I hear those of you who say I deserve it, that I did the same thing. It's easier to say when you're not in the world of tabloids and television ratings, but I do want to explain how I handle it the best way I can. What Melissa and the other women accused me of all season was basically running the magazines and having complete control over everything. We all know that's not true. Even though Caroline mocked me for the headlines, she knows, we all know, they write something to sell. I know Melissa didn't write the US Weekly headline. I know she didn't even get to pick which shot of her (or me!) they put on the cover (at least I hope she didn't choose that shot...). I know Melissa can't control what "sources" say in the interview. She doesn't even know if her "story" will make the cover until it comes out. I don't blame her for any of that. I don't even care if she made a million dollars for the story. All I can hold her responsible for is the actual quotes that come out of her mouth. Read all my old interviews. Tell me what I actually said that was untrue or even hurtful. I talk about how I feel, I tell the truth about my life. I wish I could say the same about Melissa, but I can't. Her lies are absolute garbage and right from her mouth. That, at least to me, is a huge difference in how we handle being in the press.
I got a million calls from the press for my response, and I'll be honest, I didn't want to talk to anyone. But obviously they are going to write about me whether I give them quotes or not, whether there's any truth to it or not. There was a time when I was really upset to be in the magazines, when it was all new to me. But this is my life now. I'm on television, it comes with the territory. But I don't have to stoop to their level. I can tell my truth and still have something positive come out of it. So I decided while everyone's waiting to hear what I have to say (because they won't always care), I'll use this opportunity to also tell people about good things, about good causes.
Last year, right after the fashion show and Season 3 reunion, I entered Celebrity Apprentice world. I went to several charity functions with the Trumps and got to know about NephCure. I had never heard of them before and I was really excited about the possibility of bringing some much needed national attention to a great cause. I worked so hard to stay on as long as I could so as many people as possible would learn about NephCure. I think I helped them, but in a lot of ways, they saved me too. Raising money for people with real problems, for sick little kids, saved me from falling into a pit of self-pity from the way my family and friends treated me all season. It felt so good to be away from the tiny little bubble of New Jersey Housewives who have nothing better to do with their lives except obsessively text about secret texts... to use my brain and my business skills and my experience up against 18 other unique, talented and accomplished people. It felt so good to get outside of myself.