Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Around in Circles

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Around in Circles

Melissa tells us about her recent trip to LA and shares her thoughts on the talk with Teresa.

Hi everyone! Just want to start out by saying I had the most incredible time in LA this week! Wow, everyone who lives out on the west coast is so lucky. Not to say we aren't, I missed Jersey so much! I have to say the restaurants were so beautiful, but the food really couldn't compare to NY/NJ. Sorry, I have to keep it real, it must be in the water! 

Anyway I did some press while I was out there, and everyone was so nice! I loved doing Good Day LA. They have the most beautiful news anchors around! I went to the E! News building and met Marc Malkin, who was the biggest sweetheart. I can't deny my absolute favorite interview was with Ryan Seacrest! OMG, this was exciting, his office was so crazy. It was like a party from the second Joe and I walked in. We loved it! 

I just want to say thank you to all my new LA fans and friends. You are all amazing! I can't wait to go back, Joe feels the same. There is just a feel good vibe going around that town. Love!

On to the episode... So glad Teresa and I had that talk. It was overdue! Sometimes it seems we go around in circles -- round and round we go, where we stop, no one knows? Hopefully it stops here! I do want to tell everyone that it might seem like I roll my eyes a lot, but that is not because I don't want to listen to her, it's because I'm thinking. I think with my eyes, I always have, so I just wanted to clear that up. I also got a little frustrated when she brings up her brother's business deals. I don't see how it has anything to do with our conversation. It's almost like she's trying to expose him or something. It had nothing to do with the conversation, so I got a little aggravated. 

I will say by the end of the conversation I really did want to make it work, and that's why I took out the vacation pictures. Family is everything, even if we don't always see eye to eye. When all of this is over, who will still be here? Family. I really want for both of us to stop and get to a happy place. I think it's OK to agree to disagree sometimes. I'm not saying we won't ever go back and forth again, we probably will, but I never want to get back to the place we were.

OK, so the Catskills looked like a good time! I thought Jacqueline was hysterical, and Caroline is a typical overprotective Italian mommy. They looked like they had a lot of fun. Joe Giudice was pretty good at shooting those melons! Lots of eating and drinking and some crazy sex talk! OK the ring thing was a little too much for me, not my style, eww! Why was she holding that? 

I loved watching Kathy take the reins and go after her dreams of opening her own business. She has such a passion for food and entertaining. I mean did you see the desserts she made for Thanksgiving? I know that whether she decides to open a restaurant or not, she will always do what's best for her and her family.

Did you see my little girl ballroom dance? I was really proud of her! She practiced really hard for that show and did such a great job. She really knows how to shake it! Sometimes I can't believe the way I see her move around the house. It really does come naturally to her, and she's just got it! I love her so much! 

Something about watching your child perform in front of a huge group of people makes me very proud that she is so confident and had the guts to do it. She was the youngest one there! There were about thirty acts that night, once again you only saw the older people who went, who by the way, were also so good! But there were many other children there performing from ages 8-16 and then there were the adults. It was such a great show! That's an incredible dance school.

Also, did you see how happy my husband was with his mother? Ah, this is what I like! No tension, just good family times. So happy she came and got to watch her granddaughter! Joe was so happy she was there, we all danced for hours! Joe was beaming with happiness. It was all over his face, and I felt the same. This is all we ever want! Love this! My mother, my sister, and Kathy's family all came to support Antonia, and it was such a great and memorable night! We all laughed together and had an incredible night together. I was so happy Antonia got to have both of her grandmothers there on her big night! 

The name of Antonia's dance school is called Fred Astaire Dance in Montville, NJ.

Here are a couple links to some of the interviews I did while I was in LA:

Ryan Secreast 

Marc Malkin on E! Online 

Good Day LA 

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I hope everyone has a magnifico giornata!

Xoxo,

Melissa 

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.