Where should I begin?
The main reason I left the Berkshires is that I was uncomfortable around Kristen.
Heather had put so much effort into the weekend that I did not want to ruin everyone else's time.
One thing everyone knows about me I have no trouble saying and doing what I want -- sometimes to my detriment. If I wanted to leave for a party in the Hamptons (which I was sponsoring with my Ramona Pinot), I would have absolutely no problem telling them and excusing myself from the remainder of the weekend. How many times do I have to say the main reason I left the Berkshires is that I was uncomfortable around Kristen?
She and I were not making up, and it was not relaxing being around her. My intention was never to hurt her. But if you throw something you don't know where it can end up -- so it is always wrong to throw an object.
After breakfast, I called my friend to pick me up and then I went in the woods. I always intended to leave after our walk.
Going into the woods jarred me and brought back bad memories. Those were not fake or crocodile tears. I never ever expected this reaction from myself.
I was very disappointed the ladies did not get this, especially Carole who saw me cry first-hand.