Hello! And congratulations! Did a fist fight just break out somewhere? Apparently that's all I have to say to cause a ruckus...
This week's episode was a lot easier to watch, obviously, because it was mostly about Halloween. I'm a summer girl, but I love the holidays. Everyone looked so cute in their fall clothes with their boots and little faux fur vests. Carving pumpkins at Jacqueline's house was great. And yes, we did send the kids away as soon as we started talking about the christening. I didn't want my kids to hear any of that. (And no, I didn't let them watch last week's episode either.) I'm glad baby Joey didn't know what was going on at his christening, but unfortunately my Gia did. I'm so sad she had to see any of that. I never expected in a million years that my brother would erupt like that, especially in front of his goddaughter. It's one of the millions of reasons I walked away immediately. I do not want to fight with my family ever, especially not in front of our kids and our parents, and especially not on TV.
Someone asked me an interesting question this week -- if the roles were reversed and I was asked to be on a show Melissa had been on already (knowing going on it would hurt our family) would I do it? Not in a million years. And certainly not for any opportunities being on TV might bring you. Nothing, nothing is worth breaking up your family -- not fame, not money, not anything. I'm a smart girl. If I wanted to still write a book, I think I could find a way to get it published. I do live near New York City. If I wanted to be a singer, I would audition for The Voice or something. Nothing is worth putting your family into situations like this.
Gia cried at school this week, because the kids were making fun of her family. I never, ever thought that would happen. Yes, I know, I flipped a table on Danielle. That's different. When someone on the outside is messing with your family and friends and trying to bully everyone, you stand up for yourself. I'll always stand up for myself, my family, and my friends. I never thought I would be in a position like this with anyone in my own family. It's beyond heartbreaking. I know I keep using that word, but it's the only word I can think of that comes close to describing this... Everyone keeps writing me that I look so much sadder this season, even in interviews about the show, and that's because I am sad. This hurts. I never wanted this, and I wouldn't wish this on anyone. All I can do is take things one day at a time, hold my head high, and hope for a brighter future!