Jacqueline Laurita

Jacqueline questions whether she ever really knew Teresa.

on Jun 13, 2012

Another thing that bothered me was during the reception; Teresa announced that her book made the best sellers list. As happy as I was for her, and I always supported her on all of her accomplishments, it kind of pissed me off that she would mention that to Caroline and the family knowing full well that it was a sensitive subject between them. I just found it insensitive and not necessary. She knew exactly what she was doing.

I started seeing a different side to Teresa that I didn't respect. She was doing and saying some pretty ugly things. I really wanted my friend back. I missed her. I needed her. I wanted the fun loving Teresa that wasn't self-absorbed or consumed with "keeping up with the Gorgas" and trying to surpass them at all costs. I wanted her to understand how her words and actions were affecting the people and relationships in her life that should matter the most to her. I wanted her to learn how to view things from another person's perspective. I wanted her to know that I would still love with all of her faults, but I just wanted her to be real with me.

I knew at this point she was pulling away from me more and more. I understood the things that she was saying behind my back and where it was coming from, so I was trying not to get mad at her for that, even though it did upset me. She didn't understand that I was trying to help her. In her eyes, I was not supporting her (which was "agreeing" with her in her book). What she will never understand is that because I loved her, I was trying to help her make choices that would help her. It was never to hurt her. What kind of friend would I be if I agreed with her even if I thought she was in the wrong and encouraged her to hate her family because they all suck? That is her FAMILY! Did she really expect me to fight with them for her? That would not be right or fair. I wanted her to make peace with them for HER own peace. It would also bring peace to me and would have made filming more enjoyable. Instead every day was a struggle for all of us.