This episode had me cracking up! I couldn't believe Vito shared his bear tattoo story with everyone. "It must have gone back in his cave?" What the...? LOL! Melissa had me laughing the most. She wasn't joking around. You can see the panic and fear all over her face. Clearly she wasn't going to drown in two feet of water, but I think the thought of those biting bugs at the bottom of the river sent her over the edge. It was funny to watch though. I hope she can look back now and laugh about it too.
I loved when Rich came back from getting groceries with a ball and a bat and Kathy told him to go outside to play in traffic like a good little boy. I also couldn't believe that Joey Gorga asked the neighbor for fruit in his underwear and introduced Tarzan to everyone. He is so funny!
Teresa and I both know that I never asked her about her financial situation, nor did I care to know any details of it. I was a good listener when she needed me, and I felt like I gave great advice. The times Teresa opened up to me about her grievances, they were mostly about her family. It became a little repetitive and petty after a while, so it became harder to hear at times, but I still wanted to be there for her. I was mostly concerned about the many personal, public articles that kept coming out in national magazines that she never acknowledged around us. All I knew was that Teresa told me she was putting out articles (as you saw at Jamie’s wedding), but I never knew what parts of them were true or not anymore. Some of them said scary things. Things that you would talk to your best friend about. Things I worried for her about. I figured that if Teresa took the time to share with the tabloids certain things about her life, friends, and family, which allowed many strangers to read these things and left people to speculate on what was real or not, that I just wanted the same (if not more respect) as her best friend -- to hear the truths straight from the source. I just wanted to know what was real or fake, if she needed my help at all, or to know if she was really hurting or not. The thought of her suffering in silence concerned me. I wanted her to talk to me about the things she was opening up to the tabloids about. Those seemed like much more serious issues to worry about than if Melissa was copying her feather skirt or not. I needed to lean on Teresa as a friend at that time as well, and I felt like I wasn't being heard or that she wasn't concerned with what I was dealing with. When Teresa said to my face that she didn't ask me questions because she didn't care, that cut me very deep. I, unlike her, wanted my friends to ask questions. It feels good when someone else cares and wants to help. I think we have a different perspective on the definition of true friendship. It doesn't make either of us wrong, just different. As much as I was trying to help Teresa, I felt like my efforts were misinterpreted and she was upset and disappointed with me more and more. It was frustrating. I wanted her to know that I had her best interest in mind, and when I didn't agree with her on things, it didn't mean that I didn't love her. I just felt that there were more important things in life to worry about or focus on.
Anyway, I was really glad that we finally sat and talked and that she initiated the conversation. I apologized if I had hurt her, and I meant it. For those of you that were on my back for not apologizing, now you can see that I clearly did. It really wasn't my intention to hurt her in the first place. I felt bad for losing my temper, because I felt hurt at Melissa's launch party. I already knew that she most likely wouldn't be accepting blame or apologizing for anything, because I know that is just how she is. I was OK with that, because I felt like maybe she finally understood me more and maybe it gave her more awareness of others feelings. I was just happy to be more at peace with her after our talk, because I was feeling unsettled at that point. I was definitely happy that she seemed to be getting along with her family and that we talked. Things seemed to be better between us, but somehow I knew things would still be different, although I was still hoping for the best.Lauren was going through a transitional phase during this trip. She was becoming more separated from her brothers than she was used to be. It had always been the three of them doing everything together. They lived together, went to school together, and shared most of the same friends. When siblings start growing more independent and venturing out on their own, relationships start to shift a little. This is life's natural course. They will all have their own families to focus on one day as well. (This is all too familiar with Teresa and Joey Gorga.) It doesn't mean they love each other any less. I think it was harder for Lauren than most, because her brothers were moving on together. They lived together, worked together, and were making new friends together, so Lauren was feeling a little left out. I understand what she was feeling. That could not have been easy. She felt left out of the good times they were having together without her and didn't feel included. She felt left out of their new private jokes. She just wanted to be kept in the loop and stay as close as they always were. I think it all came to a head on the trip, and that's why she was so sensitive about it. I actually found it endearing that she loves them so much that she got so upset about it. I don't think the boys intentionally left her out, because I know they love their sister very much. They were just looking at things from a different perspective. They were not thinking as deeply about it as Lauren was, because the boys were still continuing their lives together and just going with the flow of things. It's all good, they are still very close to this day.
For the record, Caroline did not call Lauren any names to her face, she was expressing her frustration with Lauren in the moment. What parent with a grown child has not gone through that moment? Trust me, Caroline loves all her kids equally, and she is extremely close with ALL of them. Her kids love her back just as much. I love how all of her kids want to come around and still enjoy time with their mom. What mother wouldn't want that? People that comment on their closeness negatively just seem a little jealous to me, because I think it's a positive thing. That's about it for this week. Take care! XOXO!
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