It is not fair to constantly look for someone to blame for your own problems. If everyone continues to use me and place the blame on me, then how will any of you learn from your mistakes and grow?
I am not here to attack. I am not here to be mean. I am not here to throw stones. I am not here to judge. I am also not here to be abused by any of you any longer. I feel awful that Jacqueline had to start saying horrible things about me for she herself does not understand. You have not known me long at all and what I thought at the time was an instant connection. I now feel I was completely wrong. I wanted desperately to fit in with new friends and mainly I wanted to be in your life. I thought you felt the same about me. It saddens me that I was so wrong about you. I will say this though. I genuinely wish you all good in life and wish you health, wealth, and happiness. I want you to one day look back at our time and remember that I was the one there for you to listen to you every day when no one else could tolerate it any longer. I was also the one who drove you to all of your doctor appointments when no one else would. I took you everywhere you needed to go - even to buy things for CJ’s birthday. I even took the time to connect you with party event planners I’ve know for twenty years. Even though you did not use them in the end they listened to you and worked with you because I asked them to. I also took you to my OBGYN of 16 years to help you with your pregnancy issues, and gave you contact numbers so that you could speak with him at any time you felt concern. I also took you to check your blood work weekly or every three days so that you could stay on top of your pregnancy. I did way too much to list and I do not want credit, however I want to remind you that anytime you needed me, day or night, I was the one there for you. You will remember one day.
Yay Andy! Thank you for speaking up and not allowing them to continue to make excuses for bad judgment and gay slurs. I would like to say that if most people heard what I had to off camera they would most likely have been even more offended. I just think no one should ever speak without thinking first.