I did get a lot out of therapy that day, but after our session -- out in the hall -- I realized then that it wasn't the past, it was the present that was bothering Joey. Joey truly believes the worst about me, believes bad rumors from bad people, and he can't get over it. It breaks my heart.
I think that's what it really boils down to: every bad thing that happens to or is ever written about Joey and Melissa, they blame me for. They accuse me of it on Twitter, on the show, in other magazines. I've never done anything to them, and I never would. First of all, I love my family. Second, their garbage would make me stink too, so why would I want that out there? Third, I've been through the anonymous and not-so-anonymous friends/sources putting out horrible lies about me, and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Again, one of the reasons I didn't want to do a show with my family.
When Joey brought up an article about our parents and blamed me for it, I could have died. First of all, if you know anything about me, it's that I'm fiercely protective of my parents. I don't ever talk about their private business on the show. Never have and never will.
My brother doesn't seem to feel the same way, but what he forgets is how often he talks about their private business with everyone! He thinks the only place the story about my parents could have come from is me? Joey, you just told a contractor last week on TV about them! A guy who obviously has no loyalty because he was telling tales about me to you!
From the day I was first on RHONJ, there have been horrible tabloid stories about me, but at least they were only about me. Then Kathy and Melissa and my brother join the show, and suddenly there are stories involving my parents! Are you kidding me? It's my worst nightmare!