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Well?

Jill Zarin talks about losing Bethenny as a friend and why she still does the show.

By Jill Zarin

Drama drama drama! or should I say "ratings, ratings, ratings?"

So much has happened since the reunion which you will all see soon enough.

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I know what's on everyone's mind. I thought Bethenny and I had a real friendship even though we connected through the show. I admit my radar is not always good but after talking 10 times a day about her, her career, and her relationships, I thought our friendship was real. When Bobby was diagnosed with cancer, I thought my world would end. My friends called and came over everyday to see how he was. The one person I thought would be there for us no matter what was Bethenny. By the time we started filming, three months had passed and we had hardly spoken. There are a ton of things that happened between us but it all seems so petty now. Bobby's mother, Miriam Zarin, passed away last week. We were surrounded by our friends and family and I feel so blessed. Life is so short.

This season was so real to me, and the reason I keep coming back for more toxicity is because of you. Many of you have inspired me, reached out to me and have made my family feel very special. For that I will be eternally grateful for. Will I cringe watching the show? Of course
I will. Will I want to put words back in my mouth? Who wouldn't (or lies if they say they never would). But I am human and not perfect. I strive to be a better person and learn from my friends and sometimes my foes (a Kelly word!). Please don't be harsh on any of us. He who
throws stones....

I made some new friends this season and had a lot of fun doing lots of things that you will see during the season. I can't wait for  you to meet the new housewives in future episodes. I update my blog and Web site almost daily at www.jillzarin.com,and have a fan Facebook page and Twitter @jillzarin. This is a reality show meant to engage and entertain you. But please, DON'T take it too seriously and just enjoy the show. Oh, and don't forget to give your loved ones a big hug and kiss!

Love,
Jill

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