Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Melissa and Penny's Game

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Melissa and Penny's Game

Teresa shares her thoughts on the confrontation with Penny.

Hi Baby Dolls!
 
We're winding down to the very end. Can you believe there's only one more episode left?
 
First I want to say congrats to Melissa on her book and her music career. I am so happy for her! And congrats to the Manzo boys for their restaurant. The food is delicious! Love you all!
 
I loved seeing Victoria Gotti again. When we were first cast on Celebrity Apprentice together, the tabloids tried to say there was a fake feud between us maybe because we're both strong, Italian women? It's exactly that that made us friends! I trust and respect her. She's one tough lady. And not many people know how accomplished she is. She's written five books, was a columnist for the NY Post, and she had her own show Growing Up Gotti almost ten years ago, before Jersey shows were hot. I love her!

Did you see that we were drinking Fabellini? I'm super excited that our new formulation will be hitting stores nationwide in the next couple of weeks! To bring the price down and make it taste even better, we moved production to Italy. Fabellini is now made in the heart of Ferrari country. I can't wait for you to try it! Go to my website for more information: www.teresagiudice.com or http://www.tgfabellini.com/.
 
On last week's episode, my brother said something about me to Chris Laurita that really bothered me. I decided to ignore it and not write about it, but I couldn't sleep all night. But then he was at me again this episode, so I have to say something. Last week he said no one should "take advice" from me. That really hurt because I was good enough for Joey to take advice and help from when he was first starting his business. Then this week he tells some ridiculous story about how I acted when I was 5. Here's what's funny: he was 3 at the time. How long is he going to keep talking trash about his only sister? I wish he would stop, but it is taking a toll. You can only get hurt so much before you get numb. This week, when he was spewing garbage about me, I was numb. I don't know what that means, but that's how I feel now.
 
I wish I was numb during that confrontation with Penny at Moxie, but I was more like shocked. First of all, I couldn't believe Melissa's questions. We were finally together to confront Penny together about the awful cheating rumors she has supposedly been spreading about Melissa. And the first thing Melissa asks her? About MY FATHER in the hospital. WHAT?Why would that be Melissa's sudden concern? My father was in the hospital a couple of times months earlier. Penny and her husband have tweeted lots and lots of horrible things about Melissa's past for years and THAT'S the only thing Melissa is upset about? My father? Why my father? To deflect from the rumors about her? To distract Penny from saying things she knows about her? To make me mad so I would get more involved?
 
Whatever Melissa's calculated reason was, it worked. The entire thing turned around on me. For two years Penny has been tweeting exclusively about Melissa, and in two seconds, it gets turned around on me.

As you all know, I never talk about my parents to anyone. I get upset when my own family like Kathy talks about my parents. Why would I ever say a word about them to a stranger? Especially someone who has been publicly attacking my sister-in-law for years? Why would I go near that person? I've only met Penny at events. I've never talked to her on Twitter, I don't follow her, I just stayed far, far away once I figured out (along with the rest of America) that she was just trying to make herself relevant. How would Penny know about the controversy of when Melissa did or didn't go visit my dad in the hospital? We had filmed about it in public, me asking Melissa. There were lots of people there that could have told her.
 
Right then, when Penny brought up my dad in the hospital, I knew what was going on. I knew that she and Melissa were playing some kind of game, and I wasn't going to play along.
 
I can't figure out Penny and why she says what she says except that she wanted to be a Housewife. Her stories don't make sense, she does talk out of both sides of her mouth. She says she didn't do anything, then she says someone else made her do it. My favorite line of the night was from Jacqueline: "What are you 5? You make your own decisions. It doesn't matter what someone else told you to do, you chose to do it. So I blame you."

Thank you all so much for you amazing support! You lift me up with your kind messages and prayers. It means so much to me and my family!
 
Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx
 
www.teresagiudice.com
Twitter: @Teresa_Giudice

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.