Cast Blog: #RHONJ

What a Rush!

Melissa dishes on her big performance.

Hi Lovers!

Hope you are all having an amazing summer. I’ve been spending so much time at our beach house and just enjoying good quality time with Joe and the kids. I’m so in love with them all and feel so blessed to have this incredible family. Hope you are all doing the same with yours!

Well you finally got to see the Beatstock performance! It was such a rush being there and being on stage in front of all those people. It took a lot of courage to get out there and do it, and I loved every minute of it. Rehearsing with Cris Judd was more than I could ever ask for. He is one of the kindest and most patient people I know. He saw that I was nervous and instantly did everything he could to teach me how to let it go. We all know he has worked with the best, so he definitely intimidated me, but you would never know who he worked with by talking to him. He is the most humble guy and so thankful for all the opportunities he has had in life. He taught me a lot including the little known fact that standing still makes the biggest wow! Who knew? Thank you, Cris Judd.

The performance felt amazing. It was like a huge adrenaline rush, and when it was over I just wanted to get back on the stage and do it again. I was so proud of Gia. I love her so much. I’ve known her since she was just two years old, and we used to dance together all the time. I always grabbed her at the family parties and danced with her. She loves to shake her groove thing!

I don’t hold anything against the little girls mocking me about my music. They have both never seen me perform, so I know it’s not coming from them. I used to sing all the time at our family holidays. I have one video of us at Easter that is adorable; Gia and I were singing karaoke. Gia was about 4 years old. So cute. You can tell by the way their parents laughed where the negativity is coming from. Yes, it’s sad, yes, I wish they would not talk about me negatively in front of my nieces, and yes, I wish they would have told them that it’s not nice. But those are their parents, so they will absorb whatever it is that is going on in their home. I can’t control it, all I know is that if my children ever said a nasty word about their aunt or uncle, they would hear it from me. I will say those girls never act like that around me. They love me, and I can feel it. Did you see me run up to Gia when my performance was over and give her a huge hug and tell her I love her? That’s how I have always been with her and all my nieces. Did you see Joe jumping and screaming saying he would kill for Gia. That’s an uncle. That’s how we are with anyone who is in our family. We support them, we lift them up, and we tell them they are amazing. We don’t try to highlight every little flaw. It definitely bothered me when Teresa said I lip synced at my release party. Where does she get this from? That is 100% not true. When I do heavy choreography, which I normally do, I sing live to the track. Most artists do. It’s not any different than any other performer you hear on the radio today. I’m not sure why she feels the need to say this in front of the camera and in front of her girls. Does it give her some kind of satisfaction to discredit me? I never question her cooking and I NEVER would. That is her business and livelihood, what kind of person would I be if I tried to make people not believe in her? Well I guess I would be exactly the same person she is. I don’t like that she says she has never heard me sing acapella either. Hello, did everyone not hear me on Season 3 when I stood next to my piano in my great room and sang for the producers so they could hear my voice, with the whole Bravo crew right there? Was she not at the BLK launch party where I sang live? For the life of me I can’t figure out why she says these things. I really wish she would just wish me well.

My sisters crying during my performance gave me the chills. I had no idea they were crying, and I love them so much. They are the greatest example of how siblings should support each other. They are standing by and watching me succeed and do what I’ve wanted to do since I was a little girl, and they couldn’t be happier. I used have them follow me around through the house with the camcorder recording me sing and dance. They were always front row at every one of my school plays that I sang at. They probably can’t believe that they are actually seeing me on a legit stage. I love you, Kim and Lysa!I love that Patti Labelle loved the BLK water! I’m so happy for the Manzo/Laurita crew and their success with it! I thought it was hysterical to see Albert taking a back seat to his boys. Although I have tried the Brownstone sauce, and it’s great!

I’m excited that Kathy is finally following her dream of desserts. She used to come to my kids’ birthday parties with decorative cakes for them all the time. It’s her thing, there is no denying that! Everyone seems to be moving forward with their dreams. I’m proud of every single one of them. The drama aside, all five of us ladies are great parents, great family people, and very driven. I applaud all of us for having the courage to show the world how our families work. I think we are all pretty amazing!I can’t wait for you to see the fun times coming in California! There are some pretty amazing moments!

Thank you all so much for loving ROCKSTAR! It’s number 20 on iTunes and I can’t explain how grateful I am. I have the most amazing fans, and you support me until the end! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

ROCKSTAR is on iTunes right now! Go and get it! Here’s the link:

I just finished a new dance song that gives me chills! It is incredible, and the release date is coming soon!

For anyone who is going to be in Atlantic City next weekend I’ll be at Harrah’s The Pool After Dark on July, 27th. Make sure you stop by!

I just launched my new website, and I love it! Make sure you check it out!

Follow me on Twitter for the scoop @melissagorga and on Facebook.
Lots of Love,

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