I was at Chateau that day to talk to Jacqueline about Teresa. Also, Teresa asked me to stop by to comment on her being over the top for getting her girls hair done before a dress rehearsal for dance. That part did not make it on the episode.
When Jacqueline arrived, I had been waiting nearly 2 hours for her. I was beyond agitated. She knew I wanted to talk to her about Teresa not being invited, and yet she didn't come because she was worried that I would say something about Dina. I made it painfully clear I had no intentions of saying anything negative about her.
Earlier that day, Teresa mentioned to me that it bothered her that Dina didn't invite her into the city to the Sex and the City premiere. She said she didn’t want to confront Dina about it. I mean she has been Dina's friend for well over a decade, but she didn't ask me to say anything. I took it upon myself to do so. At the time I was becoming very close with Teresa, and she would call me nearly 10 times a day. We spoke about everything that was on her mind. I simply wanted to know why Teresa had not been invited and Jacqueline knew this.
By the time Jacqueline arrived, Dina arrived to get ready to go. That's when Dina assumed I was there because I wanted to go.
I don't think it's nice that all the ladies seem to judge me and say the nasty things that they say. However, I was only there as Teresa's friend to try and make her feel better. Little did I know everyone would be so harsh towards me. They are a tough crowd, but I really only wanted to be friends with Jacqueline. She was hoping they would be more open to me. I certainly didn't ask for that.
I am not shown in a very good light, but I hope that everyone will reserve their judgment of me until my story unfolds. My life has not been an easy one and I truly look forward to sharing parts of my journey with an audience. I don’t think any of the women were overly kind to me. But after viewing the first episode, it turns out they were extremely rude and cruel!
It was nice to have the support of Jacqueline and Teresa at the Gucci model date. But they judged me harshly afterwards. If they had nothing nice to say, they shouldn't have said anything at all.
Now to that over the top, rudest of rude, cruelest of cruel, most baseless tidbit that so easily rolled off Teresa's tongue. OMG - how would she know why Steve comes to my house (a few times a week I might add, not daily)? Seriously, we were dating and he always said she would stop at nothing to break us up. He told me Joe is a nice guy, but he also told me crazy things about Teresa. He said Teresa used him constantly like an employee. She would make him run to the store, called him to baby-sit her three kids, called him to help her kids with their homework (seriously they were 6, 2, and 3 years old at the time.) These are Steve's words, not mine. Plus when Steve would come to my house, we would always do something with the kids. We would take them out to eat, watch a movie with them, have a BBQ, etc. As far as her comment about what I do in my private, intimate moments...she has no right to say anything. As far as I know, she wasn't there. I asked Steve if he ever said that to Teresa, and he denied ever saying anything disrespectful about me to her. Steve and I did not see each other every day - not even close.
I walked up to Jacqueline to wipe frosting off her face (at CJ's birthday party) and Dina and Caroline looked at me like I was completely out of line for doing so. Wow, can anyone say Mean Girls? OMG!
Just to be clear, I want love - true love. I definitely do not want to struggle financially, but if money was the only important thing to me I would've stayed with my cheating ex-husband. I would have stayed rich and secure in a marriage without love or trust.
About the phone sex - I did not have phone sex with him for two years. I had conversations with him for one and a half years, and we exchanged numbers. That's when we began having phone sex!
Dina did threaten to kick my ass. She didn't want me to talk about something she had asked me for, that I refused to give her. She asked me to pay $750 for something that I wasn't involved in, and she wanted each cast member to pitch in equally. I declined because I didn't want to be involved, and she threatened me not once, but twice. Hey Dina, you didn't even pay your brother and you were involved. How could you possibly ask me to pay for something that I was not a part of from the start? You say I have too much time on my hands, but seriously, it's not me talking all this smack about you. You seem to have a TON of time to talk about and focus on me. Why? Who is really obsessed with whom?
And Caroline, I was never interested in your son. It was you who asked me to dance with him and show him how to move his hips! Yet you happily threaten me for doing as I was asked. I am a great dancer. Period. I think you should have gotten off your ASS and danced, but yet you sat on the couch? Hmmm...interesting.