Achieving Peace

So here we are ... my exit.

I just wanted all of you to know that no words could express how touched I am by the beautiful comments I've been getting all week here on my blog, on Facebook, my website and twitter. I am actually tearing up writing this. I have to say that our fans are the most wonderful people and for that I am grateful. You have all helped me get through some of the darkest times here on the show. You inspire me to be a better person, thank you from the bottom of my bubbies.

I want to comment a little on the other scenes this week, the scene with the farm made me laugh because that is what my family is all about, that's who we really are. This is what I thought this show was going to be about. A lighthearted funny show about a family that is a little crazy, good crazy. We would take day trips like that all the time and just laugh our asses off about the silliest things, like the pigs and their nasty unmentionables. I agree with Jacqueline for some reason I couldn't take my eyes off of its b*lls, I even had the urge to poke them with a stick or something. Gross right? But that's what I mean by good crazy. We are far from a normal family, but dangerous and harmful we ARE NOT. This kind of drama with this nut went a little too far for me. I didn't sign on for this.

I do hope you all understand why I HAD to go. No amount of money, attention, fame etc. is worth my happiness. I am finally at a point in my life that I can truly say I am happy. Like I've said before, my life isn't perfect ... what is perfect anyway? But when I put my head on my pillow every night and  thank God for all my blessings, my last thank you is always for the ability to cut out any negative and strive for true peace in my life. We ALL have the ability to achieve peace. I hope I shed some light as to how, as I said in my letter to her, "If the things around you don't change, it's time to change the things around you." Of course there was much more to that letter that was NOT read on air. I felt I didn't get the chance to make it clear to her what I really went there to say, so a letter of closure was the best way to express myself. I explained to her that I had the right to remove myself from a situation that doesn't serve me in a positive way and I was leaving the show. I NEEDED her to understand that I meant business. The letter ended with a very clear STAY AWAY FROM ME OR ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH ME. Of course she didn't listen...

I understand that I may have to do some press about my departure, I am obligated. But after this week is over you will NOT hear me mention her name again. I left for a reason; I want to cut her out of my life for good. Please respect my wishes and know that I will still continue to tweet and share updates on Facebook about all the good I am trying to do, and of course my wiseass comments will always be around for your entertainment. But going forward, any talk of her will not be acknowledged.

I could go on and on about Danielle's actions this episode. I could comment on how her and her busted "friends" (more like people who just wanted to be on TV) sit around in a geriatric Sex in the City scene and mock what is a really serious situation. It is so tempting to make fun of two-faced Kim G on the pole or make a joke about how I expected a penis to pop out of the side of Dirty D's boy shorts during her stripper split, but I am kinda over it all. You know I'm done when even the wiseass in me is tired.

Now about her...
Danielle was a woman with no morals and no boundaries. She would stop at nothing to get what she wanted, what's best for her. She is a pathological liar and a truly dangerous individual who admitted every move she makes in life is calculated. We should all pray and pray hard that her children come out of this unscathed - they were innocent bystanders in this horrific game she played. May she one day find peace. R.I.P. YOU ARE DEAD TO ME.

Well America, you haven't seen the last of me. I am moving on to some really exciting projects. I have a gorgeous costume jewelry line that you've seen me wear all season. New items are coming out daily, they are magnificent, handcrafted items that are created with glamour and peace in mind. I'll be wearing some great new pieces on Watch What Happens Live with Andy tonight too! I am also working on a book that explains exactly how to infuse spirituality in everyday life in a way that is not intimidating or confusing, starting with home and touching on everything from entertaining to fashion. It's kind of like a girlfriend's guide to happiness. I am also coming out with a line of home accessories that will incorporate my love of everything from healing stones to glitz and glamour. It's fabulous; you're going to love it. For updates check out Dinamanzo.com.

Now on to what's really important in life. A big part of WHY I agreed to do this show in the first place was to get my foundation Project Ladybug out there, and my plan worked! There was a method to my madness. I am so excited to see something I started four years ago around my dining room table with my sisters and some girlfriends explode into a national foundation. Please visit our website on how you could help:www.projectladybug.org. All the Ladybug gear that I was wearing in my last scene is available to you with a donation to our fund, from the Ladybug slippers, the jewelry, the t-shirt and the red streak in my hair. I hope that our fans have learned a little bit more about the foundation and how our mission is to lift these children's spirits while they are in treatment with the hope of a positive outcome. My philosophy on life works the same way for the kids we're helping. If we can make their stay at the hospital a positive one by making things a little less clinical, they will remain the happy little children that they should be and will be home living a normal life before they know it. Here is a little more about us: http://screendorpictures.com/SJRMC/SJRMC.html

I will miss you guys so much! Thank you for all your support, it means more to me than you'll ever know!

xoxoxo,
Dina