Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Fake It Till You Make It

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Fake It Till You Make It

Jacqueline Laurita was hoping all the fun in Napa would bring Teresa closer with her family.

This episode had me cracking up! I couldn't believe Vito shared his bear tattoo story with everyone. "It must have gone back in his cave?" What the...? LOL! Melissa had me laughing the most. She wasn't joking around. You can see the panic and fear all over her face. Clearly she wasn't going to drown in two feet of water, but I think the thought of those biting bugs at the bottom of the river sent her over the edge. It was funny to watch though. I hope she can look back now and laugh about it too.

I loved when Rich came back from getting groceries with a ball and a bat and Kathy told him to go outside to play in traffic like a good little boy. I also couldn't believe that Joey Gorga asked the neighbor for fruit in his underwear and introduced Tarzan to everyone. He is so funny!

OK, so surfing isn't my thing. I have tried surfing before, but I really didn't want to try to squeeze into a wetsuit at that moment in time and sharks freak me out. Don't they come into shallow water too? I hear a lot of that lately. Yikes! No thank you. I had fun watching. Everybody finally made it up on the board that day. I was proud. I really loved to hear that compliment my husband gave me. (Bonus points for him.) I'm glad that he is happy with my body. I wish I could be, but I love to pick myself apart. I'm a confident insecure person, if that makes sense. I'm OK not being perfect and I can laugh at my faults. Maybe I just need a new mirror.
Just for the record, when I spoke about Teresa being competitive to a fault at times, I was not just talking about her surfing. Not really important anymore. Clearly there was more going on between me and Teresa than the "articles" and the other stuff you are seeing. It was discussed with Teresa during our "talk." I also felt a whole lot of unnecessary pressure from Teresa at a time when I just couldn't take anymore. I wasn't in a position to take on other people’s problems, and I just needed peace around me. Like I told Teresa, had I gone after Melissa and Kathy for Teresa (the way she would have liked me to), they would have hated me by that point. And after Teresa decided to make up with them, where would that have left me besides having more added stress that I didn't need? I know Teresa said that she got over it, but I honestly didn't believe she did. I was hearing too many things. I honestly just wanted everyone to be open, honest, and real with each other. I wanted everyone to resolve their issues once and for all. My head couldn't take anymore fighting around me! I was getting too worn out! I felt like I was just going to shut down. That's one of the reasons that I got so upset with her about the Danielle thing. Teresa was finally so close to peace with her family (on camera) and I KNEW her public communication with that devil (Danielle) would start some trouble all over again. I thought she should have handled that issue in private. Even if she was faking for the camera, it still made things more pleasant for everyone. I was hoping eventually that the good times would outweigh the bad between them, and it would turn sincere. Fake it till you make it.
I didn't want to disappoint my friend, but I wanted to feel free to be who I was, and I wanted her to respect me for that. I like to find out who people are and judge them through my own experiences with them, especially people who I see so often. She knew this about me, but she still let me know how much I disappointed her in different ways. It didn't sit well with me, but I just didn't feel right doing the things she wanted me to. If I got involved with her fight against her family, it would have been so much more difficult and awkward for them to resolve things. It would only add more fuel to the fire. I didn't want to be involved with that. At the same time, it hurt me to see Teresa hurting. I wanted things to get better for her. It's also natural for me, when I see someone hurting, to offer my help. I'm a great listener and communicator, so I did feel a little shut out by Teresa in other areas, but I think I finally understand the way Teresa thinks now. I started to understand her boundaries more, and I needed to respect them. I also wanted her to respect where I was coming from.

Teresa and I both know that I never asked her about her financial situation, nor did I care to know any details of it. I was a good listener when she needed me, and I felt like I gave great advice. The times Teresa opened up to me about her grievances, they were mostly about her family. It became a little repetitive and petty after a while, so it became harder to hear at times, but I still wanted to be there for her. I was mostly concerned about the many personal, public articles that kept coming out in national magazines that she never acknowledged around us. All I knew was that Teresa told me she was putting out articles (as you saw at Jamie’s wedding), but I never knew what parts of them were true or not anymore. Some of them said scary things. Things that you would talk to your best friend about. Things I worried for her about. I figured that if Teresa took the time to share with the tabloids certain things about her life, friends, and family, which allowed many strangers to read these things and left people to speculate on what was real or not, that I just wanted the same (if not more respect) as her best friend -- to hear the truths straight from the source. I just wanted to know what was real or fake, if she needed my help at all, or to know if she was really hurting or not. The thought of her suffering in silence concerned me. I wanted her to talk to me about the things she was opening up to the tabloids about. Those seemed like much more serious issues to worry about than if Melissa was copying her feather skirt or not. I needed to lean on Teresa as a friend at that time as well, and I felt like I wasn't being heard or that she wasn't concerned with what I was dealing with. When Teresa said to my face that she didn't ask me questions because she didn't care, that cut me very deep. I, unlike her, wanted my friends to ask questions. It feels good when someone else cares and wants to help. I think we have a different perspective on the definition of true friendship. It doesn't make either of us wrong, just different. As much as I was trying to help Teresa, I felt like my efforts were misinterpreted and she was upset and disappointed with me more and more. It was frustrating. I wanted her to know that I had her best interest in mind, and when I didn't agree with her on things, it didn't mean that I didn't love her. I just felt that there were more important things in life to worry about or focus on.

Anyway, I was really glad that we finally sat and talked and that she initiated the conversation. I apologized if I had hurt her, and I meant it. For those of you that were on my back for not apologizing, now you can see that I clearly did. It really wasn't my intention to hurt her in the first place. I felt bad for losing my temper, because I felt hurt at Melissa's launch party. I already knew that she most likely wouldn't be accepting blame or apologizing for anything, because I know that is just how she is. I was OK with that, because I felt like maybe she finally understood me more and maybe it gave her more awareness of others feelings. I was just happy to be more at peace with her after our talk, because I was feeling unsettled at that point. I was definitely happy that she seemed to be getting along with her family and that we talked. Things seemed to be better between us, but somehow I knew things would still be different, although I was still hoping for the best.Lauren was going through a transitional phase during this trip. She was becoming more separated from her brothers than she was used to be. It had always been the three of them doing everything together. They lived together, went to school together, and shared most of the same friends. When siblings start growing more independent and venturing out on their own, relationships start to shift a little. This is life's natural course. They will all have their own families to focus on one day as well. (This is all too familiar with Teresa and Joey Gorga.) It doesn't mean they love each other any less. I think it was harder for Lauren than most, because her brothers were moving on together. They lived together, worked together, and were making new friends together, so Lauren was feeling a little left out. I understand what she was feeling. That could not have been easy. She felt left out of the good times they were having together without her and didn't feel included. She felt left out of their new private jokes. She just wanted to be kept in the loop and stay as close as they always were. I think it all came to a head on the trip, and that's why she was so sensitive about it. I actually found it endearing that she loves them so much that she got so upset about it. I don't think the boys intentionally left her out, because I know they love their sister very much. They were just looking at things from a different perspective. They were not thinking as deeply about it as Lauren was, because the boys were still continuing their lives together and just going with the flow of things. It's all good, they are still very close to this day.

For the record, Caroline did not call Lauren any names to her face, she was expressing her frustration with Lauren in the moment. What parent with a grown child has not gone through that moment? Trust me, Caroline loves all her kids equally, and she is extremely close with ALL of them. Her kids love her back just as much. I love how all of her kids want to come around and still enjoy time with their mom. What mother wouldn't want that? People that comment on their closeness negatively just seem a little jealous to me, because I think it's a positive thing. That's about it for this week. Take care! XOXO!


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Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Dina Manzo thanks everyone who helped make her event a success.

Let's focus on the positive shall we? I was over the moon with how this Project Ladybug event turned out. All the girls did their part. Teresa's hair care line Youthful 8 provided all the hair for the event as well as sponsoring some decor and favors. Melissa rallied some amazing raffles and her and Joe kicked ass with the live auction. The twins packed the house with all of their friends, and Amber gave us the connection to Stacie and adorable fashion show by East Coast Starz.  

I have to say a big thank you to Abbey and Tommy for opening their home to us and a HUGE thank you for connecting me with Louis and the team at Sayerwoods Event Designs. They went above and beyond with the candy theme. I was blown away how they made my vision come to life. To top it off they are the kindest people to work with! 

Couture Candy Buffets did an amazing job with the candy bar even though I drove them nuts with the layout, LOL! Sugar Rush Bakery's cupcake bar was a hit and the boys from SCE Event Group as usual rocked the house. iParty Pix gave us a fun photo booth to play with and The Brownstone filled the guests' bellies to the brim. Thank you to all those who donated to our silent auction: the NY Islanders, NY Jets, NY Giants, Depasquale Spa, Yanina & Co, DJ Pauly D, Harrah's Resort, and iParty Pix. Last but not least thank you MelissaGarciastyling.com for picking out my gorgeous dress from 25 Park, davidantuneshair.com for my hair, and Dayna (www.weddingiwre.com/muartistrybydayna) for doing my makeup for the night. My good friend Manny as usual captured every moment for us (www.mcarabelphotography.com).

Thank you to my ladybug team of my sister Cookie, Lexi, Kenny, Stephanie, and Dianne for keeping things flowing while mama bug got her Meana on. 

The night was amazing and other than the little glitch of the girls' talk (which I'm so grateful happened at the very end of the night), it was perfection.

Special heartfelt thanks to Jacqueline Collot, mother of Julien, our man bug in heaven that is the namesake of the Project Ladybug fund at Memorial Sloan-Kettering. Along with a touching video of Julien himself, Jacqueline shared her story to help put a face on childhood cancer and those that it affects.  Of course thank you to all of our honored guests, who helped us to raise $50,000, which was presented to the hospital by myself and some of the girls. I was a very happy bug. 

Please visit here to see a video I made for you guys on this last episode. Click around and see what you missed, there's lots of juicy stuff in there. 

As for this season...I learned a lot. I may keep quiet but my eyes are wide open.

Namaste Bitches!

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