Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Fuggetaboutit!

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Fuggetaboutit!

Jacqueline addresses the Danielle rumors, and makes a special announcement!

The finale! Oh MY MY! How INTENSE was THAT? I cried when I watched the show. I was in a very hard position that day. I sat there and listened to everyone express some very hard feelings they had for each other and such strong emotions were coming out. My head was spinning. I REALLY didn't want to get involved. It was hard.

Although I heard the same rumors from a couple of people, one being from Danielle, who claimed that Dina and Caroline brought the book into the salon to show it around and talk about it together...I really had NO proof of that. I was not there. It was just a rumor. What made me freak out during the finale dinner was hearing Dina say that "Her hands never touched that book" and that she had "nothing to do with it," and so on. THAT I knew to be a lie because she was the one that told me about the book, but would not reveal to me who her sources were. Dina and Caroline voted on telling Teresa when I voted against it (although we all ended up telling her together.) Also, Dina admitted to me that she told some other people about the book, as we ALL did, so I thought that she was denying all of that and wasn't being honest. I am not one to lie. That is when I snapped. They were referring specifically to the salon incident and I was referring to the book in general. It was NEVER anyone's intention to expose the book on national TV. None of us mentioned it on TV first! It was Danielle's choice to bring out the book. She felt the need to address it, because she believed that gossip about the book had been spread all over town, and bringing out the book was the only way for her to address everyone at once and clear her name. Dina only planned to bring it out at the reunion show if and ONLY if Danielle attempted to expose her with false rumors. That is the ONLY way the book would have EVER been exposed. Danielle brought it out FIRST on TV and THEN we were all asked questions about it. My sister-in-laws never wanted anyone to know that they knew about the book, but I had a strong need to let Danielle know it was out there. I felt guilty knowing about it and I also had questions about it that I wanted answered, plus I wanted to give her a chance to explain it to me from her side. I protected my sister-in-laws and told Danielle that my husband heard about it from a source that he wouldn't reveal. I told her that my sister-in-laws knew nothing about it. I didn't want to embarrass her more by letting her know how many people knew about the book. She just needed to know that it was out there. That's all! Were the contents in that book true or not or even relevant at that point in time during our dinner? I don't know, but it was important for Danielle to explain herself and I respected that and she had the right to do so. I understood that. Maybe it wasn't the best timing brining out the book during our dinner and in front of the kids, but it was known to us that this was our finale so I guess she felt like this was really her last chance to get it all out in the open and confront everyone.

People will believe what they want or not believe what they want from the book regardless of what Danielle says. Just because someone says it's true or not true doesn't necessarily make it so. People will make up their own minds and have their own opinions. Needless to say, that dinner turned ugly FAST! What the HECK was in those Bellinis?! Don't "F" with Teresa! Holy cow! That was actually the first time in seven years that I EVER even saw her even angry. It was CRAZY! I guess the anger had been building up in her toward Danielle for a while. Some of her reasons why were not discussed or shown on the show. Danielle said it herself...she likes to push buttons. NEVER tell Teresa to "Pay attention." LOL! Everyone was out of control. I'm so over it! Time to make amends and move on. I love my family and I just want peace. I adore my husband so much for trying to be supportive of everyone and for trying to keep the peace. I am so proud of him and he is the best man I know (besides my Dad) and I love him sooo much for it. I am a very lucky girl.

As you see, Ashley finally earned her car! We took my Dad's advice and didn't give her full control of it. In the beginning we only let her drive it to school and back and she earned more and more time with the car as she acted appropriately. My husband and I controlled the keys. It was great to see her reaction to the car - I know that she was very surprised and it made us feel good that she worked hard for it that summer and that we could give it to her.

How cute are my parents? They are the sweetest, most down to earth people you will ever meet in your life. My Dad is a retired Army Colonel and retired Vice president of Operations of a major hotel in Las Vegas, NV. I am very proud of them and we are very, very close. We speak DAILY to each other and visit each other often. How cool is their motor coach? We once traveled the entire Alaskan Highway in that coach one summer. It was an incredible experience! I think everyone should experience this at least ONCE in his or her lifetime. Anyway, I trust and respect my parents' advice and opinions. I always consult with them. I ended up doing the Botox in my forehead regardless of my Mom's horror stories about it ending in death. All of her stories end in death when she is trying to prevent me doing something she doesn't approve. She has a story for every food you can eat or medicine you can take or cosmetic procedures you can get, etc. I took my foolish chances to remove the wrinkles in my forehead, which resembled a Shar Pei dog. It's all worn off now, but I am seriously considering doing it again. I'm a rebel. Haha!

I go in today, Thursday, June 11th, to give birth to our baby Boy Nicholas! We are soo excited! I'm writing my blog now because I may not get a chance later. Congratulations to Teresa on her pregnancy as well! Little Nicholas will have a playmate in September. I can't wait to find out what she is having. :o) Lauren went on to get her Cosmetology license so I am very proud of her and excited for her future. Ashley hit some rough spots again this year but she is pulling it together and I believe she will come out just fine. She is a good kid.

The family, as always, despite our little battles from time to time, is closer than ever and I am thrilled. Nothing is better than family! :o) I am so glad everyone has resolved their differences and my new son isn't being born in the middle of a shit storm. With some recent shocking developments I have cut the toxic people from my life. I'm not going to talk about it - I am just going to act on it. Let's just say I was very disappointed with people, and I regret giving them my heart and time. Because of that rejection, I am now the target of a pathological liar. Fuggetaboutit! On to a more happy, healthy life - PEACE EVERYONE!

Someone asked what the writing on the wall in my kitchen says. In Italian it means, "God Bless This Family."

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.