Finally, I am not thrilled about the way Joe was talking to me in the car, but I also know that he was frustrated and emotional. He's been watching my brother hurt me and make me cry for months now, and he just couldn’t take it anymore. And he can't do anything about it. If you came home crying and told your husband your brother had called you "garbage" and an "f-ing bitch" and brought up old, private conversations just to make you look bad on national TV, what would he do? My Joe, he can't do anything. He can't go punch someone, can't talk to my brother, can't even send a text because he knows my brother will just turn it into a big TV soap opera. So he sits and stews. But because my life is being taped and I have to share what's honestly happening in my life, I have to tell my husband about the conversation. And as you could see, he didn't want to hear it, and I don’t blame him. Yes, some Jersey guys talk like that when they're upset. I don't like it, and I tell him that. But it's how he grew up and it's everywhere. You saw, that’s how my brother talks to me, it's how Joey talks to Melissa, and I've heard Richie talk like that as well. I could go on and on. I'm not condoning it, I don't like it, but if the worst thing a guy gets to do now is let off some steam with his mouth, big deal. We all have our moments and Joe rarely explodes like that. I married a man, I love my man, and he loves me. 99 percent of the time he speaks very sweetly to me, he's never violent or cruel, and he's a great dad, so yeah, the 1 percent of the time when he's pissed off, I'm going to forgive him. It's not who he is all the time or believe me, I wouldn't be with him. Andy Cohen wrote in his amazing book, Most Talkative, that they film 85 hours of footage to make 1 44 min episode of Housewives. I am sure most people would have a few seconds of anger in all of those hours and of course that moment is what is shown.
Stay tuned, because next week is one of my favorite episodes: Jamie Laurita's wedding in Chicago! One of the most beautiful weddings I've ever been to. Joe and I loved it. (He even cried!)