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The Teresa Apology Tour

Teresa comments on the awkward apology scene at Jacqueline's.

Hi baby dolls! It was amazing meeting so many of you in Texas this week at the breast cancer charity event. Thank you all for watching me on Celebrity Apprentice again this week -- I'm in the final five! Can you believe it? And as always, thank you for supporting me and my family. I read every one of your comments and Twitter and Facebook posts. I appreciate your prayers and compliments and inspiration!

And thank you for supporting my cookbook Fabulicious! I'm really proud of it, the recipes are delicious, and it's sold out again everywhere! Amazon just got more in stock, so if you can't find a copy, here's the link:

So let's talk about this episode. Again, and I'm going to keep saying this every week, this season was filmed last year. The stress of filming two seasons almost continuously with family and friends along with everything else... it really took a toll on me. Just like Jacqueline is thrilled to be in a new place with Ashlee a year later, I'm so happy to have moved on personally as well. I do miss my friends, and I do wish things were different with my family, but all I can do is give them time.

I'm beginning to think this season might be the Teresa Apology Tour. Hopefully it's coming to an end! I did first apologize to everyone privately, I apologized to them on camera, and I apologized to them publicly. I don't know what more I can do. In last week's blog I went over the cookbook "insults" and the wonderful compliments I gave them all page by page, so you can judge for yourself.It's hard watching the show a year later and seeing for the first time what friends and family said about you when you weren't in the room. When I went to Jacqueline's, I definitely felt the awkwardness like everyone was just talking about me, but I wanted to make sure I got my apology out any way. I'll be honest, I don't love hearing new "jokes" every week about me and my kids, but I can roll with it. My kids are healthy and beautiful, my marriage is strong, I really can't ask for more.

I'm sorry that Melissa doesn't "give a sh--" about my cookbook. I really don't think Joey read my first one, and it makes me sad, because I did talk about growing up with him. We had an amazing childhood. Skinny Italian came out a year before my brother and Melissa were approached/begged/talked to Danielle/made an audition tape/however it really went down to be on the show, and neither one of them came to a single book signing. To quote the song Alexa Ray Joel sang on last year's season: "All I can do is love..."As for the whole "gold digger" thing with Melissa, I'm very protective of my only brother. He was engaged two times before Melissa, and I hated seeing his heart broken every time things didn't work out. After that, he did date a lot of women who were interested in him for all the wrong reasons. So when he and Melissa were dating, she was at dinner with my family and she made a comment about how when she saw my brother's house and how well he was doing, she wasn't stupid, that she wasn't going to let him go. From our family's history with actual gold diggers, you can imagine it wasn't a great thing to hear. She probably said it from nerves and trying to be funny, but it rubbed me the wrong way. We live in a small town. I heard things about the type of guys Melissa dated before my brother, and I hear things I don't like now. I pray they aren't true. I hope my brother and Melissa stay married forever! I never should have brought it up on the show last season though, and I'm sorry. And I've learned not to bring up my concerns to my brother publicly or privately! It was a hard lesson, but I've learned it. I do really like the song Melissa sang for my brother. She played it for me last year, and I told her so then too. Here's the link to it on iTunes: Everyone go buy a copy and support her!

There was a tiny ray of hope this week: after connecting briefly on Twitter, I talked to Jacqueline on the phone for the first time in months to try and take baby steps back towards our friendship. It wasn't a perfect conversation for either of us, but out of respect for her, I'm going to keep the details of it private. I thought she looked great on Watch What Happens Live and I'm sorry I was stuck in Texas and couldn't make it. Keep my seat warm, Andy, and I'll bring you some Fabellini to make up for it!For more information about the charity I'm fighting for on Celebrity Apprentice, please visit I'm blessed and honored to be involved with them. It makes me so happy to be able to use being on TV to bring attention to something positive: finding a cure for a disease that affects so many adults and children. I know we can do it! Please help if you can!

I love, love, love you all more than you know! Thank you for sticking with me through thick and thin! Follow me on Twitter @Teresa_Giudice and visit my website for info about upcoming appearances, where to buy my Fabellini info, cute pictures of my terrorist children, and more!

Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx

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Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Dina Manzo opens up about her comments regarding her family and why she kept quiet for Teresa Giudice.

This reunion was very hard to watch. What most of you don't know is I went in there with the intention of keeping silent on my family issues, as I have for the past four years. An incident happened at the reunion, and I won't even give that person the attention they crave, but it set me off to tell my truth. Well some of it at least. I felt I was very P.C. this whole time, but now I had enough. Some people will push you because they know deep down inside you won't push back, but being "zen" is all about setting boundaries, and learning that has been part of my spiritual path. 

I don't want to go into much other than saying my answer about Nic came out very cold because there was more to it. I wish it were that easy to get to know him, but unfortunately it's not because of my relationship with his mother, and I'm just being honest. He is not missing me nor does he know what is going on with this family because of NOTHING more than his age. Anyone who is trying to make people think otherwise, especially his mother, should be ashamed of themselves. The Mother Theresa comment was about people comparing how I raise money for children with cancer yet don't help him. I went on to say how blessed my brother is to live in a county in New Jersey that people actually move to for the autism programs offered. How I see joy in him because of the progress he is making. He is a happy, beautiful child that is on his way to recovery, and although I know it's a struggle for parents of children on the spectrum, there is NOTHING wrong with seeing joy in them instead of sorrow. I appreciate all the parents of children with autism for their emails, tweets, etc. understanding and APPRECIATING that I see Nic as a 4 year old beautiful boy and not labeling him as anything other than that.

Kathy and Melissa should not have challenged me about "family values" if they don't want to hear my side. I kept quiet for the most part for TERESA, not wanting to bring up old wounds when she was dealing with so much around her sentencing. It was a hard position for me to be in. 

I have no words for my sister on WWHL. She could have answered the no engagement question and left it at that. The lies that followed after were extremely hurtful and must have come from the sheer frustration of having to defend her position on the engagement party. All of you have seen I have ONLY ever said positive things about her no matter what I was feeling. 

Please take a moment to watch this video I made on my truth about it all. I will post all the details on my look next week, but you can get to everyone involved -- from hair to dress  -- on my Instagram post on Sunday. Speaking of Instagram, I invite you to join me on a post a day for the month of November to share what you are thankful for. Showing gratitude for what you have in life just allows the universe to send you more to be thankful for! Trust me, it works!

Sending lots of love, 

Dina xo


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