Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Teresa's Blubber Comment

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

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Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Teresa's Blubber Comment

Caroline explains why Teresa's insults don't bother her.

Hey guys, so what did you think of RHONJ Reunion Part 1? Pretty intense, right?

First and foremost I want you all to understand how taxing the reunion taping process is. We are literally sitting rehashing what feels like every single moment of the season for nearly 12 hours. I think we experience every single emotion during that time, and when we are finished we are completely drained. I have to be honest, sitting here writing this blog isn’t exactly a blast either, but I suppose we each owe you the chance to read our take on things one last time.

I have so many thoughts running through my mind right now, and I don’t want to ramble, so I may keep this short and do a summary at the end of Part 3, let’s see where this goes.

Let’s talk about my nephew, Nicholas. Our beautiful, beautiful little man who happens to have autism. It took quite a while for Chris and Jacqueline to get a concrete diagnosis on Nick, and I fully understand and agree with their decision to keep it off the show until they had all the answers they needed. Everyone knew about Nick’s condition, and I respect and want to thank Bravo for their understanding in keeping it quiet until Chris and Jacqueline were ready to discuss it.

Having said that, watching that video was both heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time. I’m sorry for my outburst, but that was about Nicholas and I believe it was disrespectful and selfish of Teresa to infuse herself into that moment.

That’s all I’m going to say about it. I wish Chris and Jacqueline strength and patience on their journey to heal our beautiful little man, Nick. God knows he is surrounded by the love of his family near and far, and if love can heal, he’s going to be a winner.

The “old hag” and the “triple blubber” comment… I’m a big girl, and I’m very aware of my shortcomings. Yes, I am getting older, and yes, I do struggle with my weight and have a wrinkle here and there. I got a tummy tuck when I was 39, which was 12 years ago. I’ve never hidden it, but I don’t understand the relevance; in the spirit of full disclosure I had the chicken pox in 1970 and a hang nail about a month ago. Oh wait, I also get kidney stones, migraines, and have recently developed hypertension (I wonder why…).

All kidding aside, the comment didn’t hurt me, because I won’t allow it to. I have the power to not let it affect me. Maybe it’s just a basic maturity that we, as adults, should have. On the other hand, there are people in this world that struggle every single day with their self-image and sometimes they aren’t capable of brushing negative comments off, my daughter being one of them. I love her to death for sticking up for me, but I don’t like seeing my children dragging themselves into the mess. What Teresa said hit home for her, and she needed to let Teresa know how she felt about it. Sticks and stones.

At one point I really tried to talk to Teresa. I was sitting next to her on the couch, and I saw something in her eyes that I was hoping I could address and give her a little clarity on. I know many of you love to refer to me as a bully. Trust me, I’m not, I have a heart and I have feelings. I tried to make a point. There’s more to come on this, so next week, let’s watch and see what happens.

As far as the chaos that ensued between Kathy, Teresa, and Rosie shortly after, I tried to have a conversation with Teresa. I think we have to let that go for now to -- it got VERY deep and VERY emotional. SAD.

I’m rambling, even though I said I didn’t want to ramble. There’s so much more coming that ties into what you saw tonight, so I will just leave it off here and wish you all pleasant dreams.

See you next week.

xoxo

C.