Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Going Deep

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Going Deep

Melissa can't even imagine how difficult Jacqueline's struggle with Ashley must have been.

Hi, everyone!

Hope you are having a good week. I am catching up after an amazing but hectic week. I had my first big performance at Beatstock in Long Island this weekend. I was so excited to be performing at a concert that I attend every year as a fan. Preparing was definitely a challenge. I worked with one of the best choreographers I know, Cris Judd! He is amazing! The final performance was so great, and I can't wait to do more shows. It was such a rush for me, I got off the stage and wanted to do it again! I loved every minute of it! Thank you for all of the positive emails and tweets about On Display. It means the world to me. Joe and I also celebrated our anniversary and Joe's birthday this weekend! There was a lot going on, so it's nice to have some time together at home with the family now.

This week's episode was a mixed bag. Jacqueline, Jacqueline, Jacqueline… Stop making me cry, you break my heart. I know that things will work out for her and Ashley, but it is just so hard to see that right now. I can't even put myself in her shoes and try to understand how she feels, because my daughter just turned six, but I can only imagine how painful it would be to not feel appreciated by her or feel like I was missing out on enjoying our life together. This is deep, deeper than all the petty drama you see on this show. This is very real and my heart goes out to them. I know Ashley will come around. She is very respectful to all other adults that are around her, so that tells me she's not a bad kid, just a little lost with her mother. It will work out over time.

Kathy really tried to put her best foot forward and have everyone come to the goddess party! What a great theme! When Kathy hosts a party she pays attention to all the little details. She really tried to get us together and make it special for all of us. It was really sweet of her to give each of us a goddess bracelet. I loved the way she took the time out to tell each and every one of us how we are special. That was really cute and that little gesture goes a long way! Lets not forget about the food… everything was displayed so beautifully and tasted amazing! You go, Kathy! Great job! 

OK so let's talk about my shirt! Umm, hello, it's a goddess party with a bunch of girl friends, I thought it was a perfect choice! Kathy asked us to dress the theme. I see I was the only one to actually run with it! OK, Rich with the holy water was a little too much, easy there killer! Mending the relationship with our families is a work in progress. I vented to Kathy about the play date that Teresa and I had, because I didn't want to vent to my husband and I had to get it off my chest. I told Kathy the whole story including how Teresa reacted to seeing the studio and hearing that I was recording a song. I did everything I could that day to bite my tongue and not say a word to Teresa when she was at my house. Kathy is my friend and I tell her everything.  Doesn't everyone vent to their friends? You can clearly see there is still some tension between Teresa and I at Kathy's party, but baby steps is all we can take. In the end we all appreciated being together and had a good time.

My goddess shirt was from www.poshboutiquenj.com

Check in with my website www.melissagorga.co I posted some pictures from Beatstock and my rehearsals with Cris Judd!

I hope everyone has a magnifico giornata!

Xoxo,

Melissa

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