Aviva.... I encourage you to sit down with someone who is brave enough to be brutally honest with you .... perhaps a doctor or counsellor who understands people with anxiety issues, and watch the last 3 Housewives episodes from the St. Barts trip on. . Payment might be involved..haha. Perhaps they will be brave enough to take you on and help you to see how atrocious your behaviour really is. It is not defenceable. It just isn't. It is so outrageous and elitist. I don't understand it at all. In addition to your behaviour, all of the things that disturb you about Ramona and Sonja in regards to their lack of moral character are seen in your father times 10! And you excuse it like it is nothing. Fathers do not get a free pass in what is expected from them when interacting with people whom he is not close with. He may be kind and loved by many but the things that come out of that man's mouth. It is not cute, it makes my skin crawl. I have to fast forward the show when he comes on. Come on.....my dad is my hero to but if he acted in the manner your father does....when he never showed such tendancies growing up.....I would have him checked out by a qualified, certified specialist in senior mental health. I am not trying to insult you. And I am not a doctor. But I have seen such changes in people dealing with early onset dementia. I really think you need to spend the time and energy you seem to spend tearing down your castmates on your own family circle. It would be of great benefit to you and your family if you are willing to face the reality of what is really going on. Just a thought.