I have no clue about the technical difference between a cook and a chef, nor do I really care. I've said repeatedly in past Top Chef blogs that if I ever went on that show, I'd be sent home the first week. I don't have great knife skills, I'm not making Coq au Vin on a regular basis, and a French-trained Michelin chef I am not. I leave that to my friends like Bobby Flay who really know what they're doing. That said, I know how to make healthy food taste delicious. My books Naturally Thin and Skinnygirl Dish are filled with easy, quick, delicious, healthy recipes. I went to culinary school but not Le Cordon Bleu. I went to school for food and healing to make healthy food more accessible to all.
I'm not nearly half as concerned or preoccupied about my credibility or skills as a chef as Kelly is. I find that rather disturbing.
I have to be honest. I felt for a few years now that I was seeing something in Kelly that I couldn't believe others couldn't see. I grew up in an insane asylum, so I can sense when someone is unstable from the beginning. I have seen signs of Kelly's erratic behavior for years now, and of course there was the domestic violence charge with her ex boyfriend. Things like that just don't happen to people. A large part of me feels sorry for her and sincerely thinks she should not be participating in a reality show environment. I don't think she can resist the temptation of the attention it brings regardless of the fact that it may not be good for her. Reality television is very stressful under the most normal circumstances.
For a brief period, it was the most eventful dinner party I've ever hosted, however, it took a scary, dramatic turn and we wanted to diffuse the situation. I realized that I needed to reel it in because this wasn't normal or healthy for anyone. Truth be told, what aired was very tame compared to what actually happened. I think that to air the full scope of it would terrify the viewers. We were truly terrified ourselves, and I must point out that none of us came home from that trip and told anyone about what went on there. We understood how serious it was and we were all scared. That night when I went to bed, I was legitimately scared for my safety as well as Kelly's. I know Alex felt the same. It was a completely horrendous trip and experience. That is the God's honest truth.