Cast Blog: #RHONJ

It's Her Party...

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

It's Her Party...

Jacqueline thinks Milania will be a very successful business woman.

I have some blog catching up to do! Here's a two in one. First, I must address 9/11. As I sat there with my husband watching documentaries in remembrance of 9/11, our heart ached for the victims of this horrendous tragedy. There is no consoling those friends and families who have lost their loved ones. Everyone heals at their own pace and in their own way. All we can do is to look out for one another, offer our support, and wait until we are needed to share a hug, a cry, an ear to listen, or whatever else they need to help make their days a little easier and to let them know there will be a brighter future. Time may not heal all wounds, but it does help to ease the pain.

Sometimes even the worst of tragedies can bring about positive change. Out of these hateful attacks on our country, something beautiful came. We proved to the world just how strong and powerful we truly are by pulling together, united, showing tremendous amounts of love, compassion, and support for one another as well as our perseverance to continue on, despite our losses and our pain while we work together to rebuild our lives and our communities. Complete strangers were helping strangers of all races, ages, genders, religions, occupations, lifestyles, etc. They helped by bringing others to safety and by comforting and supporting one another. People were sharing and giving their personal belongings to those in need. Businesses offered free services, donated their food, clothes, or whatever else was needed that they could offer. Many volunteered their time and labor skills to help clean up the devastation so we could start to rebuild. We will keep moving forward. Evil may have hurt us, but it also succeeded in making us stronger. It only motivated this country to pay more attention to our surroundings and appreciate our lives and others. It brought us all closer together. I'd like to say thank you to all of our heroes, who risked or lost their own lives trying to save others, our volunteers, who went above and beyond to help by offering their services, and let's not forget our troops, who will continue to serve, protect, and fight for our country to prevent more evil from harming us. I appreciate you all! We were all victims in the 9/11 attacks in one way or another. May your broken hearts mend but never, ever forget! Best wishes, love and prayers for all! XOXO!

Hurricane Irene, you are such a bitch! Please don't ever come back into our lives again! For all of those that have lost their homes, their livelihoods, their most cherished personal possessions, and even their loved ones (pets included) in these natural disasters, my heart and my prayers go out to you and your families. Cherish all you still have and what you will create in the future. Remember who and what are truly important in life, be grateful for them, and don't take them for granted. You will always have more and less than somebody else. Start making and documenting your new memories now. Try not to worry so much. Things always have a funny way of working out. You are all going to be OK. Never be too proud to ask for help when needed, but always be sure to be willing to help others as well. I wish you health, happiness, and the perseverance to continue on even when you feel like giving up. XOXO!

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They met my husband and Albie at a trade show last summer. The boys originally just wanted to possibly help market BLK until they learned just how incredible it really was. The boys gathered up my other nephews, Christopher, Joey, and honorary nephew, Gianluca, and the families joined forces. Jackie and Louise's mother is still alive today. It is their belief that the fulvic acid had a huge part in what has helped to keep her alive. Since the launch of BLK, we have received letter after letter about how it has helped many people with many different conditions, ailments, and diseases including people and children with AIDS, cancer, MS, arthritis, Alzheimer’s, autism, etc. It has often been said that it helps cure a hang over.

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Now to address what I remember from last week's show. Was that the hookah episode? Fun night at Aladdin in Hackensack, NJ. Great food, and I was very entertained there. Nothing in the hookah was illegal, I assure you. I can't say that it didn't stop me from feeling a little silly. I have to take the credit for tying Joey's shirt like Daisy Duke and telling him to go dance. You're welcome. He's a great sport.

I think the misunderstanding about Teresa’s book signings was that Teresa assumed that Melissa or Joe must have learned about them from Facebook, so she never picked up the phone to tell them about it. Joe and Melissa had never been to a book signing before, and they didn't know how it worked, so they waited for a personal invite. This time, to end the confusion, Teresa personally invited them and this time Melissa and Joe showed up as well as Kathy and Richie. Hooray! Communication is key! The problem is that as much as each of them want the other’s efforts to mend things to be real, they are definitely having some trust issues with believing each other's sincerity. Fake it until you make it, remember? They have got to start somewhere. It's painful to watch them all hurting, but that's how I know the love is still there, and it makes me think there is still hope for reconciliation. They just have to work on having mutual respect and learn each other's boundaries. They also need to be more aware and concerned about who is getting caught in the crossfire. Sometimes we get so caught up in our own emotions that we forget to notice that other people are affected too.

What else do I remember from last week’s show? Uh, do you mean besides Joe Guidice's hostility and loss of his front tooth? I really wasn't going to mention that, but hey, it's kind of hard to pass up and I know that Joe is a good sport about it. At least Joe was numb enough not to feel that face dive AND he got a couple beautiful brand new teeth because of it. Teresa likes them even better now anyway.... but holy crap the sound of his teeth hitting the floor sends chills up my spine! I may or may not have watched that a few hundred times in fast, normal, and in slow motion. I'm telling my dentist to forget the Novocain from now on and just to give me a jug of Joe's wine!

Sh-- happens when you drink too much. It could have been a lot worse. I think a lot of people have made some bad choices when they've been drinking. Anger can also build up over time. It comes out easier and more freely when you drink. He vented. The anger will taper off along with the hangover. The families just have some deep seeded issues to work through and get over. It will happen. Just like in every family when given enough time. Everyone just needs to make sure that they always do the right thing and not worry about getting even or think too much about what anyone else is doing or not doing or even if they are being sincere or not. Someone has got to start bringing about a positive change to stop the vicious cycle. Usually, if you change your own ways, the other person will start to respond to you differently.

Next episode. Cupid’s Chase is a national 5K run that takes place in twenty-four cities, throughout ten states, on the same day and at the same time. Community Options, Inc. (COI) is the host of the national Cupid’s Chase 5K Run. COI is a national nonprofit that has been developing community-based homes and employment supports for people with disabilities since 1989. So there! Please excuse me for not remembering why and who the heck I was walking for in the freezing cold at 7:00am (or something like that). I'm not even sure who really won. I think Kathy did out of us Housewives. I think Teresa, Joe, Kathy, Rich and their kids ran the whole course fairly. They get an A for effort. I think young Joseph Wakile won to be honest. He was hauling ass! Most of us cheated. It was freaking cold out that day!

I also had bad pains in my stomach and back like a pulled muscle or something that I thought was kidney stones, but as it turned out, it wasn't. Now that I look back, it was probably trapped gas. LOL! It never came out. I'm certainly not a runner either. "My boobs don't run." It forces unnecessary gravity on them too hard and too fast. A girl of my age shouldn't be adding to the Earth's natural gravity pull on my breasts. Like I said, I like to walk fast and squeeze my butt cheeks together to help get them firm. It works for me. Pushing the stroller adds great resistance as well.

I'll pretty much do anything for charity, but when it's a race in the freezing cold, I'd rather just donate some bills then grab a cup of coffee and cheer everyone on. I could have been waiting at the finish line holding onto that jug of wine and bag of sausage Joe brought. Good thinking, Joe! Tailgate party! Yahoo! The zebra hat I wore actually belongs to my babysitter, Sarah (@sarahrehovrik) Jealous? You can get one and others like it at She left it at my house one day, so I borrowed it. It was so me.

I have to thank Charlotte Reed (Pet Expert) for the pet products I've received from her. The pet toy Santino, my dog, was throwing around was from her. She has been very good to him, and he enjoys and appreciates everything he's gotten from her.

When Teresa and Melissa were talking on the phone "at" each other, I really couldn't make out what either of them were saying. They just kept speaking over each other. It reminded me of Ashley and I, and just like us, I saw how quickly things could escalate between them. I knew Milania's Birthday party was approaching, and all I could think of was that all the tension between the Joes could possibly turn the birthday party into something that resembled the christening part two. That was a frightening thought.

Lauren and Vito making mozzarella to sexy music and handling it like Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze making pottery was glorious to watch! Just because of that, I also want to have a sexy night of mozzarella making now with my hunny! Get ready, Chris! We are going to work it nice and slow, baby. Can't wait! I'm even going to play sexy background theme music to set the mood.

"Princess Milania at your servant?" Bahahaa! I love Teresa-isms. I think she meant to say, "at your service." This is one of the reasons we love Teresa. Sticking her butthole in her husband’s face while sitting on it after having the runs, is another reason. What? Come on, you mean to tell me that you’ve never done that to your man? LOL! They are just so funny together. If Teresa runs with the runs, then I should have been able to run with my trapped gas. She's a trooper.

Joeboken night out looked like a lot of fun! Why weren't the rest of us invited? Are we too old? Am I the ugly, old, boring aunt now? When did this happen? Hello?

It's Milania's Birthday party and she can cry if she wants to. Cry if she wants to. Cry if she wants to. I like a girl who knows what she wants and will stop at nothing to get it. If she uses this trait positively and correctly when she's older, it will work to her advantage. She will be the boss of her own business and her workers will be productive and fear her. LOL! I truly love Milania.

I thought the pizza making party was a brilliant idea. Kids love that stuff! Edible play. Perfect! I thought it was absolutely adorable that Gia wrote and performed that song for her sister. I just hope that Gia doesn't try to make up a birthday song for me next April, because she will be there all day, "First she was one, then she was two, then she was three, then she was four, then she was five, then she was six, then she was seven, then she was eight, then she was nine, then she was ten… Ugh! Then she multiplied that by four and added two!" LOL!

The second song Gia wrote and performed was heartbreaking. She sent such a big message for such a little girl. I think it brought tears to everyone's eyes. We could feel the pain in her heart. Hopefully that triggered a reality check and was a wake up call for all involved to try to mend their differences. Keep the faith, I think you all may be pleasantly surprised.

See you next week! Love to all! XOXO!

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Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Amber Marchese dishes on her experience this season on #RHONJ.

We made it Housewife friends! As it was my rookie season, I felt like I was being hazed in a sorority, but as hard as it was, I made it! I learned so much about how strong I am as a person and some areas that I can work on. I learned that I really do have a “no surrender, never retreat” mentality. I will go to bat with anyone, at any time, and will defend myself and my family at all cost. I also witnessed the undying love that my husband has for me and his family. He was not going to let anyone hurt me and will unleash hell if someone tries. He is truly my modern day Spartan warrior. 

I am so blessed to have shared my experience and struggles with breast cancer -- the timing of my five year mark, the photo shoot, and growing my hair for five years then cutting it for charity -- it was nothing short of a miracle that the Bravo was able to catch that all. It was just meant to be and God was truly working his wonders. Cutting my hair was completely symbolic for me, since cancer no longer defines me. I will never forget, however the pain, fear, and anxiety is in my rear view mirror now. I can sometimes look back to remind myself where I came from, but it in no way defines my future. It is my promise to all of you, I will never take that for granted, especially knowing that there are thousands struggling with cancer every day. 

On to my perspective on the season finale! I am not quite sure why the twins make it a point to confront others in front of large crowds. As Teresa said, they had two weeks to call her and speak to her about what Victoria Gotti had said to us. If they had an issue or wanted an apology, so be it, but what ever happened to being a civilized human being and picking up the phone to call? They did the same thing to me. Two weeks went by without any phone call from them. In fact, they never returned any of my phone calls or texts! They decided to make a scene in front of an entire party. Difference is, this was at a charity event with children in ear shot. Can you blame me for not wanting to bring my babies to this event? I would have absolutely loved my children sashaying down the runway, but there is absolutely no way I would EVER allow my babies to hear what went on. I spoke with Teresa and I knew the twins never called her. So I knew exactly what was brewing, so did Dina. My children come first and mama was protecting her children. Dina was brazen enough to kick Jim and me out of the Florida home for less of an offense, why wasn’t Dina kicking the twins out because they were making a scene at her own charity function for children?! Can we say double standard? Where were her “heads rolling” that she claimed would happen if someone started anything at a Ladybug event? 

I will add that I completely understand how hurt the twins are. I can understand their anger. However, I cannot understand their way of handling conflict. That level of “hot headedness,” I would think, cools down at a certain age as we tend to calm ourselves, think clearly, and with wisdom. It is a level of discernment that should happen after a certain age or experience in life. 

Dina claims to be Teresa’s friend of 25 years, but does not back up her friend at all. If that was my friend, like Christine or Angelia, whom I have been friends for just as long, the twins would not have gotten to the letter T in stupid before I would be dragging them out of the event by their ears. Dina doesn’t have to agree with her best friend, but she should also never allow someone to call her friend of 25 years stupid, at her own charity function no less. Especially knowing what her friend is going through, which pales in comparison to some stupid rumor.

Since Dina has unwarranted venom towards my husband and has completely snubbed him for his previous contributions to The Ladybug Project, I am going to thank him on their behalf for coming up with the idea of the children's fashion show, as well as the connection to East Coast Stars. Since Jim did not attend, he also made a sizable cash donation on behalf of our family. Jim had also worked hard before all the drama to make sure Ladybug even had a venue with all costs covered, including food and beverage. The venue was ultimately not chosen, but Jim had still worked hard to give Dina an option for the event. Instead she chooses to focus on Jim’s comment about her IQ after she interrogated him at an extremely inappropriate, charged moment right after his wife was attacked. Despite her inappropriateness, Jim still ended up apologizing to her. However in my opinion she should have apologized to him for being so glaringly insensitive. 

It may seem as if my perspective is harsh for an end of season blog, LOL! But it is what I was feeling at the time. I owe it to you all to give you my honest interpretation of it. However, at the end of the season, I came out having a certain amount of respect for all of these ladies. Being on a reality show is hard; it pushes us to our limits and it is nothing short of psychological warfare. I truly hope you will support all of us, equally. Teams are good, and appreciated; however, keep the hate towards other Housewives out of it. Perspective are OK, different points of view are what make the world go round, however, when your perspective rises to a level of cruelty, it takes the fun out of our jobs. Allow us to be ourselves, with the good moments and even the moments when we could have handled ourselves a little better. At the end of the day, the Housewives are girlfriends that have strong personalitiesand disagreements -- we love, we hate, and we make up. That’s life. 

I have would like to thank: Denee Lockhart, Amy Malkoff, J. Vincent Jewelers, Cate Scaglione Photography, Castle Couture, Action Media Productions, Elinet Cakes, Christine’s Restaurant, Historical Names, East Coast Stars, Zaboyon, Greenhouse Flowers, Johnny Donavan PR, Anthony Palmieri stylist, Tony Bowls evening wear, and finally, my husband Jim and my mom, Pamula Aguero. 

It was an amazing experience that I would not change for the world. I want to thank all of you for you love and support. This was a wild ride. 

Many blessings to all!

Amber Marchese