Cast Blog: #RHONJ

There's Nothing There

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

There's Nothing There

Teresa talks about the Kim G. situation and explains her kids' costumes.

Hello! And congratulations! Did a fist fight just break out somewhere? Apparently that's all I have to say to cause a ruckus...

This week's episode was a lot easier to watch, obviously, because it was mostly about Halloween. I'm a summer girl, but I love the holidays. Everyone looked so cute in their fall clothes with their boots and little faux fur vests. Carving pumpkins at Jacqueline's house was great. And yes, we did send the kids away as soon as we started talking about the christening. I didn't want my kids to hear any of that. (And no, I didn't let them watch last week's episode either.) I'm glad baby Joey didn't know what was going on at his christening, but unfortunately my Gia did. I'm so sad she had to see any of that. I never expected in a million years that my brother would erupt like that, especially in front of his goddaughter. It's one of the millions of reasons I walked away immediately. I do not want to fight with my family ever, especially not in front of our kids and our parents, and especially not on TV.

Someone asked me an interesting question this week -- if the roles were reversed and I was asked to be on a show Melissa had been on already (knowing going on it would hurt our family) would I do it? Not in a million years. And certainly not for any opportunities being on TV might bring you. Nothing, nothing is worth breaking up your family -- not fame, not money, not anything. I'm a smart girl. If I wanted to still write a book, I think I could find a way to get it published. I do live near New York City. If I wanted to be a singer, I would audition for The Voice or something. Nothing is worth putting your family into situations like this.

Gia cried at school this week, because the kids were making fun of her family. I never, ever thought that would happen. Yes, I know, I flipped a table on Danielle. That's different. When someone on the outside is messing with your family and friends and trying to bully everyone, you stand up for yourself. I'll always stand up for myself, my family, and my friends. I never thought I would be in a position like this with anyone in my own family. It's beyond heartbreaking. I know I keep using that word, but it's the only word I can think of that comes close to describing this... Everyone keeps writing me that I look so much sadder this season, even in interviews about the show, and that's because I am sad. This hurts. I never wanted this, and I wouldn't wish this on anyone. All I can do is take things one day at a time, hold my head high, and hope for a brighter future!

Our kids not being together as much as they used to is also breaking my heart for them. We used to go trick-or-treating with my brother and his family until this year. This year they went out instead. Milania cried and cried for Antonia. I didn't know what to tell her. On a happier note, my kids were dressed as pop stars. Gia was Katy Perry, Gabriella was Lady Gaga, and Milania was Ke$ha. Audriana was Sue Sylvester from Glee. We did a photo shoot for People magazine last Halloween, and my costume for the shoot wasn't Super T, it was a contestant on Dancing with the Stars. I'll post the photos on my website: www.teresagiudice.com.

No matter what plays out the rest of the season, and believe me I'm shocked when I hear what people say on the episodes, I will not trash my family. Kim G. however is not family... Just to remind everyone, I never called Kim G. an "old lady." I said I regretted pushing her at the fashion show last year, because I "respect the elderly." (She was completely hysterical and in my face...) I'm only kidding. There's nothing there because there's nothing there. We were never friends. We aren't enemies. I don't think she even has the slightest thing against me, she just needs an excuse to get on TV. Go swap spit with Michael Lohan again, Kim G. I'm done, done, done with you.

I had another crazy week meeting my gorgeous, gorgeous fans! I was in Philly and Miami, and it was mine and Joe's birthday. Thank you all for your amazing messages! And thank you again for supporting Fabulicious! I love, love, love hearing about everyone cooking for their families! Keep sending me pictures, and I'll keep putting them on my site.

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Tanti baci,

Teresa