Cast Blog: #RHONJ

The Power of Now

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

The Power of Now

Dina lays book rumors to rest, and explains why she's in a much more positive place now.

Hello Everyone,
I want to start by saying that I had every intention to finally tell the whole TRUE story of "The Book" after this final episode. I even had it written out weeks ago but I was unable to post it until now.

After really thinking about it I have changed my mind. I am TIRED of talking or even THINKING about this book. It was NEVER about the book in the first place. I am also writing this blog without watching the second half of the reunion show. I kind of know what went down because I was there. But you never know how things could be twisted to look a different way.

So what I am about to give you is what is in my heart.

I have never in my life been in such a bad place than I was during the filming of this show. I signed on for this show shortly after I read a book called The Power of Now. This book completely changed my life. I was quite honestly the happiest that I have ever been. I am not saying that I was unhappy before I read this, but I was not at peace with certain areas of my life. I had everything to be happy about, a beautiful healthy daughter, a husband that I love, a thriving career and a foundation for sick children that was so rewarding. But some things would bug me. I have always dealt with my fair share of negative comments mostly from people who didn't know me. To me this was mind-boggling. I woke up every morning with the intent to do nothing but good for myself and everyone around me. So to hear these CONSTANT comments and rumors were hurtful to say the least. I would always let that get to me...until I read this book. I am not saying that I am perfect, far from it, but I never would want to intentionally hurt ANYONE ever. I am sure that I made mistakes and said and did the wrong thing here and there but it was NEVER done with ill intentions. So WHAT'S my point in all this? I'm getting to it...LOL.

When Danielle and I had the initial falling out, it was the way in which she spoke to me that freaked me out. NEVER in my 36 years of life has anyone ever spoke to me like that. When I hung up the phone I sobbed. Not because of the content of the conversation, because she managed to bring out someone inside of me I didn't even know was there. It was a side of me I have never seen or heard. It was in that moment I decided this girl is NOT for me, she was toxic... I never want to go to that place again, and that is what I TRIED to do from that moment on.

Well that is pretty hard to do when you are in contract to do a show with someone...LOL. Every day I would hear more and more hurtful things this woman would say about me. It wasn't just your average "she's a bitch" or "she's a goldigger." It was some heavy hurtful stuff. I will NEVER go into detail with any of this. That would only give it LIFE. Why would I do something like that to rumors that were so outrageous and far the truth? If you notice I NEVER once in any of my interviews indulged the rumors about Danielle either. I would only comment on what I saw with my own eyes. The book was a fact, not a rumor and even then I only touched on it and said it seems she did some horrible things in her past, and again - SHE CHOSE TO BRING THIS BOOK PUBLIC.

I quickly found myself going to a negative place even before the cameras starting rolling because of this. That is when I decided to put out an olive branch to Danielle. I wrote her a very nice letter saying let's just agree to disagree on certain things, but show our daughters how grown woman should behave and treat one an other. Along with the letter I gave her a copy of The Power of Now.

Nothing...no response. I was shocked. All that followed was more anger towards me. It was so frustrating. I would try and go about my days working my ass off, dealing with my daughter growing up and my house falling apart. I had this CONSTANT thorn in my side named Danielle, fueled by a relationship with my sister-in-law Jacqueline that exploding in front of my eyes.

What people didn't know and cameras never caught is that Jacqueline and I didn't speak throughout most of the filming. If she had a problem with me as Danielle insinuated in the reunion PRE-Danielle, I had NO CLUE. If that were the case, why would I ever want to do this show with her? Why would I give her a fertility bracelet in hopes of her conceiving? Why would I give her a genuine hug her at CJ's birthday party? Why would she be invited to the first episode's girls' night out with MY girlfriends? But most importantly, why would I feel comfortable talking about Danielle WITH her? My problem with Jacqueline was because she continued a friendship with someone who had a mission to destroy me. It quickly became clear to me that Jacqueline was Team Danielle and that was hurtful beyond words for me. Jacqueline and I were friends, GOOD friends, not just sister-in-laws. It was also hurtful to my parents to see us fight. My brother Chris and I were as close as siblings could be. It was heartbreaking for them to watch this go down. At the same time, my battle between career and home life was weighing heavily on my mind, my mom was having serious surgery and the stress of filming was really getting to me.

I'm getting to my point I swear...LOL.

At the point of the "last supper" I was emotionally spent and so over this drama. Caroline DID NOT lie for me, and to see Jacqueline stand up against us was unfortunate. As I said, she was misinformed about who showed the book and I am sure her ill feelings towards me made her hear only what she wanted to hear at the time. Again, I want to stress the point that we have moved on from this and are totally in a good place now. I am not trying to rehash this at all - I just think it will explain a lot. WE ARE ALL GOOD AND THAT IS WHERE WE WILL STAY.

Now, the reunion. Some, including Caroline, Jacqueline and Teresa may be confused as to why I was so forgiving towards Danielle. NONE OF THEM were ever in my shoes. There were no attacks on them to the extreme that Danielle was attacking me behind the scenes. None of them were battling with family members over this. None of them were brought to such a bad place because of all this. At this point I just NEED everything to go away. Yes, it is true that Danielle did something recently, actually two things that were harmful to innocent people that didn't sign on for the show. Nothing ever became of it, she may have tried to do something, but it held no merit so it went nowhere. She is admitting that she was a broken person and has learned from this. It is not up to me to decide whether or not she is full of shit. I hope for the sake of her children that she has learned her lesson and what she is saying is true, but only time will tell. In the meantime, all I want is what I have only wanted from the beginning. You go your way; I go mine and just wish each other the best.

 

Now, here's my point of paragraph two. I am back to a good place. The place where it doesn't matter to me what toxic people think. I don't care if some don't believe me about the book, I don't care if some think I am a bitch, I don't care if some think I hide behind the protection of my siblings. I don't care if some believe or start rumors about me. I know the truth. I know who I am and I am proud of who I am. More importantly my daughter, my husband and my parents are proud of who I am. I put my head on my pillow at night and as I count my blessings, I know that I lived that day giving back the best way I could. Loving my family and my friends...those I truly care about and what they think. I have to thank some of the Housewives fans for their part in this. Those who have reached out with well wishes and kind words - keep spreading the love. You are awesome. Those who have nasty things to say, I have learned from you too. You have reminded me that only I could let those words affect me. I chose not to let them. : ) All my best,
Dina
xoxo

 

Quick answers to some fan questions:
I get all my skin care from Town&Country in Ridgewood, NJ Darphin is my favorite.
My glasses from the Atlantic City scene are actually Gucci not Dior. (Ooops.)
The horse picture in the scene with my brother (for the celeb) is from Melaniesnowhite.com.
The fertility bracelet I bought Jacqueline is from ZenJewelz.com
My favorite tops and dresses worn on the show will be for sale on eBay soon to benefit Project Ladybug.
Most are Alice and Olivia, LaRock, Tori Burch and Kay Unger.
I usually only wear Carmex lip balm...no lipstick.
I will be bringing you some of my favorite line's of clothing and home decor on InaJolie.com.
Ladybug tee's and gifts seen on the show will be for sale on www.projectladybug.org soon of course all proceeds go to the cause!

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Dina Manzo opens up about her comments regarding her family and why she kept quiet for Teresa Giudice.

This reunion was very hard to watch. What most of you don't know is I went in there with the intention of keeping silent on my family issues, as I have for the past four years. An incident happened at the reunion, and I won't even give that person the attention they crave, but it set me off to tell my truth. Well some of it at least. I felt I was very P.C. this whole time, but now I had enough. Some people will push you because they know deep down inside you won't push back, but being "zen" is all about setting boundaries, and learning that has been part of my spiritual path. 

I don't want to go into much other than saying my answer about Nic came out very cold because there was more to it. I wish it were that easy to get to know him, but unfortunately it's not because of my relationship with his mother, and I'm just being honest. He is not missing me nor does he know what is going on with this family because of NOTHING more than his age. Anyone who is trying to make people think otherwise, especially his mother, should be ashamed of themselves. The Mother Theresa comment was about people comparing how I raise money for children with cancer yet don't help him. I went on to say how blessed my brother is to live in a county in New Jersey that people actually move to for the autism programs offered. How I see joy in him because of the progress he is making. He is a happy, beautiful child that is on his way to recovery, and although I know it's a struggle for parents of children on the spectrum, there is NOTHING wrong with seeing joy in them instead of sorrow. I appreciate all the parents of children with autism for their emails, tweets, etc. understanding and APPRECIATING that I see Nic as a 4 year old beautiful boy and not labeling him as anything other than that.

Kathy and Melissa should not have challenged me about "family values" if they don't want to hear my side. I kept quiet for the most part for TERESA, not wanting to bring up old wounds when she was dealing with so much around her sentencing. It was a hard position for me to be in. 

I have no words for my sister on WWHL. She could have answered the no engagement question and left it at that. The lies that followed after were extremely hurtful and must have come from the sheer frustration of having to defend her position on the engagement party. All of you have seen I have ONLY ever said positive things about her no matter what I was feeling. 

Please take a moment to watch this video I made on my truth about it all. I will post all the details on my look next week, but you can get to everyone involved -- from hair to dress  -- on my Instagram post on Sunday. Speaking of Instagram, I invite you to join me on a post a day for the month of November to share what you are thankful for. Showing gratitude for what you have in life just allows the universe to send you more to be thankful for! Trust me, it works!

Sending lots of love, 

Dina xo

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