As you could probably tell, I was in no mood to workout when my trainer, Jolene Mathews (@Jolenemfitness & www.JoleneMatthews.com) arrived at my home. I'm not always resisting training like that, but I had just heard that Teresa was upset because I went to "her" gym and was telling people I was stalking her. I explained my feelings about that "situation" in my last blog, so I won't go there again. Teresa had been out of sight, out of mind for so long, and I had been feeling at peace with everything until I heard Teresa was talking about me again. It upset me so much that I found myself feeling sucked back into those negative feelings toward her again. I was basically upset with her for her being upset with me. What do I do when I get upset? I vent. So clearly, I vented. LOL!
I actually found that scene amusing. Poor Jolene had no shot at getting me to focus on working out that day. Jolene is a great trainer and a great friend. Jolene was actually very supportive and vented to me about how she felt hurt by Teresa as well. Girlfriends vent to each other, because it helps us feel better about whatever is hurting us. We purge and cleanse.
I do Botox and I am not ashamed of it. So what!? I love to poke fun at myself about it. It makes me laugh. If I remember correctly, the reason I mentioned Teresa doing Botox in my interview was because of what she had said to me during the reunion show about mine: "You and your Botoxed face!" LOL! I felt like Teresa saying that to me was odd, because I knew she did Botox as well, so I couldn't figure out why she would say it in such a derogatory way to me, as if she would never do it herself. Don't get me wrong, I respect that some people want to remain secretive about their beauty secrets and not everyone is as open about sharing them as I am. However, it bothers me when someone says derogatory things about others doing beauty treatments that I know they have done themselves. That was the point I was trying to make.