Cast Blog: #RHONY

Definition of Insanity

Bethenny dishes on dating, parenting, and of course, Kelly.

Wow everyone, I can't believe it's coming to an end. This has been quite a ride, and I can't thank you enough for continuing to purchase Naturally Thin, keeping it on the New York Times bestseller list for seven weeks now. Without you, this would never be possible.

Finding the right partner has been a journey. I spent my late 20s being engaged to a series of fabulous men who wanted to take care of me forever. I was looking for the father I never had, and ultimately couldn't follow through because I needed to take care of myself. Now, I feel that I'm on a good road of independence and I can choose a partner who complements me. It has been a challenge because a public life brings up a whole new host of challenges in finding a mate. I need humor and intelligence and love and someone who is very confident and can take this journey with me. I need a very secure person. I'm dating someone who seems like he may be that guy if I can work through some of my stuff.

I think communication and honesty are great parenting tools. You have to accept your children for who they are-not who you want them to be. We are the product of our parents' unresolved issues. Keep your issues to yourself and let your kids find their way. The fact that I didn't really have parents is probably why I'm so independent, free-spirited and driven.

I don't think Jill's assessment that I should be with a nerdy guy is necessarily true. We plan and God laughs, as Jill says. Nerdy, good-looking, rich, poor - the right guy will come and I need to work as hard on that as I do on my work and my relationship will be as successful as my book.

I had a cute and flirty second date with Philippe. He has children with two women, travels a ton and wasn't the guy for me. I know it when I see it. Dating him was a fun departure from my earlier relationship.

I will never regret taking the road I've taken. I am living my dream, and as I told Jill, I'll go into the grave knowing this. For years, I wished for this, panicking about money and rent and wondered who would take care of me. I can't now have all that and start complaining about relationships. You can have it all and I will. You get out what you put in. I don't believe in regret. Life is about the journey not the destination.

As for Alex and Simon's apartment renovation, their apartment suits their distinctive rock and roll lifestyle. I'm happy for them.

The reconciliation was my idea - not Jill's. I just chose to do it at her house because of the charity meeting. That meeting showed that the definition of insanity is repeating the same behavior and expecting different results.

Kelly and I don't have much in common. We have arms and legs and are on The Real Housewives. Other than that, we're quite different. Short of us boxing at Madison Square Garden, it can't get much worse than it already is. Not everyone has to be friends.