Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Caroline's Frustrations

Caroline explains why she had to ruin the group's zen.

Hey guys, long time no speak! I hope everyone enjoyed their last few days of summer; I spent mine down the shore with Al and the kids along with a constant flow of friends and family. Life is good.

The past two episodes of RHONJ were pretty intense, wouldn't you agree? As promised, the viewing audience witnessed a few very real and emotional moments from cast members that you would least expect, my husband Albert being one of them. I'm not gonna lie, that knocked me for a loop, I wasn't expecting that at all.

The equine therapy session was amazing; I only wish you could have seen even more and how Wyatt interacted with each of us. He had the capacity to look right through you and challenge you without being aggressive and threatening. I don't think there was a dry eye amongst us when Rosie, Al, and Joe Giudice opened up to him. I appreciate Wyatt for that.

The high wire challenge was awesome. Everyone cheered each other on as they climbed the ladder and at times we laughed so hard our bellies hurt. Kathy and Rich showed us all how it's done by going the farthest. Rich following Kathy's lead was something to see! I wanted to participate, but my fear of heights wasn't having it. I literally had an inner battle with myself as I sat and watched everyone complete the task, but I knew that the possibility of me having a panic attack was real and that would not have been fun. I actually worked myself up so much that I sat there crying in frustration. I know my strengths and I know my weaknesses, and for me fear of heights is up at the top. I resigned myself to accepting defeat and calling it a day. Everyone else gave 100% and had a blast. For me personally, it's those moments when everyone has their guard down that mean the most. No one is looking to hurt, we're just a group of people having a really great time together. Unfortunately those times are far and few between with this bunch.

Melissa's birthday dinner started out great. Everyone was getting along and on the surface you would think we'd accomplished understanding and peace amongst the group. I was frustrated, because I knew deep down inside the issues weren't resolved. We'd been through the motions before, and I wasn't in the mood to go back to Jersey where relationships undoubtedly would have reverted to strained at best. I know I ruined the zen moment, but think about it, it wasn't really zen, was it? Ultimately the truth came out and now Joe and Teresa can hopefully move forward together instead of divided. United we stand, divided we fall... Keep on watching.

All in all, Mirival turned out to be a really great experience for all of us. Who would have guessed!?
 
That's it for now, see you all next week! And as always, thank you for watching!

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Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.