Cast Blog: #RHONJ

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Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

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Kathy wishes she could do over certain moments from the season.

I want to start this blog by telling you how much I have appreciated everyone's love and support in our first season. It has been an amazing journey into unchartered waters for my family and me. As I have mentioned many times before, it has been just as difficult for me to see some of the scenes play out as it is for those of you watching at home. I don't walk around with a mirror in front of me as I talk all day so, yes, facial expressions do say a lot. I know that mine have certainly been reflective of my feelings. I always say, your eyes don't lie.
Watching myself has really taught me so much. I continue to pray that with each day I learn a bit more about myself and the world we live in and try to do better. Don't you wish there was a rewind button on life? Too bad there isn't one. All we can ask is that we keep moving forward, learning from our experiences, and making changes for the better.

Every family has issues. When you think about it, it's because you are family that the issues are there in the first place. If you weren't bound together, you could easily just walk away. No more issues, plain and simple. But since you are bound together by love, you have an inseparable connection. Whether you want to interpret it as the love of the idea of a great big happy family, or the love for what once was, or just the love for someone that you are related to, family becomes an ongoing part of who you are.It was very sad not to have Jacqueline with us at the reunion. At the time our reunion was filmed, she was very upset and it was best for her not to come. After a few weeks of working through her feelings, I am happy to say that she is in a better place. Jacqueline has been very kind to me from the very beginning, and I won't ever forget her kindness.
Although Caroline and I got off to a rough start this season, I can fully appreciate where she was coming from. It did not always make it any easier to deal with, but I did appreciate her very gracious apology. As you can see, as we spent more time together we have grown to like one another and more importantly, to respect each other. It's been a pleasure to get to know her family.
 
I want to say how proud and happy I am for Melissa. She has been an inspiration for so many to follow their dreams. The Gorgas and Wakiles are closer than ever, and this is what family is all about.

I have been receiving so many inspiring emails and messages from so many wonderful viewers. I want to thank you all once again for laughing with us and crying with us. You've gotten angry along with us and sometimes angry at us. Sometimes all in one episode! However, this is life! It's our life, and it's learning to take the good with the bad and hopefully emerging stronger. 
One letter from a viewer stood out the most and I'd like to share the quote she included.
 
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense" -Ralph Waldo Emerson

As Season 3 ends, I'm glad that you've gotten to know Richie, Victoria, and Joseph. Your support and concern for my family and me has meant the world to me. This would have never been the same without the viewers who are there for me.

As you have wished for me, I also wish for you -- much love and happiness!

I'm thrilled to tell you I will be launching my website soon, so let's keep in touch. I will be posting what the Wakile family is up to next (www.KathyWakile.com).

Facebook: http://tinyurl.com/3q4twye
 
Twitter: http://twitter.com/#!/kathywakile

Lots of Love,
xoxo Kathy

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.