Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Crazy World

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Crazy World

Teresa is confused by everyone's contradictions.

Hi Baby Dolls!

I had such a great time being back in Chicago for my book tour this week! I love visiting my Midwest fans! Next stop: Canada! Thank you all for supporting me and my cookbooks and Fabellini. I owe so much of my blessings to you and your love. Thank you, thank you, thank you! xx

I have to say, this week's episode was a lot easier for me to watch than last week's. Last week's was crushing to live through, and horrible to re-watch. Again this week everyone gives their opinions about me and my motives, pretends to know what I think and feel, and makes their little digs at me, but at least it's not a surprise any more.

So welcome to another week in Crazy World! I've been going in the same direction all season, but everyone else's constant circles and contradictions are hard to keep up with...

I loved that when I invited Kathy to lunch, she brought little bloomers I gave Victoria when she was a baby to remind me that we're blood and we've been like sisters for over 35 years. I didn't so much love when she then said in her interview she's afraid having lunch with me might upset her friends Caroline and Jacqueline. Who she just met. The people I'd been friends with for 10 years that she was upset I treated like family over her...

It was weird to me when Melissa said I "never tweet her" since she thanked me on Twitter for congratulating her on Twitter for her song and sending the link to buy it out to all my followers (which I happily did three more times). She says this while Joe and I are on the way to support her at the second party for her first song...

Chris Laurita says Jacqueline's just so hurt I would even think about Danielle, especially after the whole Ashley assault case. Five seconds later, Jacqueline is defending Melissa for actually contacting Danielle...(PS: Jacqueline and Chris know I didn't contact Danielle, I just answered a tweet from her that was read to me on Watch What Happens Live based on Caroline opening the Danielle Pandora Box the week before. The whole twittery history is in my blog from last week.)

Melissa's concerned I keep bringing up the past. Except me learning about Melissa talking to Danielle is not the past for me. It's my present. It might have happened two years ago, but I just found out about it a week earlier. You saw how upset I was when Danielle brought up my nephew at the Season 2 Reunion. Of course we spoke after that, and she never admitted to dealing with Danielle at all. And of course I believed her. Now fast-forward to last summer when Danielle tweets me and Melissa exchanges a few heated tweets with her too. I ask Melissa again about her relationship with Danielle and get an apology attached to a "well I was hormonal and hated you then." Um, what?

I would love to believe that Melissa has changed, has seen how contacting someone she thought was her own family member's "worst enemy" is really not right (she was mistaken by the way; Danielle was never my enemy, she was Jacqueline's), and wants to move forward. Except she keeps comparing her talking to Danielle with me talking to my own brother. Mine was a private conversation with my brother out of love like we've had many times with each other about each other's spouses through the years. Melissa's intent was to hurt me because she hated me. It's not even apples and oranges. It's more like Nair and Napalm.

But as my Joe says, it is what it is. And how do I handle this new attack? I'm proud to say, unlike how I might have handled it a few years ago, unlike how I handled things with Danielle, I let it go. I smiled, forgave immediately, and moved forward. I really do want to work things out with my brother, and getting along with Melissa is part of that. I would never do -- and never have done -- anything to intentionally hurt her, because I love my family.Say what you want about me behind my back. Guess what you think I'm like on the inside. But I think my actions speak for themselves. I am trying to work through my family's very public issues with as much grace as I can. I really do want my family to get along and love each other like they used to, like you saw at the end of this episode, and I wish the same for everyone's family, including of course the Manzos and Lauritas. I want the best for everyone. I know and my actions will always prove it.

If you've read my newest cookbook Fabulicious: Fast & Fit! you know I can't work out without great music to motivate me. My new favorite? Survivor by Destiny's Child. This is dedicated to all the lovers and the haters, those who always have my back, and those who want to eat my face off on live TV. Because "after all of the darkness and sadness, soon comes happiness." xx

I'm wishing you the best,
Pray that you are blessed,
Bring you much success, no stress, and lots of happiness.
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio
I'm not gonna lie on your and your family
I'm not gonna be hatin' on you in the magazines
I'm not gonna compromise my Christianity
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the internet
'Cause my mama taught me better than that.

I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna stop
I'm gonna work harder
I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on surviving.

Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx

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Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Dina Manzo opens up about her comments regarding her family and why she kept quiet for Teresa Giudice.

This reunion was very hard to watch. What most of you don't know is I went in there with the intention of keeping silent on my family issues, as I have for the past four years. An incident happened at the reunion, and I won't even give that person the attention they crave, but it set me off to tell my truth. Well some of it at least. I felt I was very P.C. this whole time, but now I had enough. Some people will push you because they know deep down inside you won't push back, but being "zen" is all about setting boundaries, and learning that has been part of my spiritual path. 

I don't want to go into much other than saying my answer about Nic came out very cold because there was more to it. I wish it were that easy to get to know him, but unfortunately it's not because of my relationship with his mother, and I'm just being honest. He is not missing me nor does he know what is going on with this family because of NOTHING more than his age. Anyone who is trying to make people think otherwise, especially his mother, should be ashamed of themselves. The Mother Theresa comment was about people comparing how I raise money for children with cancer yet don't help him. I went on to say how blessed my brother is to live in a county in New Jersey that people actually move to for the autism programs offered. How I see joy in him because of the progress he is making. He is a happy, beautiful child that is on his way to recovery, and although I know it's a struggle for parents of children on the spectrum, there is NOTHING wrong with seeing joy in them instead of sorrow. I appreciate all the parents of children with autism for their emails, tweets, etc. understanding and APPRECIATING that I see Nic as a 4 year old beautiful boy and not labeling him as anything other than that.

Kathy and Melissa should not have challenged me about "family values" if they don't want to hear my side. I kept quiet for the most part for TERESA, not wanting to bring up old wounds when she was dealing with so much around her sentencing. It was a hard position for me to be in. 

I have no words for my sister on WWHL. She could have answered the no engagement question and left it at that. The lies that followed after were extremely hurtful and must have come from the sheer frustration of having to defend her position on the engagement party. All of you have seen I have ONLY ever said positive things about her no matter what I was feeling. 

Please take a moment to watch this video I made on my truth about it all. I will post all the details on my look next week, but you can get to everyone involved -- from hair to dress  -- on my Instagram post on Sunday. Speaking of Instagram, I invite you to join me on a post a day for the month of November to share what you are thankful for. Showing gratitude for what you have in life just allows the universe to send you more to be thankful for! Trust me, it works!

Sending lots of love, 

Dina xo

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