Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Dreams Do Come True

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Dreams Do Come True

Melissa shares her excitement about her single release.

Hi everyone! Wow, what an amazing week! I released On Display! So happy with the response so far. I love that you all are singing in your cars, running on your treadmills, singing around the house, and listening to my song! Wow! Dreams do come true! I’m beside myself about the whole thing! To have Ryan Seacrest do the world premiere was just more than I could have ever asked for. I love it! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

This was kind of a sad episode right? A lot of crying going on... I think so many people relate to us because we put it all out there. We show you guys what’s really going on. When my sisters stopped by and let me know that my father reached out to me with a medium, I was really in shock. My whole body got the chills and I couldn’t hold back the tears. I just could visualize his face and those were words that he would say, “Stay grounded.” Sorry I just lost it. I don’t usually believe in that kind of stuff, but something hit me inside, and I felt it was true. I know he’s jamming up there to On Display! Love him!

OK how beautiful is Lauren Manzo?  She has amazing style and is a very talented make-up artist. She really is the whole package -- beautiful inside and out. Lauren is such a warm and lovable person, and I think she’s perfect just the way she is. It was hard watching her tell Caroline that no matter how much weight she loses, she’ll never feel good about the way she looks. Watching Caroline cry made me cry. The way a mother loves her daughter is so special, it’s like we want to be hard on them, but we would do anything to fix whatever problem they have. We wish we could take it from them and give the problem to ourselves. There are a lot of mother daughter things going on in this episode. 

Kathy had THE TALK with Victoria! I think she did it perfectly. The thing is I know Victoria, and she is one of the most mature and classy seventeen-year-old girls around. She’s like off the charts good! Really! I almost feel like Kathy doesn’t even need to have the talk with her, she is so level headed. She’s a good kid and watching this makes me think about when I will have to do this with Antonia... I hope never :) Rich is so funny, he makes me laugh. Typical over protective daddy! But who wouldn’t be? Victoria is a bombshell, and Rich just wants her to stay his pretty, blonde, baby girl! Wonder what’s going to happen when she actually gets a boy friend? To be continued...

Jacqueline and Ashley made me cry the most. My heart broke for Jacqueline. The sound of her voice trembling when she was crying was just too much for me. These two love each other so much, but it’s almost like Ashley treats her like a friend rather than a mother. I think it’s because she had her at a young age, and they probably were best friends at one time. But once they view you as a friend, it’s hard to get them back to the place where you’re the mom. I thought it was nice of Ashley’s dad to surprise her and spend time together. What a strong group of adults to be able to all come together with their spouses for their daughter. That doesn't happen in most divorced families. Ashley, I hope you realize you are so lucky to have them! I know these two will be able to get it together and be a team. Jacqueline really does have the patience of a saint, and you have to with a twenty-year-old daughter. It’s not easy, but I know they will get through this.

I will say the workout scene was hysterical! OMG I loved it! Caroline was going to puke; Lauren looked like she was going to pass out; Chris and Albie were bringing it, as was Jacqueline who was kind of scary with her kicks (now I know to never mess with her); and I think I saw Greg’s balls! Wonderful scene!

Teresa trying to get the girls to take pictures was pretty funny too! I know it can be so difficult to get little ones to take pictures! Their facial expressions were hilarious. Gia is always like, "Leave me alone!" LOL. Teresa trying to get her speech out was funny too, good times, good times!

Last but not least... I finally put that studio to work and recorded On Display -- Yay! Thank you, Joe! I was so nervous to do it for the first time; recording in a studio is crazy. I’m used to singing in the shower! The studio is so different! Thank God I had great, patient producers to help me through the first time step-by-step. Now I’m a pro! LOL! I have four solid songs completed and can’t wait for you to hear the rest!

I am really happy with how On Display came out! It was my first, it was my baby. It will always have a special place in my heart! I wrote this song as a way to empower people. It’s not about me being a “celebrity.” It’s about being on display when you enter a new family, when you try something different, when you start a new job. You are on display and people are looking at you, waiting for you to fall, but you aren’t going to let them see you sweat. This track is meant to make you feel confident and make you want to dance! The beat on the remix is sick, and I jam to it all the time!

I’m so grateful for everything that is happening with my music, and I’m grateful that it even got this far. This is more than I ever could have ever dreamed of. I’m proud of it, and I hope you all enjoy it! Roll your windows down and sing, baby! Antonia and Gino know every word! It’s so cute! They love it. They request it in the car every time we get in. We blast it, even baby Joey bobs his head when it’s on. I love the original and the remix is just off the charts (if you ask me). Let me know what you think! 

I’m so excited to be performing at Beatstock on Saturday in Long Island! It’s going to be a long week... I just flew in Cris Judd to work with me on the choreography! I hope you all can come out and see me! Here’s the link to On Display and the Remix on iTunes.

Thank you all for your support, it really means the world to me.

Check out my website, I posted photos from the amazing single release party Joe threw for me at Hudson Terrace with all of our friends and family.

Follow me on Twitter @melissagorga and on Facebook.  

I hope everyone has a magnifico giornata!




Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Amber Marchese dishes on her experience this season on #RHONJ.

We made it Housewife friends! As it was my rookie season, I felt like I was being hazed in a sorority, but as hard as it was, I made it! I learned so much about how strong I am as a person and some areas that I can work on. I learned that I really do have a “no surrender, never retreat” mentality. I will go to bat with anyone, at any time, and will defend myself and my family at all cost. I also witnessed the undying love that my husband has for me and his family. He was not going to let anyone hurt me and will unleash hell if someone tries. He is truly my modern day Spartan warrior. 

I am so blessed to have shared my experience and struggles with breast cancer -- the timing of my five year mark, the photo shoot, and growing my hair for five years then cutting it for charity -- it was nothing short of a miracle that the Bravo was able to catch that all. It was just meant to be and God was truly working his wonders. Cutting my hair was completely symbolic for me, since cancer no longer defines me. I will never forget, however the pain, fear, and anxiety is in my rear view mirror now. I can sometimes look back to remind myself where I came from, but it in no way defines my future. It is my promise to all of you, I will never take that for granted, especially knowing that there are thousands struggling with cancer every day. 

On to my perspective on the season finale! I am not quite sure why the twins make it a point to confront others in front of large crowds. As Teresa said, they had two weeks to call her and speak to her about what Victoria Gotti had said to us. If they had an issue or wanted an apology, so be it, but what ever happened to being a civilized human being and picking up the phone to call? They did the same thing to me. Two weeks went by without any phone call from them. In fact, they never returned any of my phone calls or texts! They decided to make a scene in front of an entire party. Difference is, this was at a charity event with children in ear shot. Can you blame me for not wanting to bring my babies to this event? I would have absolutely loved my children sashaying down the runway, but there is absolutely no way I would EVER allow my babies to hear what went on. I spoke with Teresa and I knew the twins never called her. So I knew exactly what was brewing, so did Dina. My children come first and mama was protecting her children. Dina was brazen enough to kick Jim and me out of the Florida home for less of an offense, why wasn’t Dina kicking the twins out because they were making a scene at her own charity function for children?! Can we say double standard? Where were her “heads rolling” that she claimed would happen if someone started anything at a Ladybug event? 

I will add that I completely understand how hurt the twins are. I can understand their anger. However, I cannot understand their way of handling conflict. That level of “hot headedness,” I would think, cools down at a certain age as we tend to calm ourselves, think clearly, and with wisdom. It is a level of discernment that should happen after a certain age or experience in life. 

Dina claims to be Teresa’s friend of 25 years, but does not back up her friend at all. If that was my friend, like Christine or Angelia, whom I have been friends for just as long, the twins would not have gotten to the letter T in stupid before I would be dragging them out of the event by their ears. Dina doesn’t have to agree with her best friend, but she should also never allow someone to call her friend of 25 years stupid, at her own charity function no less. Especially knowing what her friend is going through, which pales in comparison to some stupid rumor.

Since Dina has unwarranted venom towards my husband and has completely snubbed him for his previous contributions to The Ladybug Project, I am going to thank him on their behalf for coming up with the idea of the children's fashion show, as well as the connection to East Coast Stars. Since Jim did not attend, he also made a sizable cash donation on behalf of our family. Jim had also worked hard before all the drama to make sure Ladybug even had a venue with all costs covered, including food and beverage. The venue was ultimately not chosen, but Jim had still worked hard to give Dina an option for the event. Instead she chooses to focus on Jim’s comment about her IQ after she interrogated him at an extremely inappropriate, charged moment right after his wife was attacked. Despite her inappropriateness, Jim still ended up apologizing to her. However in my opinion she should have apologized to him for being so glaringly insensitive. 

It may seem as if my perspective is harsh for an end of season blog, LOL! But it is what I was feeling at the time. I owe it to you all to give you my honest interpretation of it. However, at the end of the season, I came out having a certain amount of respect for all of these ladies. Being on a reality show is hard; it pushes us to our limits and it is nothing short of psychological warfare. I truly hope you will support all of us, equally. Teams are good, and appreciated; however, keep the hate towards other Housewives out of it. Perspective are OK, different points of view are what make the world go round, however, when your perspective rises to a level of cruelty, it takes the fun out of our jobs. Allow us to be ourselves, with the good moments and even the moments when we could have handled ourselves a little better. At the end of the day, the Housewives are girlfriends that have strong personalitiesand disagreements -- we love, we hate, and we make up. That’s life. 

I have would like to thank: Denee Lockhart, Amy Malkoff, J. Vincent Jewelers, Cate Scaglione Photography, Castle Couture, Action Media Productions, Elinet Cakes, Christine’s Restaurant, Historical Names, East Coast Stars, Zaboyon, Greenhouse Flowers, Johnny Donavan PR, Anthony Palmieri stylist, Tony Bowls evening wear, and finally, my husband Jim and my mom, Pamula Aguero. 

It was an amazing experience that I would not change for the world. I want to thank all of you for you love and support. This was a wild ride. 

Many blessings to all!

Amber Marchese