I really couldn't wait to get out of that club. I was so excited at the beginning of the evening, and I simply felt awful by the end. I felt like something so special had been ruined and I truly felt sorry for myself. Poor Jason couldn't even imagine why I would subject myself to any of it, and I was embarrassed. I think he was really questioning some of the people that I surround myself with and thinking about whether we would want them in our lives together. I can't say I blamed him. That night couldn't end quickly enough.