I'm not going to lie, last night was not my favorite episode. What you see on the Housewives is ALL of us. Not only the good times. Not only the bad times. All the times. It's not easy to have your entire life taped. It's even harder to watch it played back on TV. It's nice when you get to see a happy memory again, like when you asked your best friend to be your new baby's godmother. It's not so nice to see the hard times -- the problems in your marriage, your finances, your business, your children's lives -- again. It's actually like living through it twice, which pretty much sucks.
We don't get to pick and choose what you see. We don't get to hide our problems. That's part of the fun of the Real Housewives shows, you're seeing inside Real Housewives' lives. You might not know everything your neighbor is going through, but you know all about your Housewife friends' lives. Hopefully it makes you feel better about your life, makes you appreciate things, gives you a laugh, gives you something to relate to, or at least gives you a night off from your own problems. We're not trying to cure cancer or anything. We're just letting you peek into our lives -- the good, the bad, the funny, the outrageous, the petty, the heartbreaking, the whole mess of it.
Yes, again you're seeing me during some hard times. Going through a very public bankruptcy but not being able to talk about all the legal aspects of the case has not been easy (and that's not because of the show, that's because of the legal system). I know it didn't make much sense when I said last night that Joe and I "won" the proceeding against us, but believe me, if you knew the ins and outs of this horrible case, the fact that Joe and I are still happily married, sane, and working hard does feel like a win. If you've ever been involved in a complicated business and personal bankruptcy or a nasty lawsuit (or two), you know the pain of this process. If you haven't, you can't imagine it. And God bless you for it. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.