yet. Talk to your parents and learn from them.
Good luck to you.
People need to get over the fact that she pulled that woman's hair! Hello, it's not that serious to waste tax dollars to take it to court. She should have just pulled Ashley's hair back and then they would have been even. Issues solved! lol
LP, she already does, that's the point of this. Did you even read her entry?
Ashley, I'm really proud of you, and that you've learned and are growing. That's what you say, and I really hope you truly are. :) So proud of you! :D
Life is about the choices we make. Sometimes we make good ones and sometimes we don't. Like you said, all we can do is learn and grow. Take care, Ashley. And congrats on your internships and school!
I feel like I have to play advocate for Danielle because, regardless of her part in the drama, it is 4 against 1, and she does not have 3 other blogs to cut and paste in support of herself. I disagree with your assessment of Danielle's interactions with Jillian. She was definitely nervous and scared as this was her first public performance. I don't think it had anything to do with Danielle pressuring her. Jillian specifically wrote and rehearsed this song to be performed at her sister's party. As a parent, Danielle realized that if Jillian backed out, she likely would have regretted it later. What I saw was Danielle giving her a healthy push knowing that this was all initiated by Jillian, she did not take it lightly, and she put in the rehearsal time. That she was able to handle her nerves in front of such a huge crowd tells me that in the end Danielle was right. Your feelings for Danielle are no secret, so you will see what you want to see.
Perhaps you have grown, but please do not speak for Danielle's children and say they don't need her. You know nothing of their private life together, and therefore should remain quiet with regards to her children.
Great post. You are your own woman and you own what you did. You're handling the situation beautifully in my opinion. I love that you tell it like it is . . . good for you! Forget the haters. Good luck on the rest of your endeavors and enjoy your great family and boyfriend. You deserve it!
I tried- I just can't read your blog anymore. I made it to the start of the second page and I can do no more.
As a 40+ women- mother of 2 sons, the oldest is age 21. I would say that your first real adult move should be to stop filming nor ever blog again.
You are only 18 and the world is a big rough place. None of this is doing you any good.
Take time to find yourself, grow and mature - like ALL 18 year olds need to do.
Love, love, love that you support TWLOHA!! I'm a recovering prescription addict & think its wonderful that a young girl like yourself would choose this as thier charity. You remind me a lot of my own daughter, whos still finding her way. You are blessed and you know that. :) Dont listen to the haters, sweetie. You are turning out great! Keep your chin up!
I think people really want to see you being super nice to your mom- if there is a season 3 than i feel that is how you should come off. you will gain more fans that way who will gladly donate to the charities you support.
Ashley, this should be a great time in your life. You are young, beautiful and talented. There is no need to bring drama into it - your Aunt Caroline is right. You can't change Danielle but you can certainly change yourself. I can see it in your blog. Good luck in life and love. Just stay away from Danielle no matter how hard she tries to get under your skin.
I see alot of myself in you ( when I was your age ). I wanted to be treated like a grown up, make my own money, be respected and most of all, act like a grown up. As long as your aunts ( I love them like my own!! ) refer to you as a child, kid or teenager , you will maintain that persona. Sure, part of that may also be to put things in to perspective with the " old lady picking on a kid" storyline going on here. After HS, I went to work in a hospital as a unit secretary. No experience needed. I found that I was surrounded by educated people who needed me, counted on me and respected me. Families and patients treated me kindly and with respect. I felt grown up finally. It boosted my self esteem and I entered nursing school at 21. I am now 42 and I have always been so grateful for taking that first hospital job. It gave me the chance to break out of the cute kid role and become a respected member of a healthcare team. I was told by a step father that I wasnt smart enough to amount to much and my good looks would fade. You are very lucky to have a supportive step father. My point is, you can turn your life around very quickly. I think because I surrounded myself with serious professionals ( doctors and nurses and technicians ) who are in the work place to work and take care of serious issues like life and death, I didn't have the time to be childish or petty. It certainly made me grow up and see the big picture in life. I'm not knocking other professions (so haters need not respond.) I have been in healthcare since I was 18 so that is what I know and have been exposed to. Good luck to you. You are a beautiful lady with a fabulous family. I just wanted to share my experience and let you know that it is easy to break out of the "kid" role in the family and find your adult way.
Danielle is exhausting but would there really be a show without the "drama"??? I enjoy watching the closeness of your family and the friendship with Teresa and her family as well...
Ashley keeping on the path your on currently, stay focused and enjoy life!!!
I don't think you have to feel sorry or regret pulling Danielle's hair cause like you have said everything happens for a reason and I believe that you have and are learning from your mistakes just like everyone else does. Keep being the person that you are and try your best and hardest to stay away from Danielle.
Take Care, ~Jessica~
Saying things and doing things are two different things. You seem understand what is right and what is wrong,but you should start digesting your parent's voice and start practicing it. You should start proving by action, but not only by words. And you will be just fine.