Cast Blog: #RHONJ

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Victoria Gotti's "Filth and Lies"

Nicole on the "Hideous Conversation"

Dina: "Valentine's Day Can Go Scratch"

Nicole: "Bitterness is Leprosy to the Soul

No Double Bagging Talk for Teresa

Amber: I Pray We Can All Move On

Melissa: Rosie's Really in Love

Teresa: Gia's a Daddy's Girl

Dina Sees the Good in Amber and Nicole

Scamber's True Character

Amber: "What Did I Do to Deserve This?"

Bobby Saw the Marcheses True Colors

Dina: "I'm Sorry"

Melissa: Amber was Looking to Argue

Teresa: Jim Lied to My Face

Amber: Nicole Behaved Like a Barbarian

Jim Marchese's Hurtful Comments

Nicole on the "Embarrassing Debacle"

Teresa: "Amber Lost Control"

Melissa: "Amber Put Me in a Bad Position"

What Were Amber and Melissa's Intentions?

Teresa Aprea: Amber's Off Her Rocker

Nicole: Amber's Reached an Absolute Low

Amber: "Melissa Behaved Like a Child"

Teresa Giudice on the New Girls

Why Melissa Told the Twins

Dina: "Amber Did Get Under My Skin"

Teresa Apologizes to the Marcheses

Nicole on the Christmas Present Debacle

Gift Ideas for Nicole's Boyfriend

Melissa's Real Estate Nightmare

Teresa's Puppy Surprise

Bonding with Nicole

Teresa: To Know Rino is to Love Him

Amber's Book of "Etiquette-cy"

Questioning Amber's Intentions

Amber's Rules of Etiquette

Dina: "The Bitch Is Back!"

Teresa: My Father-in-Law was a Great Man

Melissa: "Teresa and I are in a Good Spot."

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Caroline explains why she didn't attend Kathy's pool party.

Happy Mothers Day! I hope you had a great day. I’m writing this as I’m waiting for Lauren to get ready. My kids are taking me out on this beautiful, sunny day, so I’m happy.

I’m going say this for the last time -- an apology is only an apology when it’s sincere. Issues go way beyond the cookbook. The cookbook is trivial nonsense. I don’t attack anyone, I respond to comments made about me. I don’t back down, and I won’t play the game. I say it as I see it and will never hide behind an insincere apology or a fake friendship. If that’s being a bully, then so be it. I’m a bully.

My kids drive me nuts, they love to tease me and see how far they can push the envelope before I snap. They almost got me this time. The boys are on the cusp of seeing BLK really become a nationally recognized brand and BAM! Christopher is buying a Jaguar! No! Slow down! It’s too soon, save your money! This is what was going through my mind as I walked into the dealership. It was quite a surprise. I love Al, my kids, and my car!

Victoria hit the nail on the head -- yes, I stayed away from the pool party on purpose. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. I’m keeping everyone at arms length, because I don’t want to be a wedge in the Gorga/Giudice/Wakile issue. This was an intimate family party. If I went every move I made would have been analyzed. Who sat with who, what did you say to her, what did she say to you? Not playing, staying away makes the most sense. I spoke to Kathy about it, and I hope she and Rich understand.

P.S. I LOVE ROSIE! She is pure sunshine, absolute sunshine.

Albert and I have been together over 30 years. We dated for three years and will be celebrating our 28th Anniversary in July. I love that man more than words can say. I hit the jackpot. He is kind, he is funny, he is strong, he is loving, a great dad, and my best friend. We’ve been through everything together; we faced the hard times and came through it stronger and better for it. Life is good.

That’s it for now, see you all next week. My kids are waiting for me!